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One year ago today my lil precious boy was born in Maryville, Tennessee. I found him listed on Craigs list by then he was 7 months old and lived 3 miles away from me here in Talbott. As soon as we saw him and his copper eyes, nose and long blonde hair I knew I had to have him. My lil blonde mini-dachshund named Snicker Doodle Bug Goode. He is the sweetest, most rotten and overtly spoiled pet. All our cats fell in love with him as well as our Cairn Terrier Smoki Poki Loki Goode. They adore one another. Snickers is mt lil boy. Follows me everywhere. I love him.
Went to Rack Room Shoes. I got 2 pairs of bjorndal sandals.
Went to TJ Maxx but didn’t buy anything.
Went to Office Max. Rosie got a touch pen for her new Ipad.. will be here on the 16th. My laptop is touch screen so I am having a blast! Also purchased some gel INK Pens.
We ate at The Davy Crockett Restaurant, choose a meat Plus 2-3 sides… all under $9.99 Sides includes salads as well as Banana Pudding.
Rosie got the Open Faced Roast Beef Sandwich, Mashed Taters and Banana Pudding. She has not touched the nana pudding and has enough Roast beef for 2 more meals!
Dad got the sirloin, slaw, brown beans and Nana Pudding. He brought ALL of the sirloin home for our dogs!
I had the country fried steak. Ate about 1/3 of it and brought the rest home for the Boys (Snickers and Smoki). Mashed Taters, Side Salad (Country French Dressing) and Nana Pudding.
Smoki and Snickers went out with us. Dad stayed in the Van with the boys as we shopped.
I am THRILLED that Rosie is feeling so much better. She is back to her boisterous funny self… Thank God. I missed her. Love seeing her enjoying food. Been a long 7.5 months (Gastric Bypass) since she actually wants to eat and is able to enjoy it. BLESSED.
Going to pack clothes this weekend. Heading to West Virginia Next Sunday. Hoping to meet all of my West Virginia family at the new Arby’s in Pineville around 3 pm Sunday the 18th.
Pineville does NOT even have a McDonald’s. Closest McDonald’s is 13.48 miles away!
Closest Wal-Mart is 24.67 miles
Pineville does have a Dairy Queen now.
Going to call my Aunt Mattie and Uncle Harold (Springfield, OHIO) and let them know we are heading to Pineville. Hope they can meet us there.
Going to bleach Rose Lee’s Hair and Dye it a brighter red for Spring.
Dyeing mine Jet Black. Also going to cut some Bangs / Fringe to hide the wrinkles on my forehead. Yes, I do have wrinkles!
ALLERGIES are killing me. Sneezing. Breaking out in rashes when I go outside. Itching all over. Ear Tickles. Inflammation on my forehead. Sinus/Allergies Sucks!
Getting OLDER Sucks even-more-so.
Realizing that I let 46 years pass away without LIVING it.
Pray that I overcome my shyness. I want to have a bubbly, sparkling, boisterous personalty… I wish I could talk to men without having a panic attack. Wish I was able to be flirty. I just don’t have the confidence I wish I had. Always worried about something.
I still have Social anxiety.. afraid I am saying the wrong things. That I am bothering people. etc.
I am able to talk to gay men without any problem. Or I talk to men who live thousands of miles away so I won’t have to deal with them in person.
I Pray that I can start communicating with Straight Single men who live in Tennessee. Afraid of getting my heart broken again.
I have NEVER even had a girlfriend to talk with. No friends in School… I had few friends @ School but they never came to my house and I never went to theirs. Never called and spoke on the phone… etc
Rose Lee is my best friend and Sissy.
John is my best male friend. He lives 3,500 miles away from here. Friends Only.
I have some friends online. Just acquaintances. I would love to be able to have friends in my life. Someone to hang out with. Do things with, etc Laugh with. Cry With.
John is the only one who sees me cry. I share everything, all my thoughts, worries, anxieties. He knows me very well.
I bet I went 20 some years where I CRIED every single night. Feeling so lonely. I still cry on occasion but not like I use to.
I would LOVE to have a man to call me…not sure if I am ready.. I am getting there.
I have personal ads at a slew of websites. Get mail on a daily basis. Just don’t know which one I should write back so I don’t reply to any of them.
Asking God to guide me to the men, that will enhance my quality of life. Someone who will bring out the BEST in me. Someone who is Compassionate, Patient, Family Oriented and someone wants to help the less fortunate and who also adores animals.
I know the man God designed me for is out there praying to meet me. Praying for my family. I pray for that man every day and I have for 30 years. I know God wants me to have a helpmate. A Lover. A Friend. Praying that he enters my life soon.
I surrender my will to God’s will for my life.
Please Pray that God will help me overcome all my insecurities.
I Pray for confidence, the words to help encourage and bless others.
Use my smile to show God’s love to the world.
God, Here I Am.. Use me anyway you see fit. I am willing.
God Help me Help others.
I know I have it in me to overcome anything and everything that is holding me back from my full potential.
Change my personality Dear Lord… Make me bubbly, friendly, well spoken, and kinder.
Make me selfless.
Give me the words that people need to hear.
USE ME.
Please USE ME Lord.
I surrender.
Ready to change.
Change starts NOW!
I pray for everyone who read this .
I pray for everyone in the world to be nicer to one another.
Today she went for her 7th ER Visit in 8 months. Twice in the last 2 weeks. All her vitals and blood work was normal today. She had a ct scan today and 2 weeks ago. It shows some air abscesses. In August she had MRSA Abscess all over her internal stomach. Was hospitalized for 21 days. I STILL BELIEVE SHE HAS MRSA ABSCESSES!
The ER Doc wants her to see her Gastric Bypass surgeon Dr Boyce in a few days. Dr Boyce is out-of-town so she will be seeing his partner Dr Williams. Hopefully morrow. Dr Williams treated Rosie in the hospital when she has MRSA. He is a really nice man and so is Dr Boyce. Both are very handsome. My latest crushes!
They will prolly send her to a gastroenterologist for an Endoscopy and Colonoscopy. She has never had a colonoscopy. I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome and had 5 colonoscopy’s and 6 endoscopy’s. WORST thing is the prep. Aka Cleaning out the bowels. Prep drinks are so yucky! UGH! I feel sorry for Rosie having to drink that $hit. Yucky! It is better ice-cold and with some crystal light mixed in…. but still so nasty!
So glad that I had access to MSN Live Messenger at University of Tennessee ER. Got to webcam chat with my John. Chat is blocked at Parkwest Hospital. He was still all dolled up in his business attire. Shirt and Ties make me weak in the knee’s. Love a man in a suit. Adore men who can wear a suit for work and then jeans for fun and play.
It made Rosie so Happy to hear that Rick Hendrix was praying for her. Made her smile. Thanks Mr Hendrix!
I am wanting another dog and cat! A rescued one.Hopefully one day I can live on a farm with tons of pets. I adore cats, Dogs, Donkeys and Billy Goats. I would rescue every animal I could. Love Animals. Easier to talk to than people. LOL! I have conversations with all my pets, 2 dogs and 4 cats. They truly understand all the words I put into their mouths. LMFAO!
I hadn’t ate much today so on the way home we stopped at Cardins Drive-In. I was so stressed that I ordered a Hot Fudge Cake. Man it was awesome but now I am so ill. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gastric_dumping_syndrome UGH! NAUGHTY GIRL!
Rosie’s blood they drew tonight was almost black and thick. PT and INR was in the therapeutic range. She takes blood thinner to prevent blood clots. She has had so many blood clots that I have lost count. Even had one in her bladder. She inherited this from her Granny Goode. She has a GreenField Filter http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Greenfield_filter to catch blood clots and prevent them going to her lungs or heart.
Joints frozen in her arms, hands, elbows, legs, feet, knees and hips.
She has not been able to walk since she was 16. She turns 45 this year. When Rosie was 12 a doctor told Mom that Rosie would not make it to the age of 21. So glad that doc was WRONG!
Rosie broke her tailbone 18 months ago. Still have aches and pains.
All of this and Rose is still one of the happiest people I ever met.
God knew I could not handle all that Rosie has went through and is going through. Just glad that God chose me to be her care taker. I adore her with all my heart. Not only my sissy but also my best friend.
Blessed to have Rosie in my life.
Still praying to finally meet the man God created me for. I know my Baby Love is out there praying for me at this minute. Can’t wait to meet him. Let him know I am praying for him.
Thanks for all your prayers. Just pray that the docs can find out what is causing Rose Lee’s tummy pain, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, and lack of appetite. So stressful to know she feels so bad. I Pray that Dr Williams sends her to the best gastroenterologist in Knoxville… one that will take the time to listen and will run tests and scopy’s to find out what is causing all of this.
Snickers, Smoki. Panther, Jazzi, Punkin and Tater were glad to see us back home.
Smoki senses Rose is sick and keeps checking on her. Nurse Doggy!
Rosie was feeling so much better when we got home. That Zofran stuff is great. Just hoping that her insurance will cover it.. But I doubt it. Praise God that they have a generic form. Name Brand Zofran is $750.00 a month for a once a day pill. Generic is around $50….. $50 bucks don’t sound like a lot… but it is a tremendous amount for someone on Social Security Disability like Rosie is.
Saw this online…
I asked for strength and God gave me difficulties to make me strong… I asked for wisdom and God gave me problems to solve… I asked for prosperity and God gave me brain and brawn to work… I asked for courage and God gave me danger to overcome… I asked for love and God gave me troubled people to help… I asked for favors and God gave me opportunities… I received nothing I wanted… I received everything I needed… TRUST IN GOD
Praying that Rosie sleeps well and gets some rest. Same for me!
Thanks to everyone who has prayed for us. Much appreciated and prayers returned. May God Bless and Prosper all of you.
Dad, Rosie, The Boys and I went to the Great Smokies Flea Market today. We took the Boys pet stroller which they both USED to fit in…. Snickers has grown so big that it was a tight fit. So Rosie bought a pet stroller than holds 4 small pets. Ended up selling the old Stroller to a lady for $20… she was thrilled to get it. It was a bargain. New stroller was $86
Rosie bought the boys new harnesses to go with the new collars she got earlier this week. So Snazzy!
Picked up some $1 jewelry items. I bought a long dress for $8 brand new. Rosie got her one as well.
Rosie woke up this morn and started vomiting as soon as she took her meds. Had nausea off and on all day. She fell asleep about an hour ago. Hope she wakes up feeling better.
Went to Capt. Gallery in Dandridge for Dinner. Rosie and I split the Ribeye, Jumbo Shrimp, Fried Zucchini and Salad. We have enough ribeye leftover to feed us both supper tomorrow. I also have some fried zucchini left over. YUM! Was gonna order some clam chowder but forgot to. Thank God.. I couldn’t have ate it. Was stuffed.
SnickerDoodle has been so protective of me this evening. Will not allow Smoki to come near me. Growling at him. Not sure why.
Need to find a dentist. Need a good cleaning and perhaps a filling. Want one closer to us than Dr. Frankie office.
Had a panic attack or hot flash… at the flea market. Was drenched head to toe with sweat for almost an hour. Skin was flushed. HATE IT.
Got home and my face is puffy. Wasn’t when I left. Not sure… but I bet it is allergy related.
Thinking about cutting bangs again. Not sure.
John adored my hair tonight. I rolled it with 1″ velcro rollers. Used tons of ‘em. Looked so feathery and shiny.
Rosie is craving an Hawaiian Ice so we are going on an excursion to find one tomorrow. Wish us luck.
Had issues with my balance today. Almost fell flat on my butt twice today. Just unsteady. Really need to get an injection in my right hip as Doc Kouser wanted to do.
SO HAPPY for my friends in Nashville. Good things are heading their way. Movie is being made by Universal based on their lives. INSPIRATIONAL! Blessed to have them in my life. I love em all. Hope that one day we can meet one another.
Just realized I haven’t taken my meds tonight.. Oops… BRB. Took em.
I haven’t taken my vitamins/minerals/supplements in a week or so. Gonna start back.
Also I have been naughty…. Been consuming way more carbs that I should. Makes me feel sluggish. I should know better but Carbs are so comforting to me.
Will prolly be going to West Virginia on Friday. Hope the large handicapped cabin at Twin Falls State Park is available. May have to change the day we go. We LOVE that cabin cause so many of our WV family can stay with us. :-)
Having aches and pains. May have to increase my dosage on my pain meds back to what the doc wants me to take. Tried to lower them and OUCH!
Dad was in a great mood this afternoon. Thank God cause sometimes he is the grouchiest old man on earth. Dad attracts so many women. Always trying to pick him up. He does NOT look 71 at all. Still has all his hair and he is indeed handsome. HE DOES NOT WANT TO DATE ANYONE.
I do want to date YET I get no dudes trying to pick me up. NONE. Only man who has come up to me and asked me out was the man (Hager) that I married. Rest of the men I dated were through personal newspaper ads.Men may be interested in me and I am just tooo dumb and socially inept that I don’t recognize it. Ooops… One other man asked me out at church in 1991. He didn’t have a car nor a job so I politely declined.
I don’t go anywhere without Rosie. Only time I have been apart was during hospitalizations. Maybe 3-4 times I was gone for a few hours with Hager. I did spend 3 over night trips at Gary’s (aka WV Millionaire dude) house
The only time I ever went on a date ALONE with a man was my honeymoon night… Always had Rosie or they brought their friends along. I would love to have a man pick me up, bring me flowers and take me out just for dinner. Just Dinner is all I ask.
Only one man has sent me flowers and that was Steven Bryant Ward aka Poison98. I met him through a Poison Chat Room that he hosted. He and I had a cyber which progressed to a phone relationship for almost a year. We had planned on him flying in from Tulsa, Oklahoma to West Virginia to meet and he backed out the week we was coming to meet me. We ended up staying together for a few months after that. He sent me flowers for my birthday. I am a December babe and the flowers were sent in a unique green globe ornament vase. Still have it in my bedroom.
Goodness, I have missed out on so much in my life…. It is time for that to change!
I know I have a few men who reads my journal often. One is The Actor, Game Show Host, Mr Intelligence himself Stephen Fry! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stephen_Fry He says he is 90% gay and 10% straight. I have written him a few naughty PRIVATE (you have to follow one another to send PRIVATE messages on Twitter) flirtatious tweets and he always replies. I love an intelligent man who knows who he is and stands up for what he believes in… way more than a handsome one. But I do admire a handsome warm heart and soul.
I know that some awesome things are about to transpire in my life. Excited. Lord, I surrender prepare me for all the new adventures I am about to undertake!
We are gonna take the Boys: Smoki Poki Loki (Carin Terrier aka Toto dog) and SnickerDoodle Bug (Miniature long haired dachshund) for a Sunday drive through the country side. We have taken Sunday drives for as long as I can remember. So relaxing. Love to admire all the glorious beauty God has created. Well it is relaxing until Smoki sees cows, deers, goats. horses, rabbits, etc. Then all heck breaks lose. He goes nuts. Barking. UGH! But what is even worse is when it is raining and we have the windshield wipers on… Smoki dives into the dashboard after them. UGH! And I am even holding him and his leash! Snickers and Smoki enjoyed having the window down today….As Bret Michaels wrote, “RIDE THE WIND, Never coming back till I touch the midnight sun.” I sing that to the Boys and they go bonkers cause they know I am about to roll down the window!
Asking the Lord Jesus Christ to help me SAY NO TO CARBS! Praying for energy to do more things. Chronic fatigue is debilitating. UGH. I am gonna do at least 30 min of household chores daily. Asking God for the willpower to do more things without pain and to control my appetite. I SURRENDER.
My cousin Brandy found 6 puppies dropped off on a country road in WV. They are so cute. She is keeping one and going to find homes for the others. Pray they all received loving homes. Looks like part German Shepherd.
When 9-11-01 happened I was seeing a psychiatrist prior to it happening. It was so difficult to deal with. A few months after it happened My shrink made me promise not to read or watch news about it. Still upsetting to me. Now all these tornadoes, hurricanes, natural [...]
For the past few weeks….well make that months… Rosie has been sick most days with vomiting, nausea, and/or diarrhea. She has not been her joyful talkative self.
She had Gastric Bypass 7-24-2011 and has had a tough time. MRSA, C. Diff, Hernia repair. All-in-all she spent almost a month in the hospital.I never left her side.
She sometimes goes a few days feeling better and then boom back to being sick. She is doing well today. Even went online using her laptop for a few hours. That makes me so happy. She has not been online more than 10 min in months. She normally loves to surf the web.
She had another hernia repair a few weeks ago. It was the 3rd umbilical repair she has had. One was only last August.
Since January 2011 she has lost over 200 lbs. She is getting so skinny. Still not eating much… but is trying to. Doing our best to get more Protein in her. She is now sound asleep. Praise God.
Plans are to go to The Great Smokies Flea Market tomorrow. Taking the boys, Smoki and Snickers. Gonna get them fitted for new harnesses. We got Smoki a gold rhinestone collar and Snickers a Silver one. They look so cute in them. Just hope they both can ride in the doggie stroller.
I know I prolly over-shared too much in CONFESSION TIME entry which I subsequently removed. I wanted my ex-husband to read it and he did. I left the entry up for 24 hours. I know some of my family and friends read it as well. I just wanted to be honest and not allow HIM to threaten me with things he knew about me and did with me. It was only sexual things… no drugs involved at all with ME.
Really need to have a long chat with John. So much I wanna hear his opinion on. He has been sick or working too much lately. Hope to have a long deep conversation with him tomorrow… via webcam.
My hair is rolled in some new velcro curlers I got some Sally Beauty. Can’t wait to see the outcome.
Amazed at how skinny I looked in that striped dress I wore last week. Still wanna lose some more weight. Gotta get down to the nitty gritty and just do it! Rosie only weighs 20 more pounds than me now!
Looks like we may get to go to the movies on Tuesday. Not sure what to see.
Gonna rent Tower Heist on demand tomorrow night.
Took a 2 hour nap this evening. Barely slept. Just rested. This weather is wrecking havoc on my fibromyalgia. Plus I have cut my dosage of my pain meds in half. Will go back to full dose in a week. Just don’t want to get addicted.
Just feeling so much peace lately. Been so stressed out with Rosie being sick for the last 8-9 months. Not easy seeing her so ill and bed ridden at times. Grateful that she is doing better and that we can go out and do things.
At least now I have no issues going out in public. Used to have MAJOR ISSUES leaving the house. Wouldn’t go out unless Rosie MADE ME. So nice to have such a loving sister. I still have panic attacks… mainly in checkout lines. Rapid heartbeat, shaky inside, worst part is the major perspiration. I blame it on menopause “Hot Flashes” but I actually know it is related to my nerves.
I am being coming more self-confident. Losing weight has really helped me. I can do more things but still have aches and pains daily from fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue. There are days when I know I look exquisitely beautiful. I now even go out grocery shopping sans my war paint on occasions! Been wearing shorter dresses to show off my spectacular legs. Man, I am getting conceited. LOL!
I have made so many new friends online. They all have helped me be a better person. Doing my best to be more outgoing online. But still have fears that I am bothering people or that I am saying stupid $hit and being made fun of.
I use to care what STRANGERS, STALKERS, BULLIES online said about me, now I don’t really care what they say. What is most important is what My family and friends think of me …. not what some sorry assed bullies think.
Amazed that I allowed people to bully me and I am over 40. Same Old stuff I allowed people to bully me about in high school… my weight, my lack of relationships, my lack of this or that. I no longer bow down to those who put me down. Screw them all.
My family and friends now the real me and know how special I am. Compassionate, Loving, Intelligent, Humorous, Spiritual, Loyal..
I am gorgeous inside and out!
My Blonde Long-Haired Mini-Dachshund worships the ground I walk on. He adores his Mumsy!
Dad told me and Rosie that if we find a pug on the side of the road that we could have it. Gonna look around shelters and if we find one. I am gonna get Dina or Peggy (Rosie’s Home Health Aides) to go get it and drop it off at our house. LOL!
Rosie is THINKING about getting an IPAD 3 when it comes out. We don’t even have an iphone. Rosie does have an LG Smart phone which we use to make emergency calls, send text messages to John, Twitter, FaceBook… but we have never went online. We pay as you go… I hate talking on the phone and only do it when its an emergency.
Want to Thank Rosie for all the new clothes she bought. She and I will be able to wear the same size soon. :-)
They are days when I THINK about getting a job…. not really possible with having to take care of my handicapped sister Rose Lee. I am on SSI disability for my chronic pain, depression, anxiety, diabetes, kidney failure, high blood pressure, Charcot-Marie-Tooth Syndrome, thyroid, and diabetic neuropathy.
If Rosie continues to improve she and I are going to start aquatic therapy. I am suppose to be in physical therapy for my Fibro but since Rosie has been ill it has been postponed.
My moods are much more stable. Praise The Lord. I couldn’t even stand myself for a few weeks. I hate it when I allow small issues to upset me. I get so down sometimes that all I think of is killing myself. Wish that would stop happening. No one knows what that feels like unless you experience it for yourself.
I just wish I was capable of overcoming my fear of straight men… not scared of gay men at all. I know that they are not interested in me sexually.
I absolutely adore sex, affection, intimacy, just afraid of being hurt again. I know I am gonna have to overcome this. I truly want to.
I have hundreds of men wanting to get to know me better…all online through myspace, facebook, twitter and my personal ads. I am too selective. Just don’t know which to respond to.So I respond to none of them.
I have dated paupers and millionaires.
Unemployed, Store clerks, fry cooks, military, body builders, and entrepreneurs.
Weight from 150 to 340.
Height from 5’6 to 6’5″
Hair color from blonde to black.
Eye color from Blue, Brown, Green.
Goatee’s to mustaches.
I HAVE NO TYPE.
BUT if I had to choose.. he would have dark hair with perhaps some silver. Clean shaven to Scruffy. Over 5’8″. Under 225 lbs. Must LOVE Family, pets, movies, music, traveling, God, and ME!
I truly believe God wants me with a helpmate. I would not have had this fervent desire for 30+ years. I have prayed, cried, begged, pleaded for God to take away this desire or send me my helpmate and so far I still have the desire and I have not found him.
Went to Knoxville today. Rosie saw her gastric bypass surgeon. She has lost over 200 lbs. She only weighs 20 lbs more than me now.
Doc started her on Flagyl to see if her nausea, diarrhea and vomiting responds to it. May be C Diff. Not sure. Plans are for her to be on it for 4 weeks. Off 2 weeks. Back on for 2 weeks. IF she doesn’t start feeling better he is gonna send her to a gastroenterologist.She is still swollen on her right lower abdominal quadrant. CT Scans, Labs. and vitals were all normal.
Went to Ross for Less in Knoxville. We went to the one here in Morristown last weekend. Got so many bargains. All items are size 14 or smaller. I got one dress that is a 9/10. Rosie is gonna try her clothes I got her on tomorrow. Hope she can wear at least one of them now. I know she will be able to wear them by our vacay in May. She is losing 4-5 lbs a week.
I haven’t gained or lost any in over 18 months.. but I have lost 5″ from my waist!
The dress I am wearing is from Ross for Less. Got it for $7.99 YES Seven dollars and 99 cents.
Bought another one like it in muted tones at Ross or Less in Knoxville. . it was $13.99 Exact same dress just a different color.
Rosie and I got a few short PARTY dresses. One was only $5.99 and it is lovely satin material with sparkles.
I think the most expensive item we purchased was $17.99
Went to PETSMART. Got Smoki a new harness. Got Smoki and Snickers both a Monkey Squeaky Toy and a Rawhide Cookie.
Ate at Mimi’s Cafe for lunch. I had a salad with 1 T Sesame Balsamic Vinaigrette. Ate 1/4 of a turkey and cheese croissant with cranberry orange relish. Ate the rest tonight. Dad had Corn Chowder, Slaw and turkey and cheese croissant with cranberry orange relish. He brought half the sandwich home for our dogs. Rosie ate 4 oz of Flat Iron Steak. She explained that she had gastric bypass and didn’t want any potatoes or veggies and asked for a Strawberry/ Pineapple side dish. They brought her a huge plate of it. She brought it home and had it for a snack. She prolly has 8 oz of steak still in the fridge for tomorrow. I am so happy when she eats. She rarely eats ANYTHING cause she feels so nauseous.
Tomorrow, we go for Allergy shots. Have to pick up some meds and go grocery shopping. Rosie also needs to go to Healthstar for a PT test since she is on blood thinner.
Hope she starts feeling able to get out and do more things. Would love to go to the Smokies this weekend. Maybe even to the Cinemas.
Rosie REALLY needs a new wheelchair. The cushion in her chair is so worn out. She slopes down in the chair and ends up with severe back pains. She is due for a new chair in June. Gonna call Medicare and make sure. She will need a much smaller chair! Her wheelchair weighs 375 lbs without her even in it!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FRIEND SHANE.
Praying for everyone. On my mind tonight are all those affected by the storms and tornadoes. Sad.
Heading to bed shortly. Tired. Been up since 9 am. That is way early for me. Normally my wake up time is after 1 pm. I like to stay up till 3-5 am. Always been a night owl.
Can’t get *him* off my mind… not sure what to do. Decisions. Decisions. Asking God to Guide the both of us. I SURRENDER US.
Another *him* Wondering if I should overtly FLIRT with him. Afraid of ruining our friendship. He sorta flirts… just not sure. I am so dumb when it comes to Men! UGH! Asking God to Guide the both of us. I SURRENDER US.
Another *him*…. this him is the one I am suppose to spend eternity with… Wherever he is tonight, dear Lord, Keep him safe and warm. Speak to his spirit and let him know I am the one. Guide he and I together. Protect both our families and our friends. I Pray for patience until the day we walk into one each others life. Prepare us both for the journey we are suppose to take together. Bring people into our lives that can help us grow. People that we can help. Let our smiles, hearts and words encourage other people. USE US BOTH. I take it upon myself and surrender both he and I to the LORD! Use us for Your glory. Let him feel the holy spirit right at this moment. Speak to his heart. Comfort us both with the hope of finding each other. I hope Soon but I defer to God cause I know God’s timing is perfect.
I have been missing my mom so much.Been over 5 years since she passed. Dream of her nightly. She was such a blessing to all those who knew her. I LOVE MY MOMMY!
Glad that my Dad is doing well. He will be 71 in March. He has done so much for Rosie and I. I am so grateful for all he does.
Almost 3 am and everyone here is sound asleep except for me. I stay up late most nights. Rarely get in bed prior to 2 am.
Rosie and I watched ZOOKEEPER tonight. It was so-s0.
May go to the cinema’s this week if Rosie feels like it.
Everything is so convenient to us here. We are blessed to live on 2 acres, in a nice brick ranch home. Live with-in 40 min of Knoxville… that is when I drive.
Hope Rosie wakes up with her edema gone. Poor baby felt bad this evening. Running a 99 fever. She normally runs around 96-97. Hope she does not end up in the hospital this week. Been so stressed and worried about her. Hate seeing her in so much pain. So happy that she is at least eating again. Had been almost 4 months since she has enjoyed eating without nausea and vomiting.
Rosie wore my red size large sweater today. She is getting skinnier by the day. She will get weighed on Wednesday. I bet she has dropped 20 more pounds. Gonna be thinner than me soon.
Dad, Rosie and I ended up at O’Charleys after grocery shopping. Rosie and I split the steak and shrimp. Rosie ate one shrimp and about 3 oz steak. Nothing else.
I had 3 shrimp and an ounce of steak. Only had 3 spoonfuls of the tater soup. They brought me enough Caesar salad to feed an army. Ate only about a cup. Was stuffed. The Boys had plenty of leftovers from us, including prime rib from Dad.
Got a lot of bargains at the grocery store. Dad and I are having coconut shrimp tomorrow. Rosie is having her fave fish : orange roughy. Cooking roasted corn, roasted asparagus and perhaps a tater dish. Fresh Strawberries for Dessert. YUM YUM
Rosie and I need to hit the mall this week to see what is on sale. Needing some new short dresses or skirts. Adoring my legs.
Didn’t get to webcam with John tonight. He was expecting a storm so he is prolly without power. He has been feeling so bad for almost a year. Back, Shoulder, and Elbow issues. Lately he’s had a toothache. Pray that he is sleeping well tonight. Hoping he is warm and toasty. He is my baby Love. We are soul-mates. He has helped me become the lady I am today. I am gonna make him a new video of me. That always makes him feel better.
Haven’t heard from SJ or RH today. Hope they are relaxing and enjoying life. They both work too hard. Sending prayers their way.
Gonna holler for my babies: Snickers, Smoki, Jazzi, Punkin and Tater and head to my bedroom. Most nights I have 3-4 of em in bed with me. I stay in Rosie’s room till 2-3 am encase she needs me. We have a phone intercom system if she needs me while I am asleep.
I have lost 110 lbs and Rosie has lost over 175 lbs. She is sore from her hernia repair. Hope to get her up in her wheelchair tomorrow. Made her rest all day. She is eating so much better. Still in small quantities. At least she is not nauseated nor vomiting now. Praise The Lord.
I have so many new friends on Facebook and Twitter. I love em all dearly. Cher is even following me!
We no longer play Farmville.
Love our new dog SnickerDoodle (Longhaired Miniature Dachshund) He is blond with copper nose and eyes. No one has ever seen one like him. He is so precious. Sleeps with me and worships the ground I walk on.
Smoki (Cairn Terrier) is buddies with Snickers. Even our Cats LOVE him: Panther, Jazzi, Punkin, and Tater.
Hope to head to Gatlinburg /Pigeon Forge/ Sevierville this weekend.
Rosie goes back to see her surgeon on the 22nd in Knoxville.
Plan to go to West Virginia next month.
Rosie and I have become friends with RH a music promoter/energy company CEO/ political adviser/ Doctor/ and all around decent Christian man. Also friends with SJ who is RH’s CFO. Friendly with a lot of their friends. They all have accepted my friendship with open arms. They give me so much love and support. They have helped me gain confidence and self-esteem. MAY GOD BLESS THEM ALL!
Rosie and I have some exciting news but we are not at liberty to offer any details as of yet. Waiting to hear the decisions they have made. WOW! I can’t wait.
I have never been this excited about anything compared to the way I feel now… I am starting to love and enjoy everything that God has blessed me with… looking forward to see what else is coming my way. Rosie is just as excited as I am.
Receiving all sorts of messages from men wanting to date me… undecided. Waiting for the Lord to guide me.
So glad that Rosie did well with the hernia repair. I am so blessed to have her as a sis and as my best friend.
Still close to John. We webcam chat daily. Such a major supporter of me. Without his encouragement I would not be the woman I am today. THANKS BabyLove!!
Allergy shots tomorrow IF Rosie is able to sit up and get in her wheelchair.
Snickers is eating a granny smith apple. Carrying it around. So cute.
Excited about the upcoming Elections. I am a proud liberal Democrat !
I believe in Equality for everyone!
I have lost 2 lbs in the last 365 days… but have lost 5″ from my waist! HAPPY DANCE!
Missing all my WV cousins. Love all of you. Hope to stay in a Cabin at Twin Falls Resort next month. All of my family is invited! Had a blast last time.
Not having as many panic attacks as I use to…. BUT when I do they are nasty…. flushed face, severe sweating and the shakes. UGH!
Still having flare-up from my fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome. That will probably never change. Trying to cope and deal with it. Extremely tired tonight. Been having Fibro Fog. I hate it so much. My mind works in slow-mo at times. So forgetful.
IBS is under control. No accidents in months.
Diabetes treated only with a pill. Been off insulin pump for months now.
So hopeful for my future. I surrender to God. Everything. Total. All of me. Use me. Guide me. Give me Patience, Wisdom, Hope, Faith, Trust, Love, and Health. I ask that for me, as well as my family and friends. SERENITY.
Well, Rosie is doing ok. Has a blood clot in her left leg. It has been swollen and painful. It is only superficial.
Her umbilical hernia has been repaired twice in 10 years. It will be repaired again on Monday at ParkWest Hospital, and she will be also having a tummy tuck. She has lost 15″ off her waist now. Dropped over 175 lbs. She even has lost 3″ off her neck. She has had a few good days. Her intestines are poking out from the hernia. Looks weird…. you can see it move and all. It causes her to have nausea. She has actually ate the past few days. She goes days without much nutrition at all. Just doesn’t want to eat. Hoping the hernia repair makes her less nauseous. I love her so much. She can now wear size 8-9 panties! Smallest shirt has been a 14.
She will be fitted for a new electric wheelchair in June. She is so excited. Her current chair sucks! Gonna try and see IF she will fit in our Mom’s old electric wheelchair tomorrow. Hope she can. It would be much more comfy for her. She has been wheelchair bound since she was 16. Can’t walk at all. She can stand for about 10 sec. Rosie will be 45 in May. She is perhaps the happiest person I have ever met. Proud to call her my best friend and My Sissy!
Had another CT SCAN on my tummy and nothing abnormal was found. Even though I have not lost any additional weight My waist is down to 35″ now. Was 40. Guess I am STILL Shaping up. I have lost 110 lbs. My hips are 38″ without measuring the excess skin hanging from my tummy. Smallest dress I have worn is a 10. I am gonna lose a few more pounds and somehow TRY to get my insurance to pay for a tummy tuck. WISH ME LUCK!
Still having aches and pains from Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia. Shoulders, Thighs, Knee’s, Elbows, Hands and Feet. Seems that will never change. Insomnia is not as bad. TRIED sleeping without my sleep meds the other night. Finally gave in and took em at 6:30 am and slept like a babe. Wish I didn’t get so tired, so easily.
I have made a few more friends via Twitter and Facebook. Some I consider dear friends. I am blessed. Panic attacks have lessened. Doing my best to become more outgoing. Being more receptive to men.
Sending special prayers to Brandy, John, Dreama, Bret, Shane, Chrissy, Stephen, Janna, Russell, Carmen, Rebecca, Terri, Sara, Becky, Charles, Shay, Blake, JR, Sue, Earlene, and Rick.
♥ LOVE U ALL ♥
I know that this year will be MY YEAR!
My moods swings have stabilized for now.
I started allergy shots a few weeks ago.
Still close to John. He gives me so much support, encouragement and serenity.
I am more confident than ever. I even go out grocery shopping without any makeup.
Receiving lots of attention from the male species. Loving it. Receiving just as many flirts when I have no makeup on as I do with full Drag-Queen makeup.
Grateful that I don’t look 46. Some people think I am in my early 20′s….. love that!
I cut Rosie’s hair in a medium length shag. First time we curled it was tonight. Can’t wait to see the results tomorrow.
Plan are to go to West Virginia in March. All depends on Rosie’s recovery.
Dad is taking THE BOYS “Smoki and Snickers” everywhere we go”.
Tater Bug
Jazzi
Punkin
Our life is good and is only gonna get better!
Hopefully over the next few months we will be able to share some very exciting news and changes happening in Our lives. We have High Hopes.
After 17 years of celibacy I have decided to date!
Praying for wisdom, guidance and patience.
I am also becoming more extroverted online and in the real world.
Been blessed to be making more friends online. I am actually messaging a few male friends back now. :-) MAJOR ADVANCEMENT !
BUCKET LIST:
Date Again!
See the ocean.
Fly in a plane.
Get my passport.
Get married again.
Use all the gifts God gave me.
Be more supportive of everyone… except Republicans. LOL!
Be more compassionate.
Be more outgoing.
Stop having social anxiety and panic attacks.
Get use to talking on the phone without having a panic attack.
Get healthier.
Smile more.
Help those less fortunate.
Be more patient.
Be more vocal online.
Lose more weight.
Make new friends.
I have a few men that I am interested in. Just wanting for them to make a move. Having all kinds of men flirt with me online and reality… I am now trying to FLIRT with guys in person. Social Anxiety Sucks!
I am so proud of Rosie. She has lost 175 lbs now. She will be able to get fitted for a new wheelchair in July! Rosie only weighs 35 lbs more than me now. Looking great! You go sis! Rosie is wearing size 20-22 jeans now.
I am down to size 10-12 in jeans. :-) Down from a 26. WOO-HOO.
Rosie and I both are now getting allergy shots.
Thinking about talking to my family doc about my mood swings.
May even start seeing a shrink again.
Wish Rosie would not have so much nausea and vomiting. She even had a dizzy spell today.
Having fibromyalgia aches and pains.. plus Fibro Fog. I hate the mental confusion it creates. Not thinking clearly. Seems like I think in slow-mo. HATE IT!
Enjoying my new puppy. SnickerDoodle, he is a BLONDE Long haired Miniature Dachshund, who worships me!
Snickers gets along with all our pets: Smoki, Jazzi, Punkin, Panther and Tater.
Snickers loves going bye-bye.
Smoki and Snickers love baskin-robbins ice cream. Take them every few weeks.
My Best friend John has been having health issues. I am worried about him. Pray that he gets better and that he sleeps well.
I have been wearing short skirts, pantyhose and knee high leather boots. I have fabulous legs! Bet I tried on 20 pairs of boots till I found one to fit my skinny legs.
I layered my hair a few weeks ago and can’t believe how wavy it is naturally.
Haven’t had much sleep lately. Rosie wakes me up a few times nightly. Tummy issues. Pray that I get some decent sleep tonight.
Praying for the man I was created for, the one God designed for me. I KNOW you are out there waiting for me. Thinking of me. Praying for me. Maybe we already know one another. Grant US both wisdom, guidance, & patience. Open up our hearts, minds, souls, and spirits to recognize each other when the time is right. Happy about my future. I know it is gonna be a good one!
I believe that God speaks and gives signs to some people… I pray that this night that God speaks to me and/or to my helpmate. Let US know. Comfort us. Give us patience. Let US Dream of one another.
Hope to travel to WV to see my family in a few weeks. I love and miss them dearly.
So blessed to had a caregivers help this weekend. Peggy helped us tremendously. I was able to nap 3-4 hours. Trying to catch up on lost sleep.
Gonna miss the additional help Rosie has been having the past 2 afternoon’s and nights. So hard to get her in and out of bed by myself.
Rosie had a good day. Peggy and I were able to shampoo Rosie’s hair. It had been 11 days since it was washed.
Rosie did well on her quota’s that Dr Boyce requires::
60+ grams of Protein
64+ ounces of Fluids
2 scoops of Dr Boyce’s powered vitamins.
I give Rosie lovenox injections daily.
Nurse Pete taught me how to clean her picc line with saline. Have to do it twice daily.
An RN will be here 3 x’s a week. They will be changing the picc line dressing and changing all the Wound Vac dressing from her open hernia wound. They also will be doing a PT and INR testing of her blood twice a week.
Rosie had some diarrhea today. Hope that it subsides. She is staying pretty full from all the protein shakes, juices, and water. She drank too much and too fast tonight and had minor indigestion.
Smoki, my cairn terrier, is so jealous that Rosie is getting so much attention. He has been down in the dumps… gonna give him extra attention before he goes to bed with me. He thinks everyone should be focusing on him.
My sugar got too low tonight. Just getting it back to normal. I ate some Strawberry Hi-Lo Low Carb Cereal… was Yummy.
I am aching all over tonight. Sore muscles and joints. Vicoden is not even helping with the pain and burning. :-(
Had some weird ear sensations all day today. Not sure what is up with that.
Been so busy that I neglected taking my vitamins for the past 2 weeks. Started on them again last night.
Rosie’s caregiver Dina will be here for a few hours tomorrow and Wednesday. Peggy returns on Friday. Pete will be here Tues, Thurs, and Saturdays for the next 6 weeks.
Pray that Rosie’s hospital bed arrives tomorrow. Had to be special ordered. Grateful that Rosie has insurance that covers all her medical needs. Gonna get Dr Melling to order her a new wheelchair seat. Her wheelchair is so uncomfy that I am certain it is contributing to her lower back aches and pains.
I bet she has lost 20 more lbs. Will be excited to see how much weight she has lost. Will know Friday when she goes to Dr Boyce. Since she is in a wheelchair and unable to stand,Dr Boyce weighs her while in the wheelchair and then we take away 275 lbs for the wheelchair and its batteries.
I am hoping that I can get to my next goal weight by Friday. Fingers crossed. Only 4 lbs away!
Had a severe panic attack at the grocery store yesterday. Hate to go shopping alone. :-(
Rosie is so sore that she can’t sit up very straight. So slouchy all the time. Pray she regains her strength. She is getting stronger by the day.
I have to take a letter from Dr Boyce to Dr Melling’s office in regards to her blood thinner management.
Need to get some groceries for dad. He says he has no food in the kitchen… our pantry is mainly filled with foods that he won’t eat… aka Healthy Foods.
I pray that Rosie sleeps well throughout the night and only has to get me up once. She has been waking me every 2 hours… she needs assistance with using her bedpan. She is drinking so many fluids that all she does is urinate. Dr Boyce wants her to urinate at least 600-700cc a day and she mets that quota easily in one peeing. I She is urinating around 10 times a day. I bet Dad does not pee 600 cc in a WEEK! He does not drink enough fluids and we constantly fuss at him.
Dad pickled some beets and eggs. They are so yummy. Will be even better by tomorrow.
Gonna go get Smoki and head to bed.
Thanks for your prayers for Rosie and may they continue. Thanks!
Surgery is on Tuesday the 26th. Doc called and she has an infection somewhere. Starting Cipro. Having labs again on Monday.
Rosie has went from a size 32 jean down to a… 26! Wow.. I am so proud of her.
A few months ago we paid over $40.00 for our Cairn Terrier Smoki Poki Loki to get a hair cut. Thought it was way too much. Watched some Youtube Video’s about dog grooming and bought him his own set of razor clippers. Gave him a “LION Cut” today. Was so easy and he didn’t mind it at all. The clippers were only $38 so we have already started saving money. He looks so adorable. He is out with Dad talking a walk. Dad spoils him so bad. He ordered Smoki his own Bacon Cheeseburger the other evening from Outback. Darn thing was $6. Last night Dad brought home leftover BBQ Ribs from Ruby Tuesday and I bought him some Ribeye. He wolfed it down. He refuses to eat dog food. Will occasionally eat some cat food. He steals it from our cats. Dad fries Smoki a pound of bacon to fed him. Smoki will sometimes eat cheese, chicken, steak, beef, and pepperoni.He loves Taco’s. LOL. He also loves Peanut butter protein bars and corn on the cob.
Rosie has on a live video of some French Bulldog puppies… they are so cute… I want one!
I was so sick last night. Didn’t fall asleep till 8 am this morn. Tummy issues. I am finally feeling better just tired.
I have been a lil panicky the last few days. Worried about Rosie and her surgery. I appreciate your prayers. Thanks.
July 6th 8:00 Dr. Boyce CLASSJuly 6th 12:15 Dr. Boyce FINAL LABSJuly 11th 1:45 Dr. Boyce VISITJuly 11th 3:45 Hospital PRE-OPJuly 19th Coumadin STOPJuly 26th 7:00 SURGERY
She will be having Duodendal Switch with Biliopancreatic Diverision on July 26th with Dr Stephen Boyce as Surgeon.
Rosie and I both will be starting a MONTH long high protein liquid diet prior to her surgery. I am doing it in support of her. I hope to lose a few pounds and lose 15-25 lbs. during this time.
Rosie is getting excited about losing weight and regaining some of her life. Appreciate your prayers. THANKS!
I am so happy for her yet worried at the same time. I pray that surgery and recovery goes smoothly and that she can adapt readily to the lifestyle DS/BPD requires.
I had Roux-en-Y surgery on Sept 14th 2009 and lost over 1oo lbs. Doing well. I still can only eat small meals at a time. I have days where I still have issues with certain foods. But mainly eat what I want but in limited quantities. My life has changed since surgery. I have more confidence and self esteem. I can do more but with having chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromylalgia I often do more than I should and end up paying for it later. Like I can go out and shop for a few hours and then barely can get out of bed the next day. Still having fibro aches and pains as I did prior to surgery. I still don’t tolerate heat very well. It can be 95 degrees outside.. and when I walk into an air-conditioned store I end up with chills and torrential sweats. HATE THAT!
My Family doc has been trying various meds to help with my IBS. Was on Questran and it didn’t help. Start on Bentyl tomorrow. Been having cramps and diarrhea more and more often. Fecal incontinence is almost nightly now. No fun at all. Embarrassing and humiliating. Not sure what has caused this but it happened after Gastric Bypass Surgery. If Bentyl does not help Welchol is the next treatment planned. I am on Immodium a few times daily. Have been for years.
I start on metaglip tomorrow for my diabetes and stop glipizide. I continue on Victoza as long as I can get samples from my endocrinologist since my insurance will NOT cover it.
Still on Cymbalta, Xanax, and Trazodone for my nerves and anxiety.
I take Vicodin for my fibromylagia pain.
I am now wearing a size 10-12-14 in clothing.. All depends on the designer. I even have a few 7-9 that I wear. VANITY SIZING! Cause I am a size 16 I am sure! I have about 10-15 lbs of excess stomach skin. Gonna be talking to some plastic surgeons about removing it. Still desiring breast augmentation. What I once had is now saggy sloping deflated boobs. Have to roll em up to get them in my bra. LOL! Not really… but almost!
I still can’t believe I got my drivers license. So PROUD of myself. Major break-through for me. Congrats to myself.
John just got back from Portugal and Spain today. Has an awesome tan. Looks incredible. Glad he got some time to enjoy himself. Was thrilled to see him tonight. Woo-Hoo! We have a special date night planned for Wednesday. I missed him so much and cried daily while he was away. He and I webcam daily whenever possible. Have yet to meet. He is my best friend. We adore one another.
For 17 years I have not dated, been kissed or made love to. Yes, I am lonely and I pray to have patience, perseverance, wisdom, and guidance to whomever or whatever God wants me to have in my life.
I am going out to the mall tomorrow afternoon/evening. May go to the movies. Not sure yet.Rosie and I need new bedsheets. Plus Rosie needs a few items for after surgery. Already got her some really cute nighties. She has dropped 2 dress sizes this year. So proud of her. She is gonna be one hot sexy SKINNY mama! She is already gorgeous.. Can only imagine what she will look like in the future.
Went to The Great Smoky Flea Market yesterday. Got some lovely Fascinators. John loved the hot pink flowery fascinator I had on tonight. I also got 2 maxi halter dresses… BRAND NEW… for only $6 each. Got a size XL but needed L or perhaps a M. The dresses are so sexy but too revealing to wear out in public without a jacket or shawl. I wore the hot pink Hawaiian flowered one today to the Doctor. Mainly wore it for John. He thought I looked beautiful… and I DID! Also bought lots of $1 earrings. So adorable. Smoki went with us. He had a blast. He got fitted for a new red harness. He is so studly!
We were out for only around an hour yesterday. It was so hot. My body thermostat is all screwed up due to Fibromylagia… so when perspire… I sweat… dripping… drenched… UGH! They are times even in cold weather where I will have chills and the sweats at the same time. UGH. Frustrating to say the least. Since Gastric Bypass I get cold so easily. I will wear a sweatshirt most evenings cause I am so cold.
Another thing that has changed is my tailbone. I never had much of an Badonkadonk even at 315 lbs. So, now, after losing 110+ lbs I have zero butt left. No cushion there now…So my tailbone aches most of the day…. So I HAVE a pain in the ass daily.. Some say I AM a pain in the ass. LOL!
Allergy season is killing me. My nose will start dripping all the sudden… like a faucet…as well as my eyes tearing.. looks like I am crying. UGH! Benadryl and Claritin is not helping.
I have some leftover taco’s from El Sazon that I am making for my dinner tonight. I get them carryout. 9 taco’s with Meat and Cheese only… with Lettuce and Tomato on the side. They give me almost a head of lettuce and 2-3 chopped tomatoes. I remove the taco shells and discard them. The Taco meat, cheese, lettuce and tomatoes makes me at least 3 meals not counting how many dad and Rosie eats. So Tasty and filling. So glad that I can Still only eat small portions. Hope it stays that way forever.
I have also started doing laundry daily. Something I have never did in my life. I am getting good at it and actually enjoy it.
I am living with aches and pains from fibro, the IBS issues, my allergies, my insomnia/hypersomnia troubles, my diabetes, and my continuing social anxiety and panic attacks. It could be better and yet it could be worse… I am grateful for all the blessings and pray for the strength to conquer obstacles in my life. It will get better…
I am not the same woman I was a few years ago and that is in a good way.
I only wish I could enjoy all the fabulous changes and opportunities coming my way… But Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromylagia are not allowing that. If I over-do it even a lil bit I am down for days trying to recoup from it. I have been aching from my head to my toes lately. Exhausted and lethargic. Been needing 12 hours of sleep even to attempt getting up the next day.
I have to Thank God, Dad, Rosie and John for helping me overcome so many obstacles. Also many thanks to all my doctors: Dr Blake Melling (Family Doctor) , Dr Joanne Langton (Endocrinologist) , and Dr Aqueel Kouser (Rheumatologist) to just mention a few.
Spent a lovely 3 night / 4 day weekend in Gatlinburg with my Sister Rosie. I was more fatigued this time than last years mini-vacay to Gatlinburg Family Fest / Gaither Homecoming Concerts. Went to 5 shows. Had a good time in spite of hurting in my shoulders, neck, back, legs and tailbone. I had to go to the bathroom often just to help relieve some of the tailbone aches. It helped.
I am down over 110 lbs now. Wearing a size 10-12. Receiving so much attention from men and I love it. Had guys ask me this past weekend if they could have their picture taken with me…. and that is not counting the ones who took my picture without even asking. FLATTERING.
I am dressing different than I had been. Getting back to dressing more provocative but not over doing it… gotta remember I am a 45 year old woman. Loving wearing dresses and showing off my legs.
Angela trying to look sexy and failing at it miserably. LOL!
My hair is now Jet Black. I use to dye it black for years… mainly in my 20′s. Love it and so does everyone else! I also cut some short bangs ala Bettie Page style.. but I still can style them away from my face if I want to. I sometimes wear hair extensions, wigs, and clip on pony-tails on occasion. Like to change my look often. Been wearing my hair is a beehive bouffant style lately.
Rosie had a eye appt. Visual Field Test prior to starting Plaquenil. My eye doc who is also Rosie’s eye doc, his nurse and receptionist barely recognized me. First time they had seen me with Makeup. I look majorly different with makeup they could not believe how beautiful I looked today.
I finally was brave enough to go take my road test to get my drivers license. Didn’t tell no one but Dad and Rosie just in case I failed… BUT I passed on my first attempt. WOO-HOO! Now if I can only get Dad to let me and Rosie take the mini-van out alone. He still says no… that I am not ready for that yet. I hope to make a short trip out with just Rosie and I…. we may go to the grocery store OR to McDonalds for some Unsweetened Ice Tea. MAYBE.
Rosie has a surgery date for Gastric Bypass. It is July 26th. She has to get pre-op testing, take an education class over the next few weeks. She will be on a low carb-high protein diet all of July. She has already lost 2 dress sizes. I am so proud of her.
Rose and Angela Picture was taken on Rosie's 44th Birthday
Gonna be driving to West Virginia to visit family as soon as the weather dips down to the 70′s- mid 80′s.
I do have more self confidence on some days. Still suffering from panic attacks. On Xanax full time now. SNOOZE…
My Rheumy has me on a high dose of a narcotic and it is helping *some* with the pain I have but it makes me so drowsy. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. Snore…
Sugars are doing well. My Insurance will not cover Victoza injections but my doc is willing to give me samples. I may have to go on byetta soon. Will see.
Been having severe anxiety and depression at times. Gonna discuss it with Melling this week. I feel so helpless and worthless at times.
Rosie’s lower back has been aching for a few weeks now. She sees her urologist Dr Bedford Waters this week in Knoxville. I am driving. Can’t wait.
I am 45 years old and got my first set of keys for the car and house now.
I even pumped gas for the very 1st time last week. Kudos to me.
I have been pampered, spoiled and protected by my family for far too long.
I have even learned how to wash and dry clothes… still haven’t mastered the skill of putting clothes away. Nor doing dishes.
Dad has been in and out of the hospital for a few months. Currently he has protein in his urine, enlarged heart, COPD, pneumonia, a bum knee that needs replaced… and a case of the worst “grumpys n grouchys” in the world. His Doctors doesn’t want him doing anything but he still does some… albeit not as much as he used to. I know how tough it is on him to sit and do nothing… that contributes to his moodiness. He is rough on me and Rosie at times but we still love him.
Smoki went to Lowes today. Oh yea.. Smoki is my Cairn Terrier. He loves Lowes… and of course everyone adores Smoki. He is a doll. He wore his black leather fringe bandana today and he goes crazy when he see’s it and can’t wait till it is on him … and hates when we take it off. Went to Lowes to look for Dad a new riding lawn mower. Should be delivered tomorrow. His old lawn tractor has seen its last days. Also bought Dad a new TV 32″ LCD Plasma. He put it in his bedroom since that is where he spends most of his time lately. Appreciate prayers for him. THANKS!
Smoki My Cairn Terrier aka TOTO Dog
Then we took Smoki to Wendy’s for a Jr. Bacon Cheeseburger plain. His fave.
Smoki
Came home to a brilliant webcam session with John. He is heading to Spain on Monday with his Sis to celebrate her finishing her last chemo/radiation treatments and hopefully is now free of breast cancer. John is the best. He and I get closer daily. Known one another for over 3 years now. Best friends. I am already missing him. He will be away a week but will send me emails/text messages.
Been having severe stomach issues again. Left upper quadrant pain and other issues. IBS Sucks.
May go to the cinema to see a movie this weekend.
Praying for all my Aunts, Uncles, and cousins… as well as my friends. Been reconnecting with so many people I went to school with on Faceook. I love getting reacquainted.
Tailbone is aching so I had better finish this and post it. Heading to bed.
Dad is still having severe edema and is so grouchy… he has been driving all of us insane including our pets.
I pray that he is feeling better tomorrow.
I even pulled over and had Dad drive today due to him making me so nervous. I even cried.
Had a nice lil chat with John. Adore that man. He always helps me relax and is so supportive and attentive. Sending love and prayers to him. He is working @ home for a few weeks due to a back injury and an infection. He was not feeling well and went to bed early. He arrived at chat late cause he was sleeping but said he had to see me tonight. So Sweet and Precious.
Started on Questran for my IBS. Increasing my dosage from once a day to twice a day to see if that helps. So far once a day doesn’t do much.
Been more active lately since Dad has been in and out of the hospital with Pneumonia and Urinary Retention. BUT I am wore out. Aching all over. Chronic Fatigue and Fibromylagia sucks.
Planted some strawberry and tomato plants in the garden this week …. also sowed some catnip seeds for my fur babies Tater, Jazzi, Punkin and Panther.
I have been driving a lot the past few weeks. Adore driving on the four lane. Gonna attempt to get my drivers license in the next few months.
Haven’t been sleeping well. Some nights I sleep like a baby then others I don’t sleep much at all.
Allergy Season is rearing its ugly head. Waiting on my insurance to approve Allegra for me. My forehead, eyes, nose and cheeks are swollen. So pianful. I go from a stuffy nose to a runny faucet in a matter of minutes some days. I even hurt in my ears, teeth and jaw from it.
Been taking better care of my hair, skin, nails and body. Hope to post a blog about it soon. Just so much is on my mind and so much transpiring that I haven’t posted much at all. Sorry. I know lots of my family and friends read this.
I dyed my hair… jet black. It is a medium brown naturally but I have dyed it Red for 6-7 years now. I use to dye it black.. way back in the day. Man I am getting old since I can say WAY BACK IN THE DAY. LOL
Hope to post some reviews on items I have purchased as well as places I purchase stuff from.
Rosie is doing great. She has dropped 2 dress sizes already. She still needs medical clearance letter from her family physician Blake Melling to get approval for Gastric Bypass…. Looks like it will be Summer when she has it. We all adore Dr Melling. Best doc we ever had. SO compassionate. He explains things and listens to us. Dad, Rosie and I all see him. Mom did as well. Good Man!
Ok it is 2 am and here I am blogging when I should be in bed. Heading that way.
Sending love and prayers to Aunt Susie’s family. I love all of you.
Also much love to my cousin Brandy. Hope to see all my WV Family soon as Dad is well enough to travel.
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