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May 6, 2012, at 10:21 pm

Doctor’s appointment tomorrow

I am still having all the same health issues.

Heart palpitations, hot flashes, sweats, chills, not able to concentrate, dizziness, headaches, fatigue, insomnia, weird abnormal issues from head to toe.Not to mention all the myalgia aches and pains.

My Glucose plummeted on me earlier.. glad it is back to normal.

Rosie’s leg is swollen from the trip to West Virginia. It is quite painful. She is gonna call her vascular doc to see if she can see him on Mon or Tues… if not she is going to see Dr Melling.

I just wish I had some energy to do something.

I feel paralyzed and incapacitated at times… MENTALLY.

Just unable to process my thoughts. Everything is muddled. No clarity. Unable to even think of a common words on occasion. It sucks!

There has to me more to life than the one I am living.

I want to LIVE….

I want to help others.

I want to be an extroverted, happy smiling woman with boundless energy to do things instead of sitting on my fat ass all day and doing nothing.

Having Chronic Fatigue Syndrome sucks.

Wish my doctors (PLURAL) could finally get me to the point where I want to get out of bed, and once out of bed able to accomplish all I know I am capable of!

Please keep us in your prayers. THANKS!

I Pray that God will either heal me or give my Dr knowledge on how to make me feel better.

~Angela Bell Goode


May 1, 2012, at 7:12 am

Inspirational

Raise your standards!

You deserve everything you need, and if you’re not getting it, make it known.

There’s no excuse for being treated with anything less than respect.

Communicate your feelings, and surround yourself with people who

truly care about you.


April 28, 2012, at 7:46 pm

Everything is beautiful in its’ own way…

(Ray Stevens) Jesus loves the little children All the little children of the world Red and yellow, black and white They are precious in his sight Jesus loves the little children of the world

Everything is beautiful In its’ own way Like a starry summer night Or a snow covered winter’s day Everybody’s beautiful In their own way Under God’s heaven The world’s gonna find a way

There is none so blind That is he who will not see We must not close our minds We must let our thought be free For every hour that passes by You know the world Gets a little bit older It’s time to realize That beauty lies In the eyes of the beholder

Everything is beautiful In its’ own way Like a starry summer nights Or a snow covered winter’s day Ah, sing it children Everybody’s beautiful In their own way Under God’s heaven The world’s gonna find a way

We shouldn’t care About the length of his hair Or the color of his skin Don’t worry about what shows from without but the love that lives within We’re gonna get it all together now Everything gonna work out fine Just take a little time to look on the good side my friend And straighten it out in your mind

Everything is beautiful In its’ own way Like a starry summer nights Or a snow covered winter’s day Ah, sing it children Everybody’s beautiful In their own way Under God’s heaven The world’s gonna find a way

One more time Everything is beautiful In its’ own way Like a starry summer nights

 

A very popular and family-friendly entertainer throughout the ’60s, Ray Stevens was given his own TV variety show in 1970 called The Ray Stevens Show, which lasted just one season as a summer replacement. He wrote the uplifting “Everything Is Beautiful” as the theme for the show. Stevens explained to mybestyears.com, “I needed a very special song for the program. I went down in my basement for about three days. I had crumpled paper all over the place. And suddenly the idea for the song came to me. I wrote it in maybe 45 minutes. It was a very special song and one that a lot of people still remember and sing along when I do it in shows.” This is a rare hit for Stevens that was not a novelty recording. He was better known for comedy songs like “The Streak,” “Ahab, The Arab,” and “Harry The Hairy Ape.” This won Stevens his first Grammy. It won for Best Contemporary Vocal Performance, Male. (thanks, Patrick – Tallapoosa, GA) Stevens was backed on this track by his two daughters and a second-grade class from Oak Hill Elementary School in Nashville, Tennessee. The song opens with the children’s chorus singing the first two lines of a popular bible school hymn, “Jesus Loves The Little Children.” http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Everything_Is_Beautiful


April 23, 2012, at 9:03 am

LOVE QUOTE

To love someone is nothing, to be loved by someone is something, but to be loved by the one you love is everything.


April 11, 2012, at 4:17 pm

Tired… What else is new?

Waiting on John to make it to our webcam chat.

Bored.

Lonely.

Tired.

Had a good trip to West Virginia and back. Always nice to spend quality time with my family. Missing them all so much.

Came home from the trip and ended up sleeping 17 hours. 9 of them straight. Awake 3. Slept 8 more hours.

I wish I didn’t have all the health issues I have.

HATE HAVING ZERO ENERGY.

Dad did all the driving home. He got home and did chores for hours while I slept. He is 71 and I am 46 and I could not do anything.

CHRONIC FATIGUE SYNDROME SUCKS.

Still having major issues with palpitations. Shaking inside. Worrying.

Going to stop off at my doctors office tomorrow and check on my lab results.

My moods have been swinging drastically. HATE it so much.

I start seeing a counselor/therapist on the 24th. I know I need help and I want to change.

Chemical and Hormones imbalances are horrible.

Sometimes I wonder what I did to deserve all these health problems.

Why do I have such social anxiety?

Why do I push people away?

Why do people unfollow me on Twitter? I thought we were friends.

Why does some family members deny my friendship on FaceBook?

It is all their loss.

Been trying to make friends online… but failing miserably.

What could I have done to cause you to unfollow me?

Rambling now.

Just in a melancholy mood.

John is late. Now I am gonna be pissed at him.

UGH!

I am ready to slap some people silly… or use my leather crop on their bum to make em obey me!!!! LOL

Worried about having to get up at 11 am tomorrow. Worried about sleeping and/or not sleeping.

Frustrated with life.

Lack of a life is more like it.

Praying to God for help in dealing with everything.

I know I need Him.

I ask for forgiveness of my sins and shortcomings.

I surrender and plead to God to help me.

~Angela

 

 


April 6, 2012, at 2:47 pm

Trip

Almost got everything packed. Looking forward to seeing my West Virginia Family and Friends.

Will send Facebook messages when we decide what are plans are for tomorrow and Sunday.

I pray that my palpitation’s and shakiness inside will ebb away.

Waiting to webcam with John.

HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY!

~Angela


March 30, 2012, at 6:00 pm

Big Bad Sad Mood

Loathing my life and everything about it…….needing a miracle. Hell a miracle wouldn’t not even make me happy.~Angela Bell Goode


March 13, 2012, at 9:07 am

Rose Lee is not doing well… PRAYERS NEEDED

Rosie and I have been up and down all night and morning. She is vomiting and has diarrhea. She and I are wore out. Pleas just take second and say a small prayer for her healing. Thanks!

Just hoping that she feels good enough in a few hours to go grocery shopping. We are out of everything. There is no way Dad can get all that we need.

Praying my sissy gets better.

Love,

Angela


March 9, 2012, at 9:23 pm

Today: Shopping, Dining, Rosie and God

Rosie and I went out shopping today.

Went to Rack Room Shoes. I got 2 pairs of bjorndal sandals.

Went to TJ Maxx but didn’t buy anything.

Went to Office Max. Rosie got a touch pen for her new Ipad.. will be here on the 16th. My laptop is touch screen so I am having a blast! Also purchased some gel INK Pens.

We ate at The Davy Crockett Restaurant, choose a meat Plus 2-3 sides… all under $9.99 Sides includes salads as well as Banana Pudding.

Rosie got the Open Faced Roast Beef Sandwich, Mashed Taters and Banana Pudding. She has not touched the nana pudding and has enough Roast beef for 2 more meals!

Dad got the sirloin, slaw, brown beans and Nana Pudding. He brought ALL of the sirloin home for our dogs!

I had the country fried steak. Ate about 1/3 of it and  brought the rest home for the Boys (Snickers and Smoki). Mashed Taters, Side Salad (Country French Dressing) and Nana Pudding.

Smoki and Snickers went out with us. Dad stayed in the Van with the boys as we shopped.

I am THRILLED that Rosie is feeling so much better. She is back to her boisterous funny self… Thank God. I missed her. Love seeing her enjoying food. Been a long 7.5 months (Gastric Bypass) since she actually wants to eat and is able to enjoy it. BLESSED.

Going to pack clothes this weekend. Heading to West Virginia Next Sunday. Hoping to meet all of my West Virginia family at the new Arby’s in Pineville around 3 pm Sunday the 18th.

Pineville does NOT even have a McDonald’s. Closest McDonald’s is 13.48 miles away!

Closest Wal-Mart is 24.67 miles

Pineville does have a Dairy Queen now.

Going to call my Aunt Mattie and Uncle Harold (Springfield, OHIO) and let them know we are heading to Pineville. Hope they can meet us there.

Going to bleach Rose Lee’s Hair and Dye it a brighter red for Spring.

Dyeing mine Jet Black. Also going to cut some Bangs / Fringe to hide the wrinkles on my forehead. Yes, I do have wrinkles!

ALLERGIES are killing me. Sneezing. Breaking out in rashes when I go outside. Itching all over. Ear Tickles. Inflammation on my forehead. Sinus/Allergies Sucks!

Getting OLDER Sucks even-more-so.

Realizing that I let 46 years pass away without LIVING it.

Pray that I overcome my shyness. I want to have a bubbly, sparkling, boisterous personalty… I wish I could talk to men without having a panic attack. Wish I was able to be flirty. I just don’t have the confidence I wish I had. Always worried about something.

I still have Social anxiety.. afraid I am saying the wrong things. That I am bothering people. etc.

I am able to talk to gay men without any problem. Or I talk to men who live thousands of miles away so I won’t have to deal with them in person.

I Pray that I can start communicating with Straight Single men who live in Tennessee. Afraid of getting my heart broken again.

I have NEVER even had a girlfriend to talk with. No friends in School… I had few friends @ School but they never came to my house and I never went to theirs.  Never called and spoke on the phone… etc

Rose Lee is my best friend and Sissy.

John is my best male friend. He lives 3,500 miles away from here. Friends Only.

I have some friends online. Just acquaintances. I would love to be able to have friends in my life. Someone to hang out with. Do things with, etc  Laugh with. Cry With.

John is the only one who sees me cry. I share everything, all my thoughts, worries, anxieties. He knows me very well.

I bet I went 20 some years where I CRIED every single night. Feeling so lonely. I still cry on occasion but not like I use to.

I would LOVE to have a man to call me…not sure if I am ready.. I am getting there.

I have personal ads at a slew of websites. Get mail on a daily basis. Just don’t know which one I should write back so I don’t reply to any of them.

Asking God to guide me to the men, that will enhance my quality of life. Someone who will bring out the BEST in me. Someone who is Compassionate, Patient, Family Oriented and someone wants to help the less fortunate and who also adores animals.

I know the man God designed me for is out there praying to meet me. Praying for my family. I pray for that man every day and I have for 30 years. I know God wants me to have a helpmate. A Lover. A Friend. Praying that he enters my life soon.

I surrender my will to God’s will for my life.

Please Pray that God will help me overcome all my insecurities.

I Pray for confidence, the words to help encourage and bless others.

Use my smile to show God’s love to the world.

God, Here I Am.. Use me anyway you see fit. I am willing.

God Help me Help others.

I know I have it in me to overcome anything and everything that is holding me back from my full potential.

Change my personality Dear Lord… Make me bubbly, friendly, well spoken, and  kinder.

Make me selfless.

Give me the words that people need to hear.

USE ME.

Please USE ME Lord.

I surrender.

Ready to change.

Change starts NOW!

I pray for everyone who read this .

I pray for everyone in the world to be nicer to one another.

♥ GOD IS LOVE ♥

Angela Bell Goode

 

 


March 8, 2012, at 10:00 pm

Depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks, Suicidal Thoughts and John….

FIRST OF ALL: I have noticed that a bunch of people who visit this site look up info on my friend JOHN.

So here is a quick Synopsis:

John is my best friend. He is from Scotland. We have never met face to face. Have no plans to. Professional Urban Planner. We met 5 years ago on a BBW Friendship website called Rating BBW. John is married and we are FRIENDS ONLY.

He was ONE of the hundreds of men who wrote me, who was actually NICE and not vulgar. 1st Webcam chat involved Religion and The Catholic Church. So unlike other men I would chat with.

I have only have webcammed with 4-5 men. Only live texted with 10 or less men. NO LIVE TALK! Text Only.

Since moving to Tennessee 7.5 years ago I have given my phone number to a man in The Netherlands and one in London, England. Both called me immediately. Spoke only a few min to each of those on 3-4 occasions…. That was 6 years ago.

John has my number and hasn’t called me since I have not given him permission to. I have his phone number and work number… have never called. We webcam with TEXT only. MY CHOICE. I have never heard his voice. I did make me a 90 sec video so he could hear and see me.

He and I are kindred spirits …providing support, friendship,and most importantly open communication. I have always been able to open up and share any and everything with him.We love one another. He is such a wonderful man. We both feel like we are soul-mates… in a friendship sorta way.

He has helped me become a better woman, person, daughter, sister, cousin, niece and friend… and to that I am very grateful.

I honestly don’t believe I would be here without him. He has helped me through some dark times. I go through periods of depression. I have since I was a teen. He is the only one who knows when I am suicidal… not as often as I USED to be. No one would look at me and say HEY she’s depressed, sad, and suicidal. I hide it very well. John is the only person I allow to know how I am feeling. He is kind, patient and compassionate.

I truly wish I didn’t have depression and suicidal thoughts. But they do creep in from time to time. I have severe social anxiety at times and at times I am mortified to leave the house. Been having so many  panic attacks lately. DRENCHED with sweat. Rapid Heart Beat. Shakiness. HATE WHEN I DO! Ugh!

I was molested by a few boys/men when I was a child/teen. It has made me leery of men. Only had 2 relationships in my life. Last one was almost 18 years ago with Michael. So terrified of allowing any man to get close to me.

In the past 6-12 months I have made friendships with more people. Male and Female. Trying to learn how to have friendships. Not an expert at that. Always been abnormally shy. Ask any one I went to school with they will say that Angie Goode was the shy smart girl in school… and most  would add FAT. I was 211 lbs in the 5th grade! I weigh less than that now. Always been ridiculed for my weight. Still am but I no longer allow it to  get to me as I once did. I quit school when I was 16. So many nasty and negative messages sent to me. Name calling. People making fun of me cause no boys wanted to date me. I am crying just sharing this.

I was 25 when I got my very 1st kiss with Mike Hager, Jr. Well, a kiss that I kissed back.. not molested and forced to do so. I married the first man I kissed, dated, etc. Marriage did not last long. After that I had a 2 year long-distance relationship with Michael Northcutt. Actually the ONLY relationship I ever had. Didn’t have much of a relationship nor friendship with the man I married. I was young and foolish.

The day I met the man I married I was at my wits end. I told God I was going to kill myself that night UNLESS I met a man. Well I did meet one. Oh Boy did I ever….One of my docs called him a wolf in sheep’s clothing and another doc called him the living devil. He was and probably is still an alcoholic and drug abuser.. I have no idea. Anyway I THOUGHT I could change him and I was wrong. Haven’t seen him in over 18 years.

Now to present day. I truly want a man in my life. I do… but he has to make the first move.

4.5 years ago the man of my dreams wrote me on MySpace which from here-to-fore will be known as MR HANDSOME…. and told he would love to get to know me better… I was too scared to reply. We did become friends after that and I am sure he doesn’t even recall messaging me that particular message.

I have over 4000 friends on Facebook. Almost 2000 of them I met through the Zygna game Farmville which I have not played in almost a year. MR HANDSOME is on my facebook friends.

I pray to God all through-out each day and night to guide me to the man that He Created me for and vice versa. I am sure he is out there somewhere praying for me as well.

IF I am suppose to remain single I ask the Lord to take away this yearning for a companion.

I would do anything for a hug right now.

So terrified of men. Praying that I can overcome.

Surrendering to God…

All of me, All my wishes, All My Hopes, All My Dreams, All My Wants, Needs, and Desires…

I pray that they all are in accordance with God’s Will for my life…

My Future….

My Eternity….

GOD HELP ME,

Your Daughter,

Angela Bell Goode

 


March 7, 2012, at 4:47 pm

West Virginia Vacation

Called Twin Falls Resort. Only time we could get the deluxe handicapped Cabin was March 18-19-20.

Only planned on staying 2 nights but they had a deal for 3 nights and we ended up saving $40 by adding another night!

Can’t wait to see my Family. I was born, bred and corn-fed in Pineville, Wyoming County, WV. Lived here in Tennessee for 7.5 years. My mom adored the Smoky Mountains so we moved here. She also adored the Boone County, North Carolina region. She passed away in 2006.

Lived in a trailer all my life till we moved to Tennessee.  Have a nice brick 1600sq ft ranch style home on 1.5 acres in farmland country. When I was born Dad was driving a logging truck.. I was brought home from the hospital in that truck! I first lived in a camper. Yes a TINY Camper! Moved up too a 1000 sq foot mobile home eventually.

I miss my WV Family, but do not miss WV at all.

I love that everything is so convenient here in Talbott. We can be in Knoxville in 30-45 min. AWESOME!

Rosie made her famous Spaghetti. Can’ wait to eat it. YUMMY!

Hope to sleep tonight. Been getting by on 4-5 hours a night. It wears my body down. Hope to get at least 8 tonight.

Been laughing at some of my friends Twitter posts. So Hilarious.

Waiting for John to make it to chat. Should be any minute.

Later Taters,

Angela


February 26, 2012, at 11:58 pm

MEN

Will I ever be able to allow a man into my life?

I am so scared. Been hurt so badly in the past.

I have given my heart to two men. The last one  was over 17 years ago.

I am in love with my friend John, but he is married. We are best friends. Share everything. Only man who has ever been there for me. Known him for over 5 years. Never met him. Never even heard his voice. We cam with text only, by my choice. He lives in Scotland.  John has been the only man I have chatted with online or webcammed with in 5 years.

I always choose men FAR AWAY so I won’t have to deal with a REAL Relationship.

For the last 17 years I have had “cyber relationships” with a slew of men. Most don’t hold my interest for very long. I get bored very easily.

Going to take a special man to capture and keep my interest.

 

A few months ago I started talking to a few guys online. Made some ‘friendships’ … but they have shown no interest in getting to know me better. Really interested in a few of them. Waiting for them to make a move and it ain’t happening fast enough and perhaps never will.

I am such a handful. So moody at times. Not very social but improving.

I have health issues Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Fibromyalgia, and Diabetes.

Plus I have a disabled Sister Rosie that God selected me to be her caregiver for the rest of her life. Not sure any man would be able to accept that.

Dealing with molestation as a child/teen. No wonder I am frightened.

In the last year or so I have a received a few thousand  messages from men at Facebook and on Dating sites who want to get to know me better. BUT I never reply back.

I am considering corresponding with a few of them. MAYBE.

I am shaking even thinking about that.

Wish I was not scared of LIFE.

I don’t want to select the wrong man to give my attention to.

I want ‘the one’ GOD created me for.

I want God to knock me up the side of my head and tell me which man to write back.

I need God’s guidance and infinite wisdom.

I have prayed this same prayer for over 30 years now.

I surrender to God.

GOD PLEASE HELP ME.

Help me cope with men and relationships.

I have not even given my phone number to any man in over 5 years.

Hate that I don’t deal with things as well as I should.

Seems like have the social skills of a 6-14 year old… once again that goes back to me being molested.

UGH!

Damn it Angela. Grow Up. Live Your Life

Asking that those who read this pray for me. I will be praying for you.

Lord, guide me and my soulmate/helpmate together.

I surrender US to thee.

Send me a man who is spiritual, compassionate, one who will adore me as I will him.

He doesn’t have to be handsome nor wealthy.. Just financially secure enough to be able to provide Rosie and I with a home, a car, and be able to pay the bills. Not too much to ask.

I love a man with a sense of humor. A warm smile, A gentle heart.

I adore movies, music, pets, food, and traveling.

I have never seen the ocean!!! NEVER.

I also have never flown on a plane…. But I am willing.

Would love to travel the world.

I once considered being a missionary until God led me to be a caregiver for my family.

I want my life to start tomorrow!

Hell no, to start TONIGHT!

I am sick and tired of not living.

Not allowing myself to enjoy things.

From now on I want to LIVE, Experience all life has to offer.

God I surrender all of myself to you.

Guide me.

Open doors I never knew could open.

Hold my hand. Lead me.  Walk with me.

I give ME to Thee.

I know You will not let me down.

I have faith and hope.

Show me my destiny.

Help me to

LIVE.

LOVE.

LAUGH.

INSPIRE OTHERS.

Praying for the man You created me for.

I believe in destiny.

I know I was created, designed, molded for one special man.

Comfort THE ONE I am meant to spend eternity with..

Grant Patience and Knowledge to Us both.

I surrender US to thee.

GOD IS LOVE.

Show me that I am able to love and be loved in return.

~Angela

 

 

 


February 24, 2012, at 4:17 pm

Rosie is still sick

Parkwest hospital called about Rosie’s urine culture. She does have a urinary track infection. Starting her on Cipro.

She is still having stomach aches and pains, diarrhea, vomiting, and nausea.

She has been crying today.

Hates feeling so bad.

She is also weak. Can’t keep any food down.

PRAYER WARRIORS: Please pray as hard as you can for her. She has been through so much lately. It is wearing her down. THANKS!

I am asking God to heal Rosie’s weak body, strengthen her immune system, heal everything wrong with her. Comfort her and give her hope. Please God. I surrender it to Thee. Amen.

Making Beef stew for her. Not sure she will even try it. Will see.

God Bless,

Angela


February 19, 2012, at 1:21 am

Missing Mommy, My Day, My Life, Friends, Food, Movies, Blessings, Pets

Angela

I have been missing my mom so much.Been over 5 years since she passed. Dream of her nightly. She was such a blessing to all those who knew her. I LOVE MY MOMMY!

Glad that my Dad is doing well. He will be 71 in March. He has done so much for Rosie and I. I am so grateful for all he does.

Almost 3 am and everyone here is sound asleep except for me. I stay up late most nights. Rarely get in bed prior to 2 am.

Rosie and I watched ZOOKEEPER tonight. It was so-s0.

May go to the cinema’s this week if Rosie feels like it.

Everything is so convenient to us here. We are blessed to live on 2 acres, in a nice brick ranch home. Live with-in 40 min of Knoxville… that is when I drive.

Hope Rosie wakes up with her edema gone. Poor baby felt bad this evening. Running a 99 fever. She normally runs around 96-97. Hope she does not end up in the hospital this week. Been so stressed and worried about her. Hate seeing her in so much pain. So happy that she is at least eating again. Had been almost 4 months since she has enjoyed eating without nausea and vomiting.

Rosie wore my red size large sweater today. She is getting skinnier by the day. She will get weighed on Wednesday. I bet she has dropped 20 more pounds. Gonna be thinner than me soon.

Dad, Rosie and I ended up at O’Charleys after grocery shopping. Rosie and I split the steak and shrimp. Rosie ate one shrimp and about 3 oz steak. Nothing else.

I had 3 shrimp and an ounce of steak. Only had 3 spoonfuls of the tater soup. They brought me enough Caesar salad to feed an army. Ate only about a cup. Was stuffed. The Boys had plenty of leftovers from us, including prime rib from Dad.

Got a lot of bargains at the grocery store. Dad and I are having coconut shrimp tomorrow. Rosie is having her fave fish : orange roughy. Cooking roasted corn, roasted asparagus and perhaps a tater dish. Fresh Strawberries for Dessert. YUM YUM

Rosie and I need to hit the mall this week to see what is on sale. Needing some new short dresses or skirts. Adoring my legs.

Didn’t get to webcam with John tonight. He was expecting a storm so he is prolly without power. He has been feeling so bad for almost a year. Back, Shoulder, and Elbow issues. Lately he’s had a toothache. Pray that he is sleeping well tonight. Hoping he is warm and toasty. He is my baby Love. We are soul-mates. He has helped me become the lady I am today. I am gonna make him a new video of me. That always makes him feel better.

Haven’t heard from SJ or RH today. Hope they are relaxing and enjoying life. They both work too hard. Sending prayers their way.

Gonna holler for my babies: Snickers, Smoki, Jazzi, Punkin and Tater and head to my bedroom. Most nights I have 3-4 of em in bed with me. I stay in Rosie’s room till 2-3 am encase she needs me. We have a phone intercom system if she needs me while I am asleep.

Tater just said bedtime so I am off of here.

Good Night and God Bless,

Angela Bell aka PEACHES

 

 


February 15, 2012, at 11:11 pm

Excited!

Angela

So many wonderful things going on in our lives….

I have lost 110 lbs and Rosie has lost over 175 lbs. She is sore from her hernia repair. Hope to get her up in her wheelchair tomorrow. Made her rest all day. She is eating so much better. Still in small quantities. At least she is not nauseated nor vomiting now. Praise The Lord.

I have so many new friends on Facebook and Twitter. I love em all dearly. Cher is even following me!

We no longer play Farmville.

Love our new dog SnickerDoodle (Longhaired Miniature Dachshund) He is blond with copper nose and eyes. No one has ever seen one like him. He is so precious. Sleeps with me and worships the ground I walk on.

Smoki (Cairn Terrier) is buddies with Snickers. Even our Cats LOVE him: Panther, Jazzi, Punkin, and Tater.

Hope to head to Gatlinburg /Pigeon Forge/ Sevierville this weekend.

Rosie goes back to see her surgeon on the 22nd in Knoxville.

Plan to go to West Virginia next month.

Rosie and I have become friends with RH a music promoter/energy company CEO/ political adviser/ Doctor/ and all around decent Christian man. Also friends with SJ who is RH’s CFO. Friendly with a lot of their friends. They all have accepted my friendship with open arms. They give me so much love and support. They have helped me gain confidence and self-esteem. MAY GOD BLESS THEM ALL!

Rosie and I have some exciting news but we are not at liberty to offer any details as of yet. Waiting to hear the decisions they have made. WOW! I can’t wait.

I have never been this excited about anything compared to the way I feel now… I am starting to love and enjoy everything that God has blessed me with… looking forward to see what else is coming my way. Rosie is just as excited as I am.

Receiving all sorts of messages from men wanting to date me… undecided. Waiting for the Lord to guide me.

So glad that Rosie did well with the hernia repair. I am so blessed to have her as a sis and as my best friend.

Still close to John. We webcam chat daily. Such a major supporter of me. Without his encouragement I would not be the woman I am today. THANKS BabyLove!!

Allergy shots tomorrow IF Rosie is able to sit up and get in her wheelchair.

Snickers is eating a granny smith apple. Carrying it around. So cute.

Excited about the upcoming Elections. I am a proud liberal Democrat !

 I believe in Equality for everyone!

I have lost 2 lbs in the last 365 days… but have lost 5″ from my waist! HAPPY DANCE!

Missing all my WV cousins. Love all of you. Hope to stay in a Cabin at Twin Falls Resort next month. All of my family is invited!  Had a blast last time.

Not having as many panic attacks as I use to…. BUT when I do they are nasty…. flushed face, severe sweating and the shakes. UGH!

Still having flare-up from my fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome. That will probably never change. Trying to cope and deal with it. Extremely tired tonight. Been having Fibro Fog. I hate it so much. My mind works in slow-mo at times. So forgetful.

IBS is under control. No accidents in months.

Diabetes treated only with a pill. Been off insulin pump for months now.

So hopeful for my future. I surrender to God. Everything. Total. All of me. Use me. Guide me. Give me Patience, Wisdom, Hope, Faith, Trust, Love, and Health. I ask that for me, as well as my family and friends. SERENITY.

GOD IS LOVE. ♥♥♥

~Angela

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September 13, 2011, at 6:58 am

GOOD NEWS

Rosie is doing great. She is having a ct scan with dye today. They hope to discover no more abscesses in her abdomen. Will prolly remove the drain to the abscess above her bladder. She can’t eat anything till after the CT scan. She is drinking dye mixed with Crystal Light Ice Tea. She says it is Yucky.

IF everything goes well she will get to go home tomorrow!!! YAY! Woo-Hoo!

They stopped the TPN feedings and fluids. Dr Adams (infectious disease doc) says Rosie will no longer need any antibiotics. So she hopefully, will no longer need a picc line.

I am praying all is well and that WE get to go home!!!

I had severe nausea for a few hours last night. Also having a sinus/allergy attack. Woke up at 4 am feeling really bad. Doing ok now.

~Angela


July 27, 2011, at 8:52 pm

Update

Rosie is doing much better. More alert. Pain has lessened. She has a mild temp. Rest of her vitals are good. They will be doing labs at 3.

IF everything stays normal she will get to go home tomorrow. YAY!

I just knew I would get no rest and be wore out.. but just the opposite. Sleeping well. Feeling relaxed. I needed all this rest.

Just pray Rosie has lil to no pain and that the recovery goes smoothly. Surgeon said her surgey went perfect.. a routine surgery.

Getting drowsy… gonna eat a banana with Fat Free milk and hit the hay.

Sending love and prayers to all.

~Angela


March 11, 2011, at 8:18 pm

Beauty Routine

EdHardyPerfume

Tonight I started with a 4 min 70% glycolic acid medical grade chemical peel on my face and neck. Didn’t get it near my eyes or lips.

I don’t recommend starting with 70%… more like 20% peel and work your way up from there. I have pretty tough skin and started with 70% for 2 min. You can buy the 70% and water it down.

I am now at 4 min. and then rinse it off with 2 tsp of baking soda in cool water splashed on my face. I do it once a week.

It burns a little bit and can causes redness and sometimes crustiness till the skin peels and repairs itself.

Don’t use before an important function.

Source: ShareFair on Ebay

Next I shaved my pits with the Gillete Venus Embrace Razor tonight for the first time.

It has 5 blades and gave me a very close shave. Perhaps the BEST ever. I used some Kiss My Face Shaving Gel with it. LOVED IT.

Source: Walmart

Then I stepped in to the shower and washed my Hair with Awapuhi Volumizing Shampoo By Natures Gate.

Rinse and Repeat.

Then Conditioned with Awapuhi Conditioner by Natures Gate.

I leave it in while I wash my body.

I use a variety of Shampoo’s and Conditioners. Prolly have over 20 in my bathroom currently. I am SPOILED.

Source: Swanson Vitamins Online

Body wash I CURRENTLY use is Dial’s Cherry Seed Oil & Mint.

I wash my entire body and rinse thoroughly.

 

Source: Walmart

Next  I use Ed Hardys Womens Shower Gel on everything except my private areas. Rinse.

 

Source: Belk

Then I rinsed the Awapuhi Conditioner by Natures Gate out of my hair.

 

Source: Swanson Vitamins Online

I toweled dried off my body and my hair.

I added Garnier’s Fructus Fiber Gum Hair Putty to my hands.

Rubbed hands briskly to distribued the putty.

I bent over and flipped my hair downward and added it to the under layers. Stood back up and combed it in.

Source: Walmart

I will let my tresses dry naturally tonight and I will put in my new Remington Pearl  Ceramic Setter Rollers Hot Curlers tomorrow.

 

Source: Walmart

Suave Clinical Protection Deodorant

 

Source: Walmart

LUBRIDERM® Intense Skin Repair Body Lotion

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Vaseline on my footsies and eyelashes.

Source: Walmart

Crisco Butter Flavored Shortening as my face moisturizer. NO JOKE.

It is also good for the entire body as well as vaginal dryness. GOOGLE it.

Source: Walmart

Carmex on my lips.

I have tried everything else and Carmex is THE ONLY ONE THAT WORKS!

Source: Walmart

Perfume: Ed Hardy Women Eau De Parfum Spray

Source: Belk

Well, that is what I used today…but that will probably change tomorrow, since I am  heading out to Walgreen’s, CVS, and/or Rite Aid tomorrow to see what Beauty bargains I can find.

Hope to add my favorite Makeup Products later this week.

~Angela


March 9, 2011, at 12:37 am

Quick Update

Had a long exhausting day. After the doc appt’s we went to Big Lots. Got a few great bargains. My fave was Bret Michaels Snapple Trop-a-Rocka Diet Tea was only $2.00 for 6…. I have been paying almost $6 for them. I got 5 cartons and sipping on a bottle  now.

Rosie made some stir-fry beef and pineapples with wild rice. I could only eat half of what was in my plate. Really filled me up quickly.

My endocrinologist was pleased with all the steps I have taken in regards to stopping my diabetic meds… and to keep on doing what I am.

My thyroid is too high. Lowering synthroid dosage to 125 mg.

Cholesterol was up. BP great. Doing an HgA1c in 2 months…

and I HAVE LOST 6 MORE POUNDS! :-)

Rosie saw the Cardiologist. He wants to do an echocardiogram on the 21st… just to make sure everything is ok. He thinks it is… but says the surgeon and anesthesiologist would rather see a test result than rely on only his opinion.

Thought I wasn’t gonna get to chat with John but he finally came on to chat. He had fallen asleep. We webcammed awhile. He looks so much better than he did last week. Finally getting over the flu. He is gonna attempt to go to work tomorrow if only for half a day. He went to the doc and he has tennis elbow. Getting a cortisone shot next week in it. We had a fun chat. I Love to make him laugh. He is and will always remain my best friend. I love him. Treasure our friendship. He says the sweetest things. I am just confused about a lot of things going on in my life and grateful for John. We laughed and cried tonight.

I wore full makeup today with False eyelashes. John loved it..

I looked at some pics of me that were taken when I was 100 lbs heavier and CAN’T believe I was that large. So blessed that I was able to lose over 100 lbs and I continue to lose.

Thankful that I am off insulin… and grateful for Victoza. I am taking .6 now. Had to come down from the 1.2. I am down to ONLY 1 glipizide… had been needing 4.

I showed Dr Langton (my endocrinologist) the rash under my belly. She gave me diflucan for it. I have so much loose and hanging skin in my tummy region. Worse there than anywhere else. Hope to have a tummy tuck when my BMI gets down to 30.

It is 2:30 am and I am off to bed.

Asking God to guide me to the man who will help compliment my life. I surrender.

~Angela