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Rosie went to her Gastric Bypass Dr Boyce. He is sending her to a Gastroenterologist Dr Wilhoite on Monday at 8:15 AM. Meaning I have to get up at 5 am to get Rosie ready and then off to Knoxville we will go.
Boyce ordered all sorts of lab tests. They needed only 3 vials… had to stick Rosie 7 times to get enough. Took 90 minutes! OUCH!
Rosie’s IPAD 3 HD arrived in Knoxville about 45 min ago. Will be delivered tomorrow. Rosie is so excited and so am I.
The past few weeks have been really rough on Rosie and I. Just wore out from stress. When Rosie improves I hope there is someway she, Dad, and I can take a vacay. WE DESERVE IT!
Praying for strength, energy, faith, compassion, hope, confidence, and patience.
Had a nice chat with my Best Friend John (friends only, he lives in Scotland, he and I have never met.)
Rosie woke up this morning with diarrhea and vomiting. Had severe cramping above and below her navel. Above cramps means she is gonna vomit. Below cramps equals diarrhea. She has taken a Zofran and is no longer cramping. But is sore to the touch.
We are going to Wally World around 5. Pray that she continues to feel OK… or even better than just OK.
I am so friggin stressed out. One min I am thrilled that she is happy, active, laughing, full of joy and then a minute later she is sick as a dog. Roller Coaster. Wearing me out.
She goes to see Dr Boyce tomorrow. She needs an endoscopy and a colonoscopy.
Rosie’s nausea returned on Friday. She felt yucky all weekend. We stayed home. She goes sees her Gastric Bypass Doc on Thursday. Hope to get a referral to a Gastroenterologist. Needs a colonoscopy and endoscopy.
Thanks for all your support, thoughts, well wishes and prayers sent our way. Praying for all who have prayed for Us.
I was achy all weekend. Inflamed joints, Muscles aches, fatigued. Did get a lil bit of spring cleaning started.
Really need to do some grocery shopping tomorrow. Hope Rosie feels well enough to go out.
2 Men from Southern West Virginia (where I was born and raised) Are on the wealthiest USA Billionaires List. AMAZED at their accomplishments and proud of their philanthropy!
Got the older Dell Laptop ready to sell for $100. Going to prepare 2 netbooks that we plan on selling for $25 each. Also have a 24″ FLAT monitor to sale for $25. ALL BARGAINS! Have 1 PC that needs fixed.I Think it is a bad graphics card… Gonna work on that.
Watching Whitney and Bobbi Kristina on Oprah. Praying for Bobbi.
Thinking about MR HANDSOME… if he only knew all the things I dream about doing to him… LOL! I am sure he would blush! Sometimes I think about writing him in regards to all the hot fantasies I have of him…Naughty… Bawdy… Erotic Fun! I imagine him doing hedonistic things to me.Ooh-la-la what an experience he and I could share.I may have not had sex in years but my body is ready, willing and able.When I have been in a relationship… the sexual part was always fiery, wild and passionate. On a Daily basis. Love sharing sensuality with a partner.Miss that.I adore intimacy…. lovemaking…. more-so than most women.I can be too demanding. Just craving for a man to stroke his hand across my face.Gently kiss my lips.Suck on my earlobe.Cuddle me tight as we sleep.YES, I am Frisky.Needing a lil nookie… hell.. I want A LOT of nookie! LOL When I am in LOVE…. I always am ready to share carnal relations. I hope that Mr Handsome dances through *MY* dreams…and that *I* do the same in his dreams till the day ( IF EVER) that *WE* walk into each others lives…. and ravage one each others minds, hearts, bodies, and souls.
Went to Rack Room Shoes. I got 2 pairs of bjorndal sandals.
Went to TJ Maxx but didn’t buy anything.
Went to Office Max. Rosie got a touch pen for her new Ipad.. will be here on the 16th. My laptop is touch screen so I am having a blast! Also purchased some gel INK Pens.
We ate at The Davy Crockett Restaurant, choose a meat Plus 2-3 sides… all under $9.99 Sides includes salads as well as Banana Pudding.
Rosie got the Open Faced Roast Beef Sandwich, Mashed Taters and Banana Pudding. She has not touched the nana pudding and has enough Roast beef for 2 more meals!
Dad got the sirloin, slaw, brown beans and Nana Pudding. He brought ALL of the sirloin home for our dogs!
I had the country fried steak. Ate about 1/3 of it and brought the rest home for the Boys (Snickers and Smoki). Mashed Taters, Side Salad (Country French Dressing) and Nana Pudding.
Smoki and Snickers went out with us. Dad stayed in the Van with the boys as we shopped.
I am THRILLED that Rosie is feeling so much better. She is back to her boisterous funny self… Thank God. I missed her. Love seeing her enjoying food. Been a long 7.5 months (Gastric Bypass) since she actually wants to eat and is able to enjoy it. BLESSED.
Going to pack clothes this weekend. Heading to West Virginia Next Sunday. Hoping to meet all of my West Virginia family at the new Arby’s in Pineville around 3 pm Sunday the 18th.
Pineville does NOT even have a McDonald’s. Closest McDonald’s is 13.48 miles away!
Closest Wal-Mart is 24.67 miles
Pineville does have a Dairy Queen now.
Going to call my Aunt Mattie and Uncle Harold (Springfield, OHIO) and let them know we are heading to Pineville. Hope they can meet us there.
Going to bleach Rose Lee’s Hair and Dye it a brighter red for Spring.
Dyeing mine Jet Black. Also going to cut some Bangs / Fringe to hide the wrinkles on my forehead. Yes, I do have wrinkles!
ALLERGIES are killing me. Sneezing. Breaking out in rashes when I go outside. Itching all over. Ear Tickles. Inflammation on my forehead. Sinus/Allergies Sucks!
Getting OLDER Sucks even-more-so.
Realizing that I let 46 years pass away without LIVING it.
Pray that I overcome my shyness. I want to have a bubbly, sparkling, boisterous personalty… I wish I could talk to men without having a panic attack. Wish I was able to be flirty. I just don’t have the confidence I wish I had. Always worried about something.
I still have Social anxiety.. afraid I am saying the wrong things. That I am bothering people. etc.
I am able to talk to gay men without any problem. Or I talk to men who live thousands of miles away so I won’t have to deal with them in person.
I Pray that I can start communicating with Straight Single men who live in Tennessee. Afraid of getting my heart broken again.
I have NEVER even had a girlfriend to talk with. No friends in School… I had few friends @ School but they never came to my house and I never went to theirs. Never called and spoke on the phone… etc
Rose Lee is my best friend and Sissy.
John is my best male friend. He lives 3,500 miles away from here. Friends Only.
I have some friends online. Just acquaintances. I would love to be able to have friends in my life. Someone to hang out with. Do things with, etc Laugh with. Cry With.
John is the only one who sees me cry. I share everything, all my thoughts, worries, anxieties. He knows me very well.
I bet I went 20 some years where I CRIED every single night. Feeling so lonely. I still cry on occasion but not like I use to.
I would LOVE to have a man to call me…not sure if I am ready.. I am getting there.
I have personal ads at a slew of websites. Get mail on a daily basis. Just don’t know which one I should write back so I don’t reply to any of them.
Asking God to guide me to the men, that will enhance my quality of life. Someone who will bring out the BEST in me. Someone who is Compassionate, Patient, Family Oriented and someone wants to help the less fortunate and who also adores animals.
I know the man God designed me for is out there praying to meet me. Praying for my family. I pray for that man every day and I have for 30 years. I know God wants me to have a helpmate. A Lover. A Friend. Praying that he enters my life soon.
I surrender my will to God’s will for my life.
Please Pray that God will help me overcome all my insecurities.
I Pray for confidence, the words to help encourage and bless others.
Use my smile to show God’s love to the world.
God, Here I Am.. Use me anyway you see fit. I am willing.
God Help me Help others.
I know I have it in me to overcome anything and everything that is holding me back from my full potential.
Change my personality Dear Lord… Make me bubbly, friendly, well spoken, and kinder.
Make me selfless.
Give me the words that people need to hear.
USE ME.
Please USE ME Lord.
I surrender.
Ready to change.
Change starts NOW!
I pray for everyone who read this .
I pray for everyone in the world to be nicer to one another.
Rosie is still feeling awesome. Eating well. I am so pleased. PRAISE JESUS for Answered prayers.
I am feeling good emotionally and spiritually but physically I ache all over. Having Chronic Fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Diabetes, Irritable Bowel Syndrome, Insomnia, Low Thyroid, Neuropathy, and Charcot-Marie Tooth Syndrome sucks.
Still having some episodes of depression, social anxieties, and panic attacks.
I did chat with a family friend, David, on Facebook Chat. He was the 1st I chatted with on Facebook… he is a pre-teen. He always makes me smile. He won KING at the Spring Dance! CONGRATS! Hope to see him on the trip to WV on March 18-20th. Last trip he spent the night with us at the cabin at Twin Falls Resort.
Also got to chat with my cousin Brandy. Even discussed her moving to Tennessee. Wants to start an animal rescue center. She works with the IRS and is gonna look for a job down here. She is like a sis to Rosie and I. She lived next to us in West Virginia. Love her.
Brandy and I both have the same emotional issues.
Not wanting to go out tomorrow…. needing rest BUT I need to go get my allergy shot.
Rosie ordered herself the new Ipad 3 HD. Will be here on March 16th. She is so excited. She deserves it since she went through 7.5 months of hell!
Thrilled she is feeling better.
Fatigued beyond words and heading to bed. Pray that I get some sleep.
Rosie is feeling so much better. Not sure why…she took a zofran last night in the ER. Went to get a script filled for Zofran at WalMart and It is out of stock and won’t be available till tomorrow. $5 a pill! FIVE BUCKS!
Rosie actually asked to go out shopping and dining. I was so surprised when she wanted to pick out a nail polish. She hasn’t been interested in makeup or nails for a LONG Time. Just small lil steps I appreciate.
She is still having MILD Nausea and soreness in her lower abdomen. Her appetite has returned and she was able to actually eat a good size portion of fish.
I was THRILLED to see her eat and savor each bite.
Just pray that she continues to improve. Been a rough 7.5 months since Gastric Bypass. She goes to Dr Boyce next Thursday.
She is so talkative. Back to the old Rose Lee that I adore. Her voice has even been weak the past month. Her voice was much stronger today. Not sure Zofran or perhaps the dye contrast she drank and they injected has helped her the most. But something obviously has helped. Maybe it helped when the doc pressed on her stomach and she shrieked out in pain. Maybe burst an MRSA abscess or something. Hmmm….
My right hip has given out on me twice this week, so far! Last night it went out and I fell backwards upon the van door. OUCH! Today when I stood up from the table at Shoney’s it went out again. UGH. It is painful. I will TRY and get to my rheumatologist in a few weeks. I have had balance issues ever since I had the first Chronic Kidney Failure Episode. Had 3 of them. Only needed dialysis that 1st time.
Sending prayers to The Hendrix Family. Hope Zachary has a speedy recovery. GOD BLESS THEM ALL!
Thanks to everyone who has prayed for Rosie. Hope we are on the track for a full recovery.
Rosie says she is planning her next meal… it has been a long time since she did this. Now has ZERO Nausea. PTL!
Rosie is feeling pretty good today. Zofran must have helped. She just took a phenergan. Will take a Zofran in a few hours. Still having pain and soreness in her lower abdomen.
Waiting for Dr Williams/Dr Boyce to call us back. Hope they can see her today.
I had Gastric Bypass Dumping Syndrome all night. Should not have ate that Hot Fudge Cake. Still feeling YUCKY.
Thanks for all your prayers. Praying for all of you.
Today she went for her 7th ER Visit in 8 months. Twice in the last 2 weeks. All her vitals and blood work was normal today. She had a ct scan today and 2 weeks ago. It shows some air abscesses. In August she had MRSA Abscess all over her internal stomach. Was hospitalized for 21 days. I STILL BELIEVE SHE HAS MRSA ABSCESSES!
The ER Doc wants her to see her Gastric Bypass surgeon Dr Boyce in a few days. Dr Boyce is out-of-town so she will be seeing his partner Dr Williams. Hopefully morrow. Dr Williams treated Rosie in the hospital when she has MRSA. He is a really nice man and so is Dr Boyce. Both are very handsome. My latest crushes!
They will prolly send her to a gastroenterologist for an Endoscopy and Colonoscopy. She has never had a colonoscopy. I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome and had 5 colonoscopy’s and 6 endoscopy’s. WORST thing is the prep. Aka Cleaning out the bowels. Prep drinks are so yucky! UGH! I feel sorry for Rosie having to drink that $hit. Yucky! It is better ice-cold and with some crystal light mixed in…. but still so nasty!
So glad that I had access to MSN Live Messenger at University of Tennessee ER. Got to webcam chat with my John. Chat is blocked at Parkwest Hospital. He was still all dolled up in his business attire. Shirt and Ties make me weak in the knee’s. Love a man in a suit. Adore men who can wear a suit for work and then jeans for fun and play.
It made Rosie so Happy to hear that Rick Hendrix was praying for her. Made her smile. Thanks Mr Hendrix!
I am wanting another dog and cat! A rescued one.Hopefully one day I can live on a farm with tons of pets. I adore cats, Dogs, Donkeys and Billy Goats. I would rescue every animal I could. Love Animals. Easier to talk to than people. LOL! I have conversations with all my pets, 2 dogs and 4 cats. They truly understand all the words I put into their mouths. LMFAO!
I hadn’t ate much today so on the way home we stopped at Cardins Drive-In. I was so stressed that I ordered a Hot Fudge Cake. Man it was awesome but now I am so ill. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gastric_dumping_syndrome UGH! NAUGHTY GIRL!
Rosie’s blood they drew tonight was almost black and thick. PT and INR was in the therapeutic range. She takes blood thinner to prevent blood clots. She has had so many blood clots that I have lost count. Even had one in her bladder. She inherited this from her Granny Goode. She has a GreenField Filter http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Greenfield_filter to catch blood clots and prevent them going to her lungs or heart.
Joints frozen in her arms, hands, elbows, legs, feet, knees and hips.
She has not been able to walk since she was 16. She turns 45 this year. When Rosie was 12 a doctor told Mom that Rosie would not make it to the age of 21. So glad that doc was WRONG!
Rosie broke her tailbone 18 months ago. Still have aches and pains.
All of this and Rose is still one of the happiest people I ever met.
God knew I could not handle all that Rosie has went through and is going through. Just glad that God chose me to be her care taker. I adore her with all my heart. Not only my sissy but also my best friend.
Blessed to have Rosie in my life.
Still praying to finally meet the man God created me for. I know my Baby Love is out there praying for me at this minute. Can’t wait to meet him. Let him know I am praying for him.
Thanks for all your prayers. Just pray that the docs can find out what is causing Rose Lee’s tummy pain, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, and lack of appetite. So stressful to know she feels so bad. I Pray that Dr Williams sends her to the best gastroenterologist in Knoxville… one that will take the time to listen and will run tests and scopy’s to find out what is causing all of this.
Snickers, Smoki. Panther, Jazzi, Punkin and Tater were glad to see us back home.
Smoki senses Rose is sick and keeps checking on her. Nurse Doggy!
Rosie was feeling so much better when we got home. That Zofran stuff is great. Just hoping that her insurance will cover it.. But I doubt it. Praise God that they have a generic form. Name Brand Zofran is $750.00 a month for a once a day pill. Generic is around $50….. $50 bucks don’t sound like a lot… but it is a tremendous amount for someone on Social Security Disability like Rosie is.
Saw this online…
I asked for strength and God gave me difficulties to make me strong… I asked for wisdom and God gave me problems to solve… I asked for prosperity and God gave me brain and brawn to work… I asked for courage and God gave me danger to overcome… I asked for love and God gave me troubled people to help… I asked for favors and God gave me opportunities… I received nothing I wanted… I received everything I needed… TRUST IN GOD
Praying that Rosie sleeps well and gets some rest. Same for me!
Thanks to everyone who has prayed for us. Much appreciated and prayers returned. May God Bless and Prosper all of you.
She has drunk some contrast dye for her ctscan, Should be here any minute to take her to it. Gonna inject dye into her veins. Pray they are successful. Will give e much clearer CT SCAN if hey can. They tried a few months ago and failed getting the injection into her. She is a difficult stick. Her RN got the IV into Rose on the 2nd try. I have seen them stick her 13 times and NEVER Got an IV started. Even when she had her last hernia repair they had to put in a central picc line.
Rosie and I went out to grocery shop after taking the boys for a drive through the countryside. Rosie got ill in the store and we had to leave. Diarrhea and vomiting. Believe me I have done nothing but clean up both ever since she had gastric bypass surgery on 7-24-11. She also had major cramping below her navel region. Wanted to take her to the ER but she wanted to come home and let me clean her up first. Well, we did that. She had no fever and decided to wait till tomorrow. We have been to the ParkWest Hospital ER 5 times since 7-24-11 with her having nausea, vomiting and diarrhea. Took 3 ER visits to get them to admit her. Finally got an ER doc that would listen!!!!!
She had MAJOR case of MRSA abscesses in her stomach and spent 21 days in the hospital. The Last visit was 10 days ago…..her vitals, ct scan and labs were normal. They couldn’t do complete labs since she is a difficult stick. They SHOULD HAVE tried more times than they did. UGH!
She’s had 2 hernia repairs since GBS “Gastric Bypass Surgery” One in August 2011 and another in Feb 2012. After the most recent repair she got SEVERE DIARRHEA! I should know since I am her caregiver and it has been BAD! YUCK. She has had NO APPETITE since GBS. Was on TPN Feedings for 2 months. She has not ate a handful of food in weeks. She is weak. Has significant bruising on her body. I am sure she is dehydrated and malnourished.
We are heading to University of Tennessee Emergency Room tomorrow and NOT Parkwest Hospital.
Rosie NOW has a fever of 100.6. Giving her a Tylenol.
I just pray that we get a good ER doc who will investigate all her issues she is having.
I am taking enough clothes and toiletries for a few weeks. Sure they will admit her. Dad is gonna MAKE THEM! She is obviously sick. She has lost over 200 lbs in 13 months! Just so scared and worried about her. Stressed out to the max. All she has ate today is 1 1/2 deli thin ham slices and 1/2 slice of cheese. She has only drank about 20 OZ of fluids. Just not able to drink or eat much.
PRAISE GOD for all my friends in Scotland, Tennessee, and Texas. Don’t know what I would do without you. You all are a blessing. So glad I took a chance and decided to befriend all of you. You are GOOD PEOPLE!
My heart is beating too fast. Lump in my throat. UGH. Trying to relax.
Rosie took her phenergan and will soon be asleep. As soon as I know she is sound asleep I am going go to bed. EXHAUSTED.
Dad, Rosie, The Boys and I went to the Great Smokies Flea Market today. We took the Boys pet stroller which they both USED to fit in…. Snickers has grown so big that it was a tight fit. So Rosie bought a pet stroller than holds 4 small pets. Ended up selling the old Stroller to a lady for $20… she was thrilled to get it. It was a bargain. New stroller was $86
Rosie bought the boys new harnesses to go with the new collars she got earlier this week. So Snazzy!
Picked up some $1 jewelry items. I bought a long dress for $8 brand new. Rosie got her one as well.
Rosie woke up this morn and started vomiting as soon as she took her meds. Had nausea off and on all day. She fell asleep about an hour ago. Hope she wakes up feeling better.
Went to Capt. Gallery in Dandridge for Dinner. Rosie and I split the Ribeye, Jumbo Shrimp, Fried Zucchini and Salad. We have enough ribeye leftover to feed us both supper tomorrow. I also have some fried zucchini left over. YUM! Was gonna order some clam chowder but forgot to. Thank God.. I couldn’t have ate it. Was stuffed.
SnickerDoodle has been so protective of me this evening. Will not allow Smoki to come near me. Growling at him. Not sure why.
Need to find a dentist. Need a good cleaning and perhaps a filling. Want one closer to us than Dr. Frankie office.
Had a panic attack or hot flash… at the flea market. Was drenched head to toe with sweat for almost an hour. Skin was flushed. HATE IT.
Got home and my face is puffy. Wasn’t when I left. Not sure… but I bet it is allergy related.
Thinking about cutting bangs again. Not sure.
John adored my hair tonight. I rolled it with 1″ velcro rollers. Used tons of ‘em. Looked so feathery and shiny.
Rosie is craving an Hawaiian Ice so we are going on an excursion to find one tomorrow. Wish us luck.
Had issues with my balance today. Almost fell flat on my butt twice today. Just unsteady. Really need to get an injection in my right hip as Doc Kouser wanted to do.
SO HAPPY for my friends in Nashville. Good things are heading their way. Movie is being made by Universal based on their lives. INSPIRATIONAL! Blessed to have them in my life. I love em all. Hope that one day we can meet one another.
Just realized I haven’t taken my meds tonight.. Oops… BRB. Took em.
I haven’t taken my vitamins/minerals/supplements in a week or so. Gonna start back.
Also I have been naughty…. Been consuming way more carbs that I should. Makes me feel sluggish. I should know better but Carbs are so comforting to me.
Will prolly be going to West Virginia on Friday. Hope the large handicapped cabin at Twin Falls State Park is available. May have to change the day we go. We LOVE that cabin cause so many of our WV family can stay with us. :-)
Having aches and pains. May have to increase my dosage on my pain meds back to what the doc wants me to take. Tried to lower them and OUCH!
Dad was in a great mood this afternoon. Thank God cause sometimes he is the grouchiest old man on earth. Dad attracts so many women. Always trying to pick him up. He does NOT look 71 at all. Still has all his hair and he is indeed handsome. HE DOES NOT WANT TO DATE ANYONE.
I do want to date YET I get no dudes trying to pick me up. NONE. Only man who has come up to me and asked me out was the man (Hager) that I married. Rest of the men I dated were through personal newspaper ads.Men may be interested in me and I am just tooo dumb and socially inept that I don’t recognize it. Ooops… One other man asked me out at church in 1991. He didn’t have a car nor a job so I politely declined.
I don’t go anywhere without Rosie. Only time I have been apart was during hospitalizations. Maybe 3-4 times I was gone for a few hours with Hager. I did spend 3 over night trips at Gary’s (aka WV Millionaire dude) house
The only time I ever went on a date ALONE with a man was my honeymoon night… Always had Rosie or they brought their friends along. I would love to have a man pick me up, bring me flowers and take me out just for dinner. Just Dinner is all I ask.
Only one man has sent me flowers and that was Steven Bryant Ward aka Poison98. I met him through a Poison Chat Room that he hosted. He and I had a cyber which progressed to a phone relationship for almost a year. We had planned on him flying in from Tulsa, Oklahoma to West Virginia to meet and he backed out the week we was coming to meet me. We ended up staying together for a few months after that. He sent me flowers for my birthday. I am a December babe and the flowers were sent in a unique green globe ornament vase. Still have it in my bedroom.
Goodness, I have missed out on so much in my life…. It is time for that to change!
I know I have a few men who reads my journal often. One is The Actor, Game Show Host, Mr Intelligence himself Stephen Fry! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stephen_Fry He says he is 90% gay and 10% straight. I have written him a few naughty PRIVATE (you have to follow one another to send PRIVATE messages on Twitter) flirtatious tweets and he always replies. I love an intelligent man who knows who he is and stands up for what he believes in… way more than a handsome one. But I do admire a handsome warm heart and soul.
I know that some awesome things are about to transpire in my life. Excited. Lord, I surrender prepare me for all the new adventures I am about to undertake!
We are gonna take the Boys: Smoki Poki Loki (Carin Terrier aka Toto dog) and SnickerDoodle Bug (Miniature long haired dachshund) for a Sunday drive through the country side. We have taken Sunday drives for as long as I can remember. So relaxing. Love to admire all the glorious beauty God has created. Well it is relaxing until Smoki sees cows, deers, goats. horses, rabbits, etc. Then all heck breaks lose. He goes nuts. Barking. UGH! But what is even worse is when it is raining and we have the windshield wipers on… Smoki dives into the dashboard after them. UGH! And I am even holding him and his leash! Snickers and Smoki enjoyed having the window down today….As Bret Michaels wrote, “RIDE THE WIND, Never coming back till I touch the midnight sun.” I sing that to the Boys and they go bonkers cause they know I am about to roll down the window!
Asking the Lord Jesus Christ to help me SAY NO TO CARBS! Praying for energy to do more things. Chronic fatigue is debilitating. UGH. I am gonna do at least 30 min of household chores daily. Asking God for the willpower to do more things without pain and to control my appetite. I SURRENDER.
My cousin Brandy found 6 puppies dropped off on a country road in WV. They are so cute. She is keeping one and going to find homes for the others. Pray they all received loving homes. Looks like part German Shepherd.
When 9-11-01 happened I was seeing a psychiatrist prior to it happening. It was so difficult to deal with. A few months after it happened My shrink made me promise not to read or watch news about it. Still upsetting to me. Now all these tornadoes, hurricanes, natural [...]
For the past few weeks….well make that months… Rosie has been sick most days with vomiting, nausea, and/or diarrhea. She has not been her joyful talkative self.
She had Gastric Bypass 7-24-2011 and has had a tough time. MRSA, C. Diff, Hernia repair. All-in-all she spent almost a month in the hospital.I never left her side.
She sometimes goes a few days feeling better and then boom back to being sick. She is doing well today. Even went online using her laptop for a few hours. That makes me so happy. She has not been online more than 10 min in months. She normally loves to surf the web.
She had another hernia repair a few weeks ago. It was the 3rd umbilical repair she has had. One was only last August.
Since January 2011 she has lost over 200 lbs. She is getting so skinny. Still not eating much… but is trying to. Doing our best to get more Protein in her. She is now sound asleep. Praise God.
Plans are to go to The Great Smokies Flea Market tomorrow. Taking the boys, Smoki and Snickers. Gonna get them fitted for new harnesses. We got Smoki a gold rhinestone collar and Snickers a Silver one. They look so cute in them. Just hope they both can ride in the doggie stroller.
I know I prolly over-shared too much in CONFESSION TIME entry which I subsequently removed. I wanted my ex-husband to read it and he did. I left the entry up for 24 hours. I know some of my family and friends read it as well. I just wanted to be honest and not allow HIM to threaten me with things he knew about me and did with me. It was only sexual things… no drugs involved at all with ME.
Really need to have a long chat with John. So much I wanna hear his opinion on. He has been sick or working too much lately. Hope to have a long deep conversation with him tomorrow… via webcam.
My hair is rolled in some new velcro curlers I got some Sally Beauty. Can’t wait to see the outcome.
Amazed at how skinny I looked in that striped dress I wore last week. Still wanna lose some more weight. Gotta get down to the nitty gritty and just do it! Rosie only weighs 20 more pounds than me now!
Looks like we may get to go to the movies on Tuesday. Not sure what to see.
Gonna rent Tower Heist on demand tomorrow night.
Took a 2 hour nap this evening. Barely slept. Just rested. This weather is wrecking havoc on my fibromyalgia. Plus I have cut my dosage of my pain meds in half. Will go back to full dose in a week. Just don’t want to get addicted.
Just feeling so much peace lately. Been so stressed out with Rosie being sick for the last 8-9 months. Not easy seeing her so ill and bed ridden at times. Grateful that she is doing better and that we can go out and do things.
At least now I have no issues going out in public. Used to have MAJOR ISSUES leaving the house. Wouldn’t go out unless Rosie MADE ME. So nice to have such a loving sister. I still have panic attacks… mainly in checkout lines. Rapid heartbeat, shaky inside, worst part is the major perspiration. I blame it on menopause “Hot Flashes” but I actually know it is related to my nerves.
I am being coming more self-confident. Losing weight has really helped me. I can do more things but still have aches and pains daily from fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue. There are days when I know I look exquisitely beautiful. I now even go out grocery shopping sans my war paint on occasions! Been wearing shorter dresses to show off my spectacular legs. Man, I am getting conceited. LOL!
I have made so many new friends online. They all have helped me be a better person. Doing my best to be more outgoing online. But still have fears that I am bothering people or that I am saying stupid $hit and being made fun of.
I use to care what STRANGERS, STALKERS, BULLIES online said about me, now I don’t really care what they say. What is most important is what My family and friends think of me …. not what some sorry assed bullies think.
Amazed that I allowed people to bully me and I am over 40. Same Old stuff I allowed people to bully me about in high school… my weight, my lack of relationships, my lack of this or that. I no longer bow down to those who put me down. Screw them all.
My family and friends now the real me and know how special I am. Compassionate, Loving, Intelligent, Humorous, Spiritual, Loyal..
I am gorgeous inside and out!
My Blonde Long-Haired Mini-Dachshund worships the ground I walk on. He adores his Mumsy!
Dad told me and Rosie that if we find a pug on the side of the road that we could have it. Gonna look around shelters and if we find one. I am gonna get Dina or Peggy (Rosie’s Home Health Aides) to go get it and drop it off at our house. LOL!
Rosie is THINKING about getting an IPAD 3 when it comes out. We don’t even have an iphone. Rosie does have an LG Smart phone which we use to make emergency calls, send text messages to John, Twitter, FaceBook… but we have never went online. We pay as you go… I hate talking on the phone and only do it when its an emergency.
Want to Thank Rosie for all the new clothes she bought. She and I will be able to wear the same size soon. :-)
They are days when I THINK about getting a job…. not really possible with having to take care of my handicapped sister Rose Lee. I am on SSI disability for my chronic pain, depression, anxiety, diabetes, kidney failure, high blood pressure, Charcot-Marie-Tooth Syndrome, thyroid, and diabetic neuropathy.
If Rosie continues to improve she and I are going to start aquatic therapy. I am suppose to be in physical therapy for my Fibro but since Rosie has been ill it has been postponed.
My moods are much more stable. Praise The Lord. I couldn’t even stand myself for a few weeks. I hate it when I allow small issues to upset me. I get so down sometimes that all I think of is killing myself. Wish that would stop happening. No one knows what that feels like unless you experience it for yourself.
I just wish I was capable of overcoming my fear of straight men… not scared of gay men at all. I know that they are not interested in me sexually.
I absolutely adore sex, affection, intimacy, just afraid of being hurt again. I know I am gonna have to overcome this. I truly want to.
I have hundreds of men wanting to get to know me better…all online through myspace, facebook, twitter and my personal ads. I am too selective. Just don’t know which to respond to.So I respond to none of them.
I have dated paupers and millionaires.
Unemployed, Store clerks, fry cooks, military, body builders, and entrepreneurs.
Weight from 150 to 340.
Height from 5’6 to 6’5″
Hair color from blonde to black.
Eye color from Blue, Brown, Green.
Goatee’s to mustaches.
I HAVE NO TYPE.
BUT if I had to choose.. he would have dark hair with perhaps some silver. Clean shaven to Scruffy. Over 5’8″. Under 225 lbs. Must LOVE Family, pets, movies, music, traveling, God, and ME!
I truly believe God wants me with a helpmate. I would not have had this fervent desire for 30+ years. I have prayed, cried, begged, pleaded for God to take away this desire or send me my helpmate and so far I still have the desire and I have not found him.
Went to Knoxville today. Rosie saw her gastric bypass surgeon. She has lost over 200 lbs. She only weighs 20 lbs more than me now.
Doc started her on Flagyl to see if her nausea, diarrhea and vomiting responds to it. May be C Diff. Not sure. Plans are for her to be on it for 4 weeks. Off 2 weeks. Back on for 2 weeks. IF she doesn’t start feeling better he is gonna send her to a gastroenterologist.She is still swollen on her right lower abdominal quadrant. CT Scans, Labs. and vitals were all normal.
Went to Ross for Less in Knoxville. We went to the one here in Morristown last weekend. Got so many bargains. All items are size 14 or smaller. I got one dress that is a 9/10. Rosie is gonna try her clothes I got her on tomorrow. Hope she can wear at least one of them now. I know she will be able to wear them by our vacay in May. She is losing 4-5 lbs a week.
I haven’t gained or lost any in over 18 months.. but I have lost 5″ from my waist!
The dress I am wearing is from Ross for Less. Got it for $7.99 YES Seven dollars and 99 cents.
Bought another one like it in muted tones at Ross or Less in Knoxville. . it was $13.99 Exact same dress just a different color.
Rosie and I got a few short PARTY dresses. One was only $5.99 and it is lovely satin material with sparkles.
I think the most expensive item we purchased was $17.99
Went to PETSMART. Got Smoki a new harness. Got Smoki and Snickers both a Monkey Squeaky Toy and a Rawhide Cookie.
Ate at Mimi’s Cafe for lunch. I had a salad with 1 T Sesame Balsamic Vinaigrette. Ate 1/4 of a turkey and cheese croissant with cranberry orange relish. Ate the rest tonight. Dad had Corn Chowder, Slaw and turkey and cheese croissant with cranberry orange relish. He brought half the sandwich home for our dogs. Rosie ate 4 oz of Flat Iron Steak. She explained that she had gastric bypass and didn’t want any potatoes or veggies and asked for a Strawberry/ Pineapple side dish. They brought her a huge plate of it. She brought it home and had it for a snack. She prolly has 8 oz of steak still in the fridge for tomorrow. I am so happy when she eats. She rarely eats ANYTHING cause she feels so nauseous.
Tomorrow, we go for Allergy shots. Have to pick up some meds and go grocery shopping. Rosie also needs to go to Healthstar for a PT test since she is on blood thinner.
Hope she starts feeling able to get out and do more things. Would love to go to the Smokies this weekend. Maybe even to the Cinemas.
Rosie REALLY needs a new wheelchair. The cushion in her chair is so worn out. She slopes down in the chair and ends up with severe back pains. She is due for a new chair in June. Gonna call Medicare and make sure. She will need a much smaller chair! Her wheelchair weighs 375 lbs without her even in it!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FRIEND SHANE.
Praying for everyone. On my mind tonight are all those affected by the storms and tornadoes. Sad.
Heading to bed shortly. Tired. Been up since 9 am. That is way early for me. Normally my wake up time is after 1 pm. I like to stay up till 3-5 am. Always been a night owl.
Can’t get *him* off my mind… not sure what to do. Decisions. Decisions. Asking God to Guide the both of us. I SURRENDER US.
Another *him* Wondering if I should overtly FLIRT with him. Afraid of ruining our friendship. He sorta flirts… just not sure. I am so dumb when it comes to Men! UGH! Asking God to Guide the both of us. I SURRENDER US.
Another *him*…. this him is the one I am suppose to spend eternity with… Wherever he is tonight, dear Lord, Keep him safe and warm. Speak to his spirit and let him know I am the one. Guide he and I together. Protect both our families and our friends. I Pray for patience until the day we walk into one each others life. Prepare us both for the journey we are suppose to take together. Bring people into our lives that can help us grow. People that we can help. Let our smiles, hearts and words encourage other people. USE US BOTH. I take it upon myself and surrender both he and I to the LORD! Use us for Your glory. Let him feel the holy spirit right at this moment. Speak to his heart. Comfort us both with the hope of finding each other. I hope Soon but I defer to God cause I know God’s timing is perfect.
Parkwest hospital called about Rosie’s urine culture. She does have a urinary track infection. Starting her on Cipro.
She is still having stomach aches and pains, diarrhea, vomiting, and nausea.
She has been crying today.
Hates feeling so bad.
She is also weak. Can’t keep any food down.
PRAYER WARRIORS: Please pray as hard as you can for her. She has been through so much lately. It is wearing her down. THANKS!
I am asking God to heal Rosie’s weak body, strengthen her immune system, heal everything wrong with her. Comfort her and give her hope. Please God. I surrender it to Thee. Amen.
Making Beef stew for her. Not sure she will even try it. Will see.
Rosie had a pretty good day. Just haven’t ate much.She wanted Orange Roughy for supper. Just made it for her. 2 bites and she started vomiting. Her Family Doc is checking her for MRSA and C. Diff. She has had both previously. I just want Rosie to be able to eat, keep it down and be back to her old loveable fun self! Hate seeing her so sick.
I took a siesta today. Barely fell asleep. Just nice to rest. We had to turn the air-conditioner on today! Wow.
Rosie wants to go out tomorrow night. Hope she feels like it. We need to get our party on! LOL!
Very upset at Facebook. Under the messages on the left side, their is an OTHER folder. I had 100′s of messages I had never seen. Some old, some new.
Some were from my ex. I haven’t heard from him in 17-18 years. (Have seen his MUGSHOTS) I forgave him a long time ago, Just wish he could forgive himself, and find some peace. Pray that he has stopped drinking , smoking, and carousing. That would be a blessing to all those who surround him.
I decided I needed a nap and missed chat with John. He went to bed early. Hope to spend Friday webcamming with him. I have known him for almost 5 years now. We love and understand one another more than married couples. COMMUNICATION is so important. Someday we spend 10 min talking… some days hours. Support. Friendship. Laughing. Playing. Joking. Teasing. LOVE HIM!
IF Rosie feels like it we may go to the movies this weekend.
SnickerDoodle is all snugly this evening. He took a nap with me and so did Tater Bug.
Prayers to all my family and friends. I am blessed with both.
Rosie is at Parkwest ER. Checking her blood. Just took her for an abdominal CT Scan. She has been vomiting, having diarrhea, nausea, and pain. She is so weak. Will update on Facebook and Twitter via phone. Laptop battery will soon be dying. Hospital has blocked facebook and twitter via their wireless. This may get posted to facebook and twitter through my wordpress. I am HOPING.
Gonna be a long day. IF they do admit her I have to go home to get my meds. Will return tomorrow morn to stay with her.
So stressed with worry. Rosie has been crying in pain. Just not feeling well. Makes me so sad to see her like this. Feel hopeless. Trusting God to let the doctors, nurses and techs determine and fix what is wrong with her. I love my sissy,.
Going to Knoxville tomorrow. Rose’s has an appt with her surgeon. She is still swollen from her hernia repair surgery. Painful as well. Hope Dr Boyce can drain the seroma tomorrow. Hope she does not have to be hospitalized. I pray that Rosie gets healthy and STAY healthy.
Angela Rose’s Day Spa has been open for an hour. Getting all beautified for our trip tomorrow.
Completed Facial, Shaving, Hair deep-conditioned and Curled.
Pedicure completed.
Raven Black Toenails.
Doing manicure later tonight. Either black or silver.
Going to start to whiten my teeth tonight. Already did a scrub with Baking Soda. Feels so clean. Rosie got me an Electric toothbrush for Christmas. Going to start using it tomorrow. Also have Crest 3D White Intensive Professional Effects Whitestrips with Advanced Seal Technology Kit.
Gave Rosie a facial after her home health aide bathed her and shampooed her hair. She wants to get dolled up tomorrow… IF she is able to. She is still having nausea and diarrhea.
Somehow I ran out of my anti-anxiety med Buspar and didn’t notice it till last night. Back on it now. I apologize for being so moody and dramatic. Buspar should get me back to somewhat normal moods.
As my regular readers know, I lost almost 30% of my hair after my gastric bypass… which is fairly common. At the time of surgery my hair was almost to my waist. I ended up cutting it to my shoulders to make it look fuller. Which it did. Last month I had all sorts of new hair that had grown in and was all sorts of weird lengths so I cut off 4 inches. It is now growing out again. EVEN MORE FULLER THAN PRIOR TO SURGERY. Hope to get it back down to my waist again. Will take 2-3 years. I will wear 100% human hair extensions occasionally just to change my look… as you know I love to do.
Thankful that over the past 20 years I have grown up so much. A totally different person than I was. Wisdom and knowledge is such a blessing. So grateful for the people who helped me get to the point I am now in life. Doubly Blessed in that Department.
Have so much peace and serenity today. Thank all of you for the well wishes and prayers. Getting a decent nights sleep helped tremendously.
Haven’t heard from a few friends… hope I didn’t say or do something to offend them. IF I did I apologize. I miss them. SAD.
Hope Rosie feels well enough to go to the Mall in Knoxville. Plans are to eat at Mimi’s Cafe. Have a coupon for Buy an Entree get one FREE!
I am planning on wearing a black floral short dress tomorrow with black pantyhose and black knee-high boots. I have a pink cardigan to wear IF it is cold. Will probably do full makeup. Maybe even add false eyelashes. Depends IF I have time. I have to get up at 7 am. My bedtime has bed 4 am or later for weeks. Hope to get to bed by 11-12 tonight.
Sending much love to everyone. Pray that everyone in the world has LOVE, Serenity, Health, and knows and LOVES GOD.
Rosie had a bad day. Diarrhea, Nausea, and Vomiting. Still having swelling and pain in her abdomen. Hate seeing her be so miserable. She sees her surgeon on Wednesday.
My moods fluctuated wildly today. So worried about Rosie.
Did get in an hour of housework. Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia sucks.
Didn’t get to see John tonight. Pray he is feeling better. Poor Baby.
Missing some of my friends. Pray that they are doing well.
With Rosie going through good days and bad days since her gastric bypass (June 26th, 2011) is really taking its toll on me. I have to do more since she feels so bad. Hasn’t been on her laptop, netbook or PC in over a week now.Yep, Rosie and I have our own laptop and netbook but we share the PC.
I get thrilled when she is feeling good and then severely depressed when she isn’t.A ROLLER COASTER OF EMOTIONS!
Haven’t slept well in over a week. May get in 2 straight hours at a time. Frustrating but Rosie needs my assistance with so many things.
Hope to get all dolled up for our trip to Knoxville on Wed. Hope to take some new pics.
Missing my family in WV but will see them soon as Rosie feels better. Will stay at Twin Falls in a cabin.
Hope that I can sleep 4 straight hours tonight. Would make me feel so much better.
Sending love to all my readers. Thanks for your prayers, support, and words of encouragement.
I have been missing my mom so much.Been over 5 years since she passed. Dream of her nightly. She was such a blessing to all those who knew her. I LOVE MY MOMMY!
Glad that my Dad is doing well. He will be 71 in March. He has done so much for Rosie and I. I am so grateful for all he does.
Almost 3 am and everyone here is sound asleep except for me. I stay up late most nights. Rarely get in bed prior to 2 am.
Rosie and I watched ZOOKEEPER tonight. It was so-s0.
May go to the cinema’s this week if Rosie feels like it.
Everything is so convenient to us here. We are blessed to live on 2 acres, in a nice brick ranch home. Live with-in 40 min of Knoxville… that is when I drive.
Hope Rosie wakes up with her edema gone. Poor baby felt bad this evening. Running a 99 fever. She normally runs around 96-97. Hope she does not end up in the hospital this week. Been so stressed and worried about her. Hate seeing her in so much pain. So happy that she is at least eating again. Had been almost 4 months since she has enjoyed eating without nausea and vomiting.
Rosie wore my red size large sweater today. She is getting skinnier by the day. She will get weighed on Wednesday. I bet she has dropped 20 more pounds. Gonna be thinner than me soon.
Dad, Rosie and I ended up at O’Charleys after grocery shopping. Rosie and I split the steak and shrimp. Rosie ate one shrimp and about 3 oz steak. Nothing else.
I had 3 shrimp and an ounce of steak. Only had 3 spoonfuls of the tater soup. They brought me enough Caesar salad to feed an army. Ate only about a cup. Was stuffed. The Boys had plenty of leftovers from us, including prime rib from Dad.
Got a lot of bargains at the grocery store. Dad and I are having coconut shrimp tomorrow. Rosie is having her fave fish : orange roughy. Cooking roasted corn, roasted asparagus and perhaps a tater dish. Fresh Strawberries for Dessert. YUM YUM
Rosie and I need to hit the mall this week to see what is on sale. Needing some new short dresses or skirts. Adoring my legs.
Didn’t get to webcam with John tonight. He was expecting a storm so he is prolly without power. He has been feeling so bad for almost a year. Back, Shoulder, and Elbow issues. Lately he’s had a toothache. Pray that he is sleeping well tonight. Hoping he is warm and toasty. He is my baby Love. We are soul-mates. He has helped me become the lady I am today. I am gonna make him a new video of me. That always makes him feel better.
Haven’t heard from SJ or RH today. Hope they are relaxing and enjoying life. They both work too hard. Sending prayers their way.
Gonna holler for my babies: Snickers, Smoki, Jazzi, Punkin and Tater and head to my bedroom. Most nights I have 3-4 of em in bed with me. I stay in Rosie’s room till 2-3 am encase she needs me. We have a phone intercom system if she needs me while I am asleep.
Rosie is out of surgery. It went well. It was a medium size hernia. Repaired laparoscopically. We will get to see her in about an hour. If she feels OK she gets to go home. :-)
Surgeon is AMAZED at her weight loss. Wants her to eat more protein and take her vitamins.
Just hoping that she now can eat without having nausea, vomiting, and diarrhea.
Thanks for your prayers.
Hoping that we are going to be home this evening to watch WESTMINSTERS DOG SHOW.
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