Rosie and I went out shopping today.

Went to Rack Room Shoes. I got 2 pairs of bjorndal sandals.

Went to TJ Maxx but didn’t buy anything.

Went to Office Max. Rosie got a touch pen for her new Ipad.. will be here on the 16th. My laptop is touch screen so I am having a blast! Also purchased some gel INK Pens.

We ate at The Davy Crockett Restaurant, choose a meat Plus 2-3 sides… all under $9.99 Sides includes salads as well as Banana Pudding.

Rosie got the Open Faced Roast Beef Sandwich, Mashed Taters and Banana Pudding. She has not touched the nana pudding and has enough Roast beef for 2 more meals!

Dad got the sirloin, slaw, brown beans and Nana Pudding. He brought ALL of the sirloin home for our dogs!

I had the country fried steak. Ate about 1/3 of it and  brought the rest home for the Boys (Snickers and Smoki). Mashed Taters, Side Salad (Country French Dressing) and Nana Pudding.

Smoki and Snickers went out with us. Dad stayed in the Van with the boys as we shopped.

I am THRILLED that Rosie is feeling so much better. She is back to her boisterous funny self… Thank God. I missed her. Love seeing her enjoying food. Been a long 7.5 months (Gastric Bypass) since she actually wants to eat and is able to enjoy it. BLESSED.

Going to pack clothes this weekend. Heading to West Virginia Next Sunday. Hoping to meet all of my West Virginia family at the new Arby’s in Pineville around 3 pm Sunday the 18th.

Pineville does NOT even have a McDonald’s. Closest McDonald’s is 13.48 miles away!

Closest Wal-Mart is 24.67 miles

Pineville does have a Dairy Queen now.

Going to call my Aunt Mattie and Uncle Harold (Springfield, OHIO) and let them know we are heading to Pineville. Hope they can meet us there.

Going to bleach Rose Lee’s Hair and Dye it a brighter red for Spring.

Dyeing mine Jet Black. Also going to cut some Bangs / Fringe to hide the wrinkles on my forehead. Yes, I do have wrinkles!

ALLERGIES are killing me. Sneezing. Breaking out in rashes when I go outside. Itching all over. Ear Tickles. Inflammation on my forehead. Sinus/Allergies Sucks!

Getting OLDER Sucks even-more-so.

Realizing that I let 46 years pass away without LIVING it.

Pray that I overcome my shyness. I want to have a bubbly, sparkling, boisterous personalty… I wish I could talk to men without having a panic attack. Wish I was able to be flirty. I just don’t have the confidence I wish I had. Always worried about something.

I still have Social anxiety.. afraid I am saying the wrong things. That I am bothering people. etc.

I am able to talk to gay men without any problem. Or I talk to men who live thousands of miles away so I won’t have to deal with them in person.

I Pray that I can start communicating with Straight Single men who live in Tennessee. Afraid of getting my heart broken again.

I have NEVER even had a girlfriend to talk with. No friends in School… I had few friends @ School but they never came to my house and I never went to theirs.  Never called and spoke on the phone… etc

Rose Lee is my best friend and Sissy.

John is my best male friend. He lives 3,500 miles away from here. Friends Only.

I have some friends online. Just acquaintances. I would love to be able to have friends in my life. Someone to hang out with. Do things with, etc  Laugh with. Cry With.

John is the only one who sees me cry. I share everything, all my thoughts, worries, anxieties. He knows me very well.

I bet I went 20 some years where I CRIED every single night. Feeling so lonely. I still cry on occasion but not like I use to.

I would LOVE to have a man to call me…not sure if I am ready.. I am getting there.

I have personal ads at a slew of websites. Get mail on a daily basis. Just don’t know which one I should write back so I don’t reply to any of them.

Asking God to guide me to the men, that will enhance my quality of life. Someone who will bring out the BEST in me. Someone who is Compassionate, Patient, Family Oriented and someone wants to help the less fortunate and who also adores animals.

I know the man God designed me for is out there praying to meet me. Praying for my family. I pray for that man every day and I have for 30 years. I know God wants me to have a helpmate. A Lover. A Friend. Praying that he enters my life soon.

I surrender my will to God’s will for my life.

Please Pray that God will help me overcome all my insecurities.

I Pray for confidence, the words to help encourage and bless others.

Use my smile to show God’s love to the world.

God, Here I Am.. Use me anyway you see fit. I am willing.

God Help me Help others.

I know I have it in me to overcome anything and everything that is holding me back from my full potential.

Change my personality Dear Lord… Make me bubbly, friendly, well spoken, and  kinder.

Make me selfless.

Give me the words that people need to hear.

USE ME.

Please USE ME Lord.

I surrender.

Ready to change.

Change starts NOW!

I pray for everyone who read this .

I pray for everyone in the world to be nicer to one another.

♥ GOD IS LOVE ♥

Angela Bell Goode