Hot Men: PHOTO: Channing Tatum, Matthew McConaughey, Matt Bomer, and Joe Manganiello do a little striptease for the July 2012 cover of Entertainment Weekly.
Ke$ha, Naya Rivera, and Katharine McPhee have all been seen sporting 1930s-era finger-waved looks.
Chanteuse Lana Del Rey looked perfectly lovely in her Alberta Ferretti gown, but the real attention-grabber was her 18-karat white gold necklace, which featured a 31-carat yellow pear-shaped diamond drop. That's quite the rock.
Berenice Bejo Actress Berenice Bejo of The Artist was picture perfect in bright red Louis Vuitton accented with Chopard jewels. Classic RED Dress.
WEIRD FASHION: Elena Lenina is a Russian model/author who appeared on a French reality television show in 2003
Lady GaGa @ Narita International Airport on Wednesday (May 16) in Tokyo, Japan.
Nicole Scherzinger, UK premiere of Men in Black 3 on Wednesday (May 16) at Odeon Leicester Square in London, England.
Jennifer Morrison
Brooklyn Decker glams it up for a feature in Vanity Fairs June 2012 issue
Brooklyn Decker glams it up for a feature in Vanity Fairs June 2012 issue
Brooklyn Decker glams it up for a feature in Vanity Fairs June 2012 issue
Brooklyn Decker glams it up for a feature in Vanity Fairs June 2012 issue
Ricky Martin
Diane Kruger poses at the 2012 Cannes Film Festival‘s jury photo call held at Palais des Festivals on Wednesday (May 16) in Cannes, France.
Eva Longoria. Cannes
Jane Fonda> Cannes
Diane Kruger,. Palais des Festivals on Wednesday (May 16) in Cannes
Freida Pinto. Palais des Festivals on Wednesday (May 16) in Cannes
Janet Jackson
Billy Ray Cyrus: Milk Campaign Ad
Brevard Zoo! The zoo welcomes its first Saki monkey baybay into the fold on April 20th. The cute female babe is mama Chuckie's first child as well.
PHOTO: Bruce Willis poses at the Moonrise Kingdom photo call held during the 2012 Cannes Film Festival at Palais des Festival on Wednesday (May 16) in Cannes, France.
See what your friends are reading Shared with friends Settings Roach In McDonald's Hash Browns: Man Finds Deep-Fried Bug Mealbreaker (n.): a nasty, non-edible surprise found in food while it is being eaten; often lawsuit-provoking, sometimes fabricated, always disgusting.
Princess Kate Middleton BRAIDED UP-DO
Elizabeth Taylor and Michael Todd. Fashion. Tiara. CLASSIC
Rosie had a good day.She spoke to her nurse and all her labs have improved since February. She is scheduled for her 1st colonoscopy: Monday the 26th. She is high risk so the prep is not as bad as most. Miralax 2-3 times Friday/Saturday with a Low Residue Diet. On Sunday, clear fluids and Miralax 4 times. She doesn’t need an enema nor has to drink the gallon of that nasty stuff! I have had 5 colonoscopies. Diagnosed with Irritable Bowel Syndrome and Diabetic Gastroparesis. :-(
Took Dad to Capt D’s for his 71st birthday. Coconut Shrimp.
Went grocery shopping. Rosie has put me on a diet. Got all healthy foods today. Fruits, Veggies, Protein!
My sugar was down to 248 this am. I increased my metaglip from 2.5 to 5 mg twice a day yesterday. Went to 7.5 mg tonight. Will continue on that to see how my sugar levels reacts. Really not wanting to go back on insulin nor being attached to an insulin pump all the time but I may HAVE to.
Got home from shopping… just had sat down when I heard a loud noise. Seems Tater and Jazzi (our cats) had knocked down Dad’s 32″ Flatscreen TV in his bedroom… it comes on but the screen has lines all over it!!! It is only 9 months old and….. Looks like he will be buying a new one. BOO! Was hoping Dad would be buying him an Ipad for me to borrow…. looks like that may not happen now. AARDVARK!
I am feeling better today than I have in months. Grateful for that. Must have been high sugar levels dragging me down.
Just wish my fibro aches and pains would subside. Still feels like I have a ton of elephants pushing down on my shoulders. Even been having chest tightness lately. Still having balance issues. My hip has given out on me a few times recently.
My boys Smoki and Snickers are adoring the warm weather. Love going bye-bye with us. They are such a hoot. RIDING THE WIND. I had 4 of my boys in bed when I fell asleep last night.. Tater, Jazzi, Smoki, and Snickers…. all in a twin (single) bed.
Hope to dye my hair tomorrow…. Rosie’s too.
Dogs need bathed. They smell like DOG!
Just wish I had a man to take care of me. SO JEALOUS OF OTHERS WHO DO.
I am such a great person. Full of compassion with tons of love that I willing to share.
I KNOW MY HELPMATE IS OUT THERE SOMEWHERE! Just praying that he and I discover one another. TRYING to wait… just so hard at times. Just need someone to cuddle with, SHAG with, confide in, share life and all its experiences with. SCARED that I am always gonna be an old maid. I know that my predestined mate is out there. Perhaps even will read this blog entry…
I am asking The Lord Jesus Christ to guide my soulmate and I together. Let him know that I am the woman your created for him. I know all things are possible with God. I surrender my future love and myself to God. I know he and I will do great things together. I just know it! Bring me into his life and I into his.
God I admit and confess ALL my sins. FORGIVE ME. I know I should be doing more for You. Guide me to what I need to do for you. USE ME!
Rosie went to her Gastric Bypass Dr Boyce. He is sending her to a Gastroenterologist Dr Wilhoite on Monday at 8:15 AM. Meaning I have to get up at 5 am to get Rosie ready and then off to Knoxville we will go.
Boyce ordered all sorts of lab tests. They needed only 3 vials… had to stick Rosie 7 times to get enough. Took 90 minutes! OUCH!
Rosie’s IPAD 3 HD arrived in Knoxville about 45 min ago. Will be delivered tomorrow. Rosie is so excited and so am I.
The past few weeks have been really rough on Rosie and I. Just wore out from stress. When Rosie improves I hope there is someway she, Dad, and I can take a vacay. WE DESERVE IT!
Praying for strength, energy, faith, compassion, hope, confidence, and patience.
Had a nice chat with my Best Friend John (friends only, he lives in Scotland, he and I have never met.)
Rosie and I went grocery shopping at Wal-mart. Only got necessities since Rosie started having tummy cramps and was feeling bad. She is still having diarrhea and nausea off and on… currently Off.
We both get allergy shots tomorrow and then we head to Knoxville for Rose to see her gastric bypass doc. She needs a referral from him to see a Gastroenterologist.
I had a small melt-down today. Ranting. Screaming, Cursing. Just so stressful with Rosie.. once minute she is bubbly, happy, feeling good and then the next minute it all goes downhill. Hate seeing her cry in pain. She is so irritable.
Please God send the best doctors, tests, and medicine into her life to make her life more enjoyable. Heal my Baby sis Rose Lee. I surrender Rosie’s health to God.
I have to rise and shine at 9 am so I am off to bed.
Sending prayers to all my family as well as all my friends here in Tennessee and Texas.
Praying that my predestined helpmate is praying for me right this moment as I am praying for him… wherever and whoever he might be.
Rosie and I have been up and down all night and morning. She is vomiting and has diarrhea. She and I are wore out. Pleas just take second and say a small prayer for her healing. Thanks!
Just hoping that she feels good enough in a few hours to go grocery shopping. We are out of everything. There is no way Dad can get all that we need.
Having a severe fibro flare-up. Feels like there is a parade of elephants sitting on my shoulders.
Painful, achy, burning down my shoulders, arms, and elbows.
Makes me feel so exhausted.
Rosie didn’t have much nausea today. Praise God… BUT the diarrhea has returned. Just wish she would get well and STAY well. I love my baby sissy,
Since Rosie was not feeling well we stayed home today.
Hope to go grocery shopping tomorrow.
Ipad 3 HD has went from China to Hong Kong to Alaska. Wondering where its next stop is? Love technology!
Praises be to God for the emotional stability I’ve had for a few weeks now.
Praying for some physically stability.
Wish I didn’t have to deal and cope with diabetes, hypothyroidism, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, allergies, insomnia, neuropathy, irregular heart beat, marie-charcot-tooth syndrome, and irritable bowel syndrome… on a daily basis. Asking God to heal me from my afflictions so I am able to help others more than I am able to now. I want to be more confident, outgoing, and a better communicator.
Barely can keep my eyes open so I am off to bed.
Sending Love and Prayers to all my Family, my Friends and even my Foes.
Rosie is still feeling awesome. Eating well. I am so pleased. PRAISE JESUS for Answered prayers.
I am feeling good emotionally and spiritually but physically I ache all over. Having Chronic Fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Diabetes, Irritable Bowel Syndrome, Insomnia, Low Thyroid, Neuropathy, and Charcot-Marie Tooth Syndrome sucks.
Still having some episodes of depression, social anxieties, and panic attacks.
I did chat with a family friend, David, on Facebook Chat. He was the 1st I chatted with on Facebook… he is a pre-teen. He always makes me smile. He won KING at the Spring Dance! CONGRATS! Hope to see him on the trip to WV on March 18-20th. Last trip he spent the night with us at the cabin at Twin Falls Resort.
Also got to chat with my cousin Brandy. Even discussed her moving to Tennessee. Wants to start an animal rescue center. She works with the IRS and is gonna look for a job down here. She is like a sis to Rosie and I. She lived next to us in West Virginia. Love her.
Brandy and I both have the same emotional issues.
Not wanting to go out tomorrow…. needing rest BUT I need to go get my allergy shot.
Rosie ordered herself the new Ipad 3 HD. Will be here on March 16th. She is so excited. She deserves it since she went through 7.5 months of hell!
Thrilled she is feeling better.
Fatigued beyond words and heading to bed. Pray that I get some sleep.
Today she went for her 7th ER Visit in 8 months. Twice in the last 2 weeks. All her vitals and blood work was normal today. She had a ct scan today and 2 weeks ago. It shows some air abscesses. In August she had MRSA Abscess all over her internal stomach. Was hospitalized for 21 days. I STILL BELIEVE SHE HAS MRSA ABSCESSES!
The ER Doc wants her to see her Gastric Bypass surgeon Dr Boyce in a few days. Dr Boyce is out-of-town so she will be seeing his partner Dr Williams. Hopefully morrow. Dr Williams treated Rosie in the hospital when she has MRSA. He is a really nice man and so is Dr Boyce. Both are very handsome. My latest crushes!
They will prolly send her to a gastroenterologist for an Endoscopy and Colonoscopy. She has never had a colonoscopy. I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome and had 5 colonoscopy’s and 6 endoscopy’s. WORST thing is the prep. Aka Cleaning out the bowels. Prep drinks are so yucky! UGH! I feel sorry for Rosie having to drink that $hit. Yucky! It is better ice-cold and with some crystal light mixed in…. but still so nasty!
So glad that I had access to MSN Live Messenger at University of Tennessee ER. Got to webcam chat with my John. Chat is blocked at Parkwest Hospital. He was still all dolled up in his business attire. Shirt and Ties make me weak in the knee’s. Love a man in a suit. Adore men who can wear a suit for work and then jeans for fun and play.
It made Rosie so Happy to hear that Rick Hendrix was praying for her. Made her smile. Thanks Mr Hendrix!
I am wanting another dog and cat! A rescued one.Hopefully one day I can live on a farm with tons of pets. I adore cats, Dogs, Donkeys and Billy Goats. I would rescue every animal I could. Love Animals. Easier to talk to than people. LOL! I have conversations with all my pets, 2 dogs and 4 cats. They truly understand all the words I put into their mouths. LMFAO!
I hadn’t ate much today so on the way home we stopped at Cardins Drive-In. I was so stressed that I ordered a Hot Fudge Cake. Man it was awesome but now I am so ill. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gastric_dumping_syndrome UGH! NAUGHTY GIRL!
Rosie’s blood they drew tonight was almost black and thick. PT and INR was in the therapeutic range. She takes blood thinner to prevent blood clots. She has had so many blood clots that I have lost count. Even had one in her bladder. She inherited this from her Granny Goode. She has a GreenField Filter http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Greenfield_filter to catch blood clots and prevent them going to her lungs or heart.
Joints frozen in her arms, hands, elbows, legs, feet, knees and hips.
She has not been able to walk since she was 16. She turns 45 this year. When Rosie was 12 a doctor told Mom that Rosie would not make it to the age of 21. So glad that doc was WRONG!
Rosie broke her tailbone 18 months ago. Still have aches and pains.
All of this and Rose is still one of the happiest people I ever met.
God knew I could not handle all that Rosie has went through and is going through. Just glad that God chose me to be her care taker. I adore her with all my heart. Not only my sissy but also my best friend.
Blessed to have Rosie in my life.
Still praying to finally meet the man God created me for. I know my Baby Love is out there praying for me at this minute. Can’t wait to meet him. Let him know I am praying for him.
Thanks for all your prayers. Just pray that the docs can find out what is causing Rose Lee’s tummy pain, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, and lack of appetite. So stressful to know she feels so bad. I Pray that Dr Williams sends her to the best gastroenterologist in Knoxville… one that will take the time to listen and will run tests and scopy’s to find out what is causing all of this.
Snickers, Smoki. Panther, Jazzi, Punkin and Tater were glad to see us back home.
Smoki senses Rose is sick and keeps checking on her. Nurse Doggy!
Rosie was feeling so much better when we got home. That Zofran stuff is great. Just hoping that her insurance will cover it.. But I doubt it. Praise God that they have a generic form. Name Brand Zofran is $750.00 a month for a once a day pill. Generic is around $50….. $50 bucks don’t sound like a lot… but it is a tremendous amount for someone on Social Security Disability like Rosie is.
Saw this online…
I asked for strength and God gave me difficulties to make me strong… I asked for wisdom and God gave me problems to solve… I asked for prosperity and God gave me brain and brawn to work… I asked for courage and God gave me danger to overcome… I asked for love and God gave me troubled people to help… I asked for favors and God gave me opportunities… I received nothing I wanted… I received everything I needed… TRUST IN GOD
Praying that Rosie sleeps well and gets some rest. Same for me!
Thanks to everyone who has prayed for us. Much appreciated and prayers returned. May God Bless and Prosper all of you.
Rosie and I went out to grocery shop after taking the boys for a drive through the countryside. Rosie got ill in the store and we had to leave. Diarrhea and vomiting. Believe me I have done nothing but clean up both ever since she had gastric bypass surgery on 7-24-11. She also had major cramping below her navel region. Wanted to take her to the ER but she wanted to come home and let me clean her up first. Well, we did that. She had no fever and decided to wait till tomorrow. We have been to the ParkWest Hospital ER 5 times since 7-24-11 with her having nausea, vomiting and diarrhea. Took 3 ER visits to get them to admit her. Finally got an ER doc that would listen!!!!!
She had MAJOR case of MRSA abscesses in her stomach and spent 21 days in the hospital. The Last visit was 10 days ago…..her vitals, ct scan and labs were normal. They couldn’t do complete labs since she is a difficult stick. They SHOULD HAVE tried more times than they did. UGH!
She’s had 2 hernia repairs since GBS “Gastric Bypass Surgery” One in August 2011 and another in Feb 2012. After the most recent repair she got SEVERE DIARRHEA! I should know since I am her caregiver and it has been BAD! YUCK. She has had NO APPETITE since GBS. Was on TPN Feedings for 2 months. She has not ate a handful of food in weeks. She is weak. Has significant bruising on her body. I am sure she is dehydrated and malnourished.
We are heading to University of Tennessee Emergency Room tomorrow and NOT Parkwest Hospital.
Rosie NOW has a fever of 100.6. Giving her a Tylenol.
I just pray that we get a good ER doc who will investigate all her issues she is having.
I am taking enough clothes and toiletries for a few weeks. Sure they will admit her. Dad is gonna MAKE THEM! She is obviously sick. She has lost over 200 lbs in 13 months! Just so scared and worried about her. Stressed out to the max. All she has ate today is 1 1/2 deli thin ham slices and 1/2 slice of cheese. She has only drank about 20 OZ of fluids. Just not able to drink or eat much.
PRAISE GOD for all my friends in Scotland, Tennessee, and Texas. Don’t know what I would do without you. You all are a blessing. So glad I took a chance and decided to befriend all of you. You are GOOD PEOPLE!
My heart is beating too fast. Lump in my throat. UGH. Trying to relax.
Rosie took her phenergan and will soon be asleep. As soon as I know she is sound asleep I am going go to bed. EXHAUSTED.
Dad, Rosie, The Boys and I went to the Great Smokies Flea Market today. We took the Boys pet stroller which they both USED to fit in…. Snickers has grown so big that it was a tight fit. So Rosie bought a pet stroller than holds 4 small pets. Ended up selling the old Stroller to a lady for $20… she was thrilled to get it. It was a bargain. New stroller was $86
Rosie bought the boys new harnesses to go with the new collars she got earlier this week. So Snazzy!
Picked up some $1 jewelry items. I bought a long dress for $8 brand new. Rosie got her one as well.
Rosie woke up this morn and started vomiting as soon as she took her meds. Had nausea off and on all day. She fell asleep about an hour ago. Hope she wakes up feeling better.
Went to Capt. Gallery in Dandridge for Dinner. Rosie and I split the Ribeye, Jumbo Shrimp, Fried Zucchini and Salad. We have enough ribeye leftover to feed us both supper tomorrow. I also have some fried zucchini left over. YUM! Was gonna order some clam chowder but forgot to. Thank God.. I couldn’t have ate it. Was stuffed.
SnickerDoodle has been so protective of me this evening. Will not allow Smoki to come near me. Growling at him. Not sure why.
Need to find a dentist. Need a good cleaning and perhaps a filling. Want one closer to us than Dr. Frankie office.
Had a panic attack or hot flash… at the flea market. Was drenched head to toe with sweat for almost an hour. Skin was flushed. HATE IT.
Got home and my face is puffy. Wasn’t when I left. Not sure… but I bet it is allergy related.
Thinking about cutting bangs again. Not sure.
John adored my hair tonight. I rolled it with 1″ velcro rollers. Used tons of ‘em. Looked so feathery and shiny.
Rosie is craving an Hawaiian Ice so we are going on an excursion to find one tomorrow. Wish us luck.
Had issues with my balance today. Almost fell flat on my butt twice today. Just unsteady. Really need to get an injection in my right hip as Doc Kouser wanted to do.
SO HAPPY for my friends in Nashville. Good things are heading their way. Movie is being made by Universal based on their lives. INSPIRATIONAL! Blessed to have them in my life. I love em all. Hope that one day we can meet one another.
Just realized I haven’t taken my meds tonight.. Oops… BRB. Took em.
I haven’t taken my vitamins/minerals/supplements in a week or so. Gonna start back.
Also I have been naughty…. Been consuming way more carbs that I should. Makes me feel sluggish. I should know better but Carbs are so comforting to me.
Will prolly be going to West Virginia on Friday. Hope the large handicapped cabin at Twin Falls State Park is available. May have to change the day we go. We LOVE that cabin cause so many of our WV family can stay with us. :-)
Having aches and pains. May have to increase my dosage on my pain meds back to what the doc wants me to take. Tried to lower them and OUCH!
Dad was in a great mood this afternoon. Thank God cause sometimes he is the grouchiest old man on earth. Dad attracts so many women. Always trying to pick him up. He does NOT look 71 at all. Still has all his hair and he is indeed handsome. HE DOES NOT WANT TO DATE ANYONE.
I do want to date YET I get no dudes trying to pick me up. NONE. Only man who has come up to me and asked me out was the man (Hager) that I married. Rest of the men I dated were through personal newspaper ads.Men may be interested in me and I am just tooo dumb and socially inept that I don’t recognize it. Ooops… One other man asked me out at church in 1991. He didn’t have a car nor a job so I politely declined.
I don’t go anywhere without Rosie. Only time I have been apart was during hospitalizations. Maybe 3-4 times I was gone for a few hours with Hager. I did spend 3 over night trips at Gary’s (aka WV Millionaire dude) house
The only time I ever went on a date ALONE with a man was my honeymoon night… Always had Rosie or they brought their friends along. I would love to have a man pick me up, bring me flowers and take me out just for dinner. Just Dinner is all I ask.
Only one man has sent me flowers and that was Steven Bryant Ward aka Poison98. I met him through a Poison Chat Room that he hosted. He and I had a cyber which progressed to a phone relationship for almost a year. We had planned on him flying in from Tulsa, Oklahoma to West Virginia to meet and he backed out the week we was coming to meet me. We ended up staying together for a few months after that. He sent me flowers for my birthday. I am a December babe and the flowers were sent in a unique green globe ornament vase. Still have it in my bedroom.
Goodness, I have missed out on so much in my life…. It is time for that to change!
I know I have a few men who reads my journal often. One is The Actor, Game Show Host, Mr Intelligence himself Stephen Fry! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stephen_Fry He says he is 90% gay and 10% straight. I have written him a few naughty PRIVATE (you have to follow one another to send PRIVATE messages on Twitter) flirtatious tweets and he always replies. I love an intelligent man who knows who he is and stands up for what he believes in… way more than a handsome one. But I do admire a handsome warm heart and soul.
I know that some awesome things are about to transpire in my life. Excited. Lord, I surrender prepare me for all the new adventures I am about to undertake!
We are gonna take the Boys: Smoki Poki Loki (Carin Terrier aka Toto dog) and SnickerDoodle Bug (Miniature long haired dachshund) for a Sunday drive through the country side. We have taken Sunday drives for as long as I can remember. So relaxing. Love to admire all the glorious beauty God has created. Well it is relaxing until Smoki sees cows, deers, goats. horses, rabbits, etc. Then all heck breaks lose. He goes nuts. Barking. UGH! But what is even worse is when it is raining and we have the windshield wipers on… Smoki dives into the dashboard after them. UGH! And I am even holding him and his leash! Snickers and Smoki enjoyed having the window down today….As Bret Michaels wrote, “RIDE THE WIND, Never coming back till I touch the midnight sun.” I sing that to the Boys and they go bonkers cause they know I am about to roll down the window!
Asking the Lord Jesus Christ to help me SAY NO TO CARBS! Praying for energy to do more things. Chronic fatigue is debilitating. UGH. I am gonna do at least 30 min of household chores daily. Asking God for the willpower to do more things without pain and to control my appetite. I SURRENDER.
My cousin Brandy found 6 puppies dropped off on a country road in WV. They are so cute. She is keeping one and going to find homes for the others. Pray they all received loving homes. Looks like part German Shepherd.
When 9-11-01 happened I was seeing a psychiatrist prior to it happening. It was so difficult to deal with. A few months after it happened My shrink made me promise not to read or watch news about it. Still upsetting to me. Now all these tornadoes, hurricanes, natural [...]
Went to Knoxville today. Rosie saw her gastric bypass surgeon. She has lost over 200 lbs. She only weighs 20 lbs more than me now.
Doc started her on Flagyl to see if her nausea, diarrhea and vomiting responds to it. May be C Diff. Not sure. Plans are for her to be on it for 4 weeks. Off 2 weeks. Back on for 2 weeks. IF she doesn’t start feeling better he is gonna send her to a gastroenterologist.She is still swollen on her right lower abdominal quadrant. CT Scans, Labs. and vitals were all normal.
Went to Ross for Less in Knoxville. We went to the one here in Morristown last weekend. Got so many bargains. All items are size 14 or smaller. I got one dress that is a 9/10. Rosie is gonna try her clothes I got her on tomorrow. Hope she can wear at least one of them now. I know she will be able to wear them by our vacay in May. She is losing 4-5 lbs a week.
I haven’t gained or lost any in over 18 months.. but I have lost 5″ from my waist!
The dress I am wearing is from Ross for Less. Got it for $7.99 YES Seven dollars and 99 cents.
Bought another one like it in muted tones at Ross or Less in Knoxville. . it was $13.99 Exact same dress just a different color.
Rosie and I got a few short PARTY dresses. One was only $5.99 and it is lovely satin material with sparkles.
I think the most expensive item we purchased was $17.99
Went to PETSMART. Got Smoki a new harness. Got Smoki and Snickers both a Monkey Squeaky Toy and a Rawhide Cookie.
Ate at Mimi’s Cafe for lunch. I had a salad with 1 T Sesame Balsamic Vinaigrette. Ate 1/4 of a turkey and cheese croissant with cranberry orange relish. Ate the rest tonight. Dad had Corn Chowder, Slaw and turkey and cheese croissant with cranberry orange relish. He brought half the sandwich home for our dogs. Rosie ate 4 oz of Flat Iron Steak. She explained that she had gastric bypass and didn’t want any potatoes or veggies and asked for a Strawberry/ Pineapple side dish. They brought her a huge plate of it. She brought it home and had it for a snack. She prolly has 8 oz of steak still in the fridge for tomorrow. I am so happy when she eats. She rarely eats ANYTHING cause she feels so nauseous.
Tomorrow, we go for Allergy shots. Have to pick up some meds and go grocery shopping. Rosie also needs to go to Healthstar for a PT test since she is on blood thinner.
Hope she starts feeling able to get out and do more things. Would love to go to the Smokies this weekend. Maybe even to the Cinemas.
Rosie REALLY needs a new wheelchair. The cushion in her chair is so worn out. She slopes down in the chair and ends up with severe back pains. She is due for a new chair in June. Gonna call Medicare and make sure. She will need a much smaller chair! Her wheelchair weighs 375 lbs without her even in it!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FRIEND SHANE.
Praying for everyone. On my mind tonight are all those affected by the storms and tornadoes. Sad.
Heading to bed shortly. Tired. Been up since 9 am. That is way early for me. Normally my wake up time is after 1 pm. I like to stay up till 3-5 am. Always been a night owl.
Can’t get *him* off my mind… not sure what to do. Decisions. Decisions. Asking God to Guide the both of us. I SURRENDER US.
Another *him* Wondering if I should overtly FLIRT with him. Afraid of ruining our friendship. He sorta flirts… just not sure. I am so dumb when it comes to Men! UGH! Asking God to Guide the both of us. I SURRENDER US.
Another *him*…. this him is the one I am suppose to spend eternity with… Wherever he is tonight, dear Lord, Keep him safe and warm. Speak to his spirit and let him know I am the one. Guide he and I together. Protect both our families and our friends. I Pray for patience until the day we walk into one each others life. Prepare us both for the journey we are suppose to take together. Bring people into our lives that can help us grow. People that we can help. Let our smiles, hearts and words encourage other people. USE US BOTH. I take it upon myself and surrender both he and I to the LORD! Use us for Your glory. Let him feel the holy spirit right at this moment. Speak to his heart. Comfort us both with the hope of finding each other. I hope Soon but I defer to God cause I know God’s timing is perfect.
Rosie had a pretty good day. Just haven’t ate much.She wanted Orange Roughy for supper. Just made it for her. 2 bites and she started vomiting. Her Family Doc is checking her for MRSA and C. Diff. She has had both previously. I just want Rosie to be able to eat, keep it down and be back to her old loveable fun self! Hate seeing her so sick.
I took a siesta today. Barely fell asleep. Just nice to rest. We had to turn the air-conditioner on today! Wow.
Rosie wants to go out tomorrow night. Hope she feels like it. We need to get our party on! LOL!
Very upset at Facebook. Under the messages on the left side, their is an OTHER folder. I had 100′s of messages I had never seen. Some old, some new.
Some were from my ex. I haven’t heard from him in 17-18 years. (Have seen his MUGSHOTS) I forgave him a long time ago, Just wish he could forgive himself, and find some peace. Pray that he has stopped drinking , smoking, and carousing. That would be a blessing to all those who surround him.
I decided I needed a nap and missed chat with John. He went to bed early. Hope to spend Friday webcamming with him. I have known him for almost 5 years now. We love and understand one another more than married couples. COMMUNICATION is so important. Someday we spend 10 min talking… some days hours. Support. Friendship. Laughing. Playing. Joking. Teasing. LOVE HIM!
IF Rosie feels like it we may go to the movies this weekend.
SnickerDoodle is all snugly this evening. He took a nap with me and so did Tater Bug.
Prayers to all my family and friends. I am blessed with both.
Well, Rosie is doing ok. Has a blood clot in her left leg. It has been swollen and painful. It is only superficial.
Her umbilical hernia has been repaired twice in 10 years. It will be repaired again on Monday at ParkWest Hospital, and she will be also having a tummy tuck. She has lost 15″ off her waist now. Dropped over 175 lbs. She even has lost 3″ off her neck. She has had a few good days. Her intestines are poking out from the hernia. Looks weird…. you can see it move and all. It causes her to have nausea. She has actually ate the past few days. She goes days without much nutrition at all. Just doesn’t want to eat. Hoping the hernia repair makes her less nauseous. I love her so much. She can now wear size 8-9 panties! Smallest shirt has been a 14.
She will be fitted for a new electric wheelchair in June. She is so excited. Her current chair sucks! Gonna try and see IF she will fit in our Mom’s old electric wheelchair tomorrow. Hope she can. It would be much more comfy for her. She has been wheelchair bound since she was 16. Can’t walk at all. She can stand for about 10 sec. Rosie will be 45 in May. She is perhaps the happiest person I have ever met. Proud to call her my best friend and My Sissy!
Had another CT SCAN on my tummy and nothing abnormal was found. Even though I have not lost any additional weight My waist is down to 35″ now. Was 40. Guess I am STILL Shaping up. I have lost 110 lbs. My hips are 38″ without measuring the excess skin hanging from my tummy. Smallest dress I have worn is a 10. I am gonna lose a few more pounds and somehow TRY to get my insurance to pay for a tummy tuck. WISH ME LUCK!
Still having aches and pains from Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia. Shoulders, Thighs, Knee’s, Elbows, Hands and Feet. Seems that will never change. Insomnia is not as bad. TRIED sleeping without my sleep meds the other night. Finally gave in and took em at 6:30 am and slept like a babe. Wish I didn’t get so tired, so easily.
I have made a few more friends via Twitter and Facebook. Some I consider dear friends. I am blessed. Panic attacks have lessened. Doing my best to become more outgoing. Being more receptive to men.
Sending special prayers to Brandy, John, Dreama, Bret, Shane, Chrissy, Stephen, Janna, Russell, Carmen, Rebecca, Terri, Sara, Becky, Charles, Shay, Blake, JR, Sue, Earlene, and Rick.
♥ LOVE U ALL ♥
I know that this year will be MY YEAR!
My moods swings have stabilized for now.
I started allergy shots a few weeks ago.
Still close to John. He gives me so much support, encouragement and serenity.
I am more confident than ever. I even go out grocery shopping without any makeup.
Receiving lots of attention from the male species. Loving it. Receiving just as many flirts when I have no makeup on as I do with full Drag-Queen makeup.
Grateful that I don’t look 46. Some people think I am in my early 20′s….. love that!
I cut Rosie’s hair in a medium length shag. First time we curled it was tonight. Can’t wait to see the results tomorrow.
Plan are to go to West Virginia in March. All depends on Rosie’s recovery.
Dad is taking THE BOYS “Smoki and Snickers” everywhere we go”.
Tater Bug
Jazzi
Punkin
Our life is good and is only gonna get better!
Hopefully over the next few months we will be able to share some very exciting news and changes happening in Our lives. We have High Hopes.
I am so proud of my sissy Rosie… She has lost 170 lbs in the last year. She is only 40 lbs away from my weight now. Just wish she didn’t have nausea so often. Praying for her.
I am still having bloating, gas, left quadrant pain, diarrhea alternating with constipation. Dr Boyce got my insurance to approve an abdominal CT scan.. It is scheduled on Tuesday. IF It shows what Dr Boyce expects he will be able to correct the roux-en-y surgery and help me lose additional weight. would love to lose 50-75 additional pounds. I am still over 200lbs. Barely but still! Wearing a size 12 now.
Love all the new male attention. I have a slew of online male suitors. Hoping one in particular asks for my phone number.Had a gorgeous man from Atlanta interested in me…. but he turned out to be a jerk. Have so many young BOYS wanting to get to know me better. I will only date men over 40. Not interested in any man who is under 40 at all. I have a few online personal ads… all state you must be a SINGLE/DIVORCED Male, a Christian, a Democrat, and over 40. Must love family, movies, music, pets and traveling. Other than that I am pretty open to talking to a man.
John and I are still very close. We will always be close…. but both know and accept the fact that we will never be together.
I am tired. Hope to update more on what has been happening in our lives later this week.
Been in the grasp of a fibromylagia / chronic fatigue syndrome flare-up. May be the worst episode ever. My Rheumatologist can’t see me for 2 weeks but I have an appt to see my family doc tomorrow.
Current Symptoms are:
Aches and Pains in legs, arms, thighs, shoulders, neck
Swollen Joints
Weakness
Dizziness
Cloudy Muddled Thoughts
Slow-Motion
Abnormal thoughts
Depression
Anxiety
Fatigue
Insomnia
Swollen Puffy Forehead
Diarrhea
Palpitations (noticeable and irregular heartbeat)
Still going to physical therapy for my Charcot Marie Tooth syndrome. Really enjoying the heat therapy, ultrasound, and massages on my feet. Had a good session today with Kim my physical therapist. She has only been working on my feet but I am hoping that I can get my doc to order therapy on the rest of my body.
Went shopping after therapy today. Only shopped about an hour but I am so sore all over and exhausted.
Got a purple sweater dress, a leopard coat, socks and a black shirt today.
Hope to head to the Zoo this weekend or to West Virginia to visit my family.
Having insomnia really bad lately.
Wish I felt better. Hate feeling so poorly all the time.
My sis Rosie had her 3 month Gastric Bypass Checkup. Since Feb she has lost over +125 lbs. She only weighs 66 lbs more than me now. You go Sis! Just wish her nausea would dissipate. Her hernia wound has healed enough and was told she can now start aquatic therapy!!! Woo-Hoo! Calling the Boy and Girls Club as well as Jefferson Community Pool tomorrow. Hope to start on Monday. LIFE IS GOOD!
I saw Dr. Stephen G. Boyce, who did Rosie’s gastric bypass surgery, today. I am having him investigate my continuing gastro-intestinal issues that has bothered me ever since I had my roux-en-y on Sept 14th, 2009. He has a few theories on why I only lost 50 or so pounds from the roux-en-y surgery. I should have lost 100+ lbs. Theories are my pouch should be smaller: 15 ml and not 30ml. More of my intestines need bypassed. Scar tissue. Bowel Kink.
I am having an abdominal CT Scan on Nov 1st.
*IF* it is what Dr Boyce thinks it may be, I will have to undergo another Laparoscopic surgery and I should be able to lose more weight. My BMI is still 35.3. Still OBESE!
Still suffering from upper left quadrant abdominal pains, bloating, gas and diarrhea. Severe at times.
Just hoping that some of Dr Boyce’s theories show up on the CT scan and that I can have another lap surgery and get on my way to a healthier life. He hopes it is due more to my lower bowel area than a problem with my upper stomach region. Lower gastrointestinal prob will be much easier to fix… than an upper one.
He is starting me on flagyl and was suggesting Cholestyramine till I told him I was already on Welchol. They are in the same family of meds. I have tired Cholestyramine in the past unsuccessfully.
I had gastric bypass to help me get off some of my meds. Well, I am off insulin but now on 3 NEW meds for my stomach issues!!! My current med list:
Atenolol Heart Rate/Blood Pressure Bentyl Irritable Bowel Buspar Social Anxiety Cymbalta Depression/Fibromyalgia/ CMT Loperamide Irritable Bowel Lortab Chronic Fatigue//Fibromyalgia Meta-Glip Diabetes/Insulin Resistance Synthroid Hypothyroid Trazodone Depression/Insomnia Welchol Irritable Bowel Xanax Anxiety/Insomnia Fish Oil Multi Vitamin/Mineral Biotin IRON Probiotic Vitamin B Complex D3
I AM A WALKING PHARMACY! LOL!
I really need to lose weight to help with my Charcot Marie Tooth Syndrome “CMT” which I was recently diagnosed with.
CMT Morbus Charcot-Marie-Tooth, Charcot-Marie-Tooth neuropathy, hereditary motor and sensory neuropathy (HMSN), hereditary sensorimotor neuropathy (HSMN), or peroneal muscular atrophy, is an inherited disorder of nerves (neuropathy) that takes different forms. It is characterized by loss of muscle tissue and touch sensation, predominantly in the feet and legs but also in the hands and arms in the advanced stages of disease. Currently incurable.
I inherited it from my dad. My legs and feet are getting weaker. I have extremely high arches and claw toes. When I walk, all my weight lands on the balls of my feet and not evenly as it is suppose to. My feet are starting to turn outward. Have very tight Achilles tendons. Gluts and Quads are also too tight. I started therapy last week to help prevent further damage. I have had issues all my life with twisting my ankles, losing my balance, and falling. At least now I know there is a reason and not just my clumsiness! CMT is a Muscular Dystrophy disease.
Angela October 20th, 2011 Dr Boyce's Office.
Still desiring to lose 50-75 additional pounds… with Dr Boyce’s surgical mind, capable hands, and his wonderful compassion, coupled with my rejuvenated desire to lose more weight; I am sure it can be accomplished.
I have been exercising for 15-30 min a day. Using resistant bands, stretches, and isometrics. Hope to go to aquatic aerobics 2-3 times a week. I will have to rise and shine by 7 am on the days we go… Just have to start getting my rump in bed earlier than the 4 am I am accustomed to.
I am so tired today. Got up at 8 am. Now my upper abdominal area is extended. Bloated horribly. Has been for a few hours. Miserable.
Went to Puleos in Strawberry Plains. I had a salad (greens, cheese, tomatoes, croutons, and cucumbers) homemade Italian dressing… I may have used 1 Tablespoon. Got stuffed after the salad and only had 3-4 bites of citrus chicken and 2 bites of sirloin. 3 bites of sesame noodles. One bite of bread.
I have known John for almost 4 years now. He and I text chat with video cam. No audio. I am just too shy… I finally made him a video of me taking to him with Audio. I have never made a video of myself until now.., BUT Damn I am so cute!!! Adorable. Sweet Southern Voice. John loved it! Gonna audio Chat with him LIVE this week. Think I have enough courage to do it. His step-grandsons (13 and 15) are out of school on Fall break and have been staying with him all week. Lucky to even see him on cam this week let alone TALK to him live… Hope to webcam chat with audio over the weekend.
We are heading out to pick up meds tomorrow and then gonna drive bye FrightMare Manor http://frightmaremanor.com/ to see how busy they are. It is about 2.5 miles from my house. Extremely popular attraction.
I am getting more confidence and self esteem. Feeling womanly. Dressing sexier. Receiving lots of male attention. :-)
Been playing with makeup. Tried a few different looks this week. Some were nice… others.. eh… not so much. LOL!
I wore a black mini-dress. It is called Bandage Dress. Got it 2 years ago and finally wore it for the first time today. It is a size 16 but I could have easily worn it in a size 12. Really pleased with the way my legs looked today! Main body issue I hate is my saggy flabby tummy. Lots of loose skin there. My face is also sagging some. Been doing facial exercises and hope that it get taunter. I also have a few wrinkles on my forehead… but hell I look spectacular to be almost 46 years old! LOL!
October 20, 2011
Hoping to visit my West Virginia Family in a few weeks. Missing them all. Sending love and prayers to all of them especially to Brandy, Sara, Becky and MaShayla. Praying that Shay’s cat Zena comes home soon. Sending get well wishes to Aunt Earlene. We are hoping to stay in a Cabin At Twin Falls Resort… if one of the handicapped cabins is available the weekend we go in.
My snack tonight will be low fat mozzarella string cheese and a few red seedless grapes…. and then off to bed.
I had a burst of energy today and did housework for over an hour. I even cooked strip steaks and cinnamony sweet tater fries… but now I am hurting severely in my shoulders and thighs. UGH! I visit my rheumy tomorrow in regards to my fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, and insomnia.
I have an appt to see a podiatrist on Thursday. I have 4 open raw sore on my feet from a new pair of shoes. I am a diabetic and worry a lot when I even get s small scratch on my feet.
I had gastric bypass roux-en-y surgery 2 years ago.I see Dr Boyce, a gastric bypass surgeon, next week. Dr Boyce is checking to see why I lost only 50 lbs from the surgery. I should have lost 100 or more.
I lost 50 lbs PRIOR to surgery and then 50 lbs by my 6th month anniversary. I weighed the same for my 1 year and 18th month anniversary. I have lost additional weight the past few months but that is from me starving myself.
He has received my medical records from my surgeon Dr Mancini. I am hoping that Dr Boyce will order some tests to check out my stomach ‘pouch’ to see if it has stretched or if there is something wrong with the surgery. I am having some stomach issues. Pain in my left quadrant, severe diarrhea and gas. Even had 2 “accidents” the past few days. UGH! Thought that the welchol, bentyl and Imodium trio had cured that but I was wrong.
I have always felt something was not right with my surgery. I started complaining to Dr Mancini and his staff 2 weeks after I had surgery… I had some tests and all according to him they were normal… but I was having green diarrhea, and severe gnawing upper left quadrant pain. Eventually Dr Mancini did exploratory surgery and discovered that I had scar tissue. Repaired that. I felt better for a few days after that but I STILL have the same problems now.
I was not happy at all with losing just 50 lbs after undergoing MAJOR surgery. I should have lost 60-80% of my excess weight. I was 165-200 lbs overweight (depending on the insurance chart and body frame I should weigh anywhere from 115 to 155) when my journey started. I am STILL at least 50 lbs overweight!!! UGH!
John thinks I am getting too skinny. He suggests once I make my next goal weight being under 200, which I am only a few pounds away from, that I will stop ‘trying’ to lose weight.
I dream of weighing less than 175. I would be ok at that weight. But I would even be happier at 125!
Dad thinks I am too skinny now as well. MEN!
Just hoping and praying that Dr Boyce checks me out thoroughly and somehow helps me lose a few more pounds.
Bought a pair of fleece HALLOWEEN pants from Wally World… size MEDIUM 8-10… and they are too big on me…. loose and baggy. There is no way that a 200 lb woman should fit in a size small… I hate vanity sizing. According to these pants….I can only imagine how baggy a size small would be on a girl who is a size 2-4-6-8…since a medium is too big on me.
According to my measurements I am a 12/14 on the majority of sizing charts…. but once I put on clothing according to the size charts I realize that you can NOT believe them at all. Varied so much. There should be STANDARD measurements that all clothing manufactures should follow. I know I harp on this often … just a pet peeve of mine.
All the excess skin in my tummy region is driving me insane. So flabby and ugly… and painful. I end up with underbelly rashes often. Dr Melling has me on nystatin cream. Insurance won’t pay for the nystatin powder. I believe if I had a tummy tuck I could wear a size 8-10 easily.
Just hoping Rosie gets medical clearance so she and I can start water aerobics.
I KNOW I am in hyper mode and rambling.
I can be hyper and lucid one minute and the next minute I am incoherent with brain fog. UGH!
Sending my love and prayers to John. He was diagnosed with Tennis elbow. Poor baby is in so much pain that he hasn’t been sleeping well. Pray he sleeps well tonight.
Over the past few years so many wonderful and exciting changes have came into my life. Some I help create, some were surprisingly sprung upon me and some transformations that I never even knew I wanted suddenly came galloping into my life. Hope that the metamorphosis continues.
I currently weigh over 100 lbs less than my highest weight of 315 lbs. (I am STILL over 200 lbs.) Gastric Bypass “Lap Roux-En-Y” and a low carb and high protein diet helped me get to this point. I would love to lose 25-35 additional lbs. I was on that way to that goal when Rosie (my sissy) underwent her Gastric Bypass “Lap Biliopancreatic Diversion with Duodenal Switch” and her subsequent MRSA infections derailed my weight loss. I gained 4 lbs. in the last 2 months. I am one of those people who EAT carbs when stressed and having my baby sister so ill, whom I am a caregiver for, was extremely stressful for me… hence I ate way more carbs than a diabetic or a gastric bypass patient should. At times, I still do. Rosie had nausea and some vomiting today so I ate a bunch of Hershey miniature candies and 2 bananas.. Sugar is 272 as I type this. Should be 70-120.. So disappointed in myself but I am gonna gain control… I have to.
All week I have had so much energy… well spurts of it at least. Right now I am hyper. Will prolly clean the dining area prior to bed. So glad that I am having SOME energy since I have virtually none the majority of the time due to chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia. Thinking back it seems I ALWAYS feel better in Sept/October… wondering if the cooler weather benefits me more than hot weather does. I have never tolerated HOT weather. Hmmm… gonna have to move to a more temperate climate … sunny, mild and breezy sounds lovely… Hawaii sounds about right!
I have so many plans for my future. Really gungho. I am gonna lose those 25-35 NAGGING lingering pounds…. and when I do I am gonna go have a tummy tuck. I absolutely positively detest my saggy and baggy lose skin in my stomach Panniculus region. I bet I could wear a size 6 or an 8 jean if I didn’t have this excess skin! In stretch denim I can wear a size 12 now.
I was this same weight 20 years ago when I married and divorced Michael Patterson Hager, Jr. He and I married 20 Years ago on Sunday. Divorced shortly after. He was just a brain fart in my life. LOL! I can NOT believe I married such a low life and gave up my virginity to him. (yep I was a 25 year old virgin. I was NO ANGEL…. He and I did fool around some prior to the wedding but I saved the best for last) I honestly am such a different lady now… Not as naive.
Age, Wisdom, Time, and Growth go hand in hand.
There have been times when I have acted high and mighty towards others and said things I regret. Acted like I was better than they were and I wish I hadn’t. I ask those whom I did this to to forgive me. I am no angel. Have never been and will never be. I am HUMAN and make mistakes like everyone else does.
I am very shy around those that I don’t know very well… BUT those close to me know that in actuality, I can be flirty, bawdy, raucous, and even hilarious. I hate having social anxiety. It keeps me from forming relationships… online and in real life. It has been 17 years since I dated. Yes…. it will be…. SEVENTEEN Years…. on Nov 18th. I have a wonderful ONLINE ONLY friendship with John. Known him for almost 4 years now.
You would never know it from reading my journal or my postings online but I have a high Intelligence Quotient… major issue I have is saying something that makes me look like a fool… or worrying about hurting other peoples feelings…. I worry way too much about what other people THINKS about me. Oh yep… I am also snobbishly proud to be the QUEEN Of the Ellipsis… LOL!
I want “THE REAL ANGELA” to come across online and in reality. I wish everyone could see the Angela that my sis Rosie and My Friend John sees. That would be a major breakthrough. I am gonna attempt to accomplish that and many other goals. 2011 has only a few months left and in those few months they are gonna be some spectacular changes in me. My appearance has changed dramatically in the 2 years, since I had gastric bypass and now is the time for my personality to shine brilliantly…. like a diamond in the sky. Sparking. Twinkling. Radiantly. Everlasting.
My renewed faith is strong and I know I can do anything I set my mind to.
I have to thank my beloved John for helping me get to this point in my life. He is the greatest man I have ever known after my Daddy. He is always there for me. Supportive. Compassionate. Considerate. Helpful. Complimentary. He is a professional. Works for the Scottish Government. Wears suits and Ties. WOW.. I loved the way he looked tonight. Majority of the time I see him in sweats but the past few evenings he has been working late and came to our webcam chat in his business attire. Tonight was a black dress shirt and a black and white polka dotted tie. So spiffy. Fashionable. I adore that he is so intelligent. He loves computers as much as I do. Knowledgeable in so many varied subjects… so unlike all the other men I have loved. Yes LOVED> I love that rascal and he loves me. He and I will remain ONLY friends unless God has other plans but for now it is a friendship. A partnership. He and I are emotionally closer than the preponderance of husbands and wives. He and I support one another. Comfort each other. ‘GET’ one another. So happy that I replied to his message 4 years ago. I knew immediately he was different. He and I met at a BBW “Big Beautiful Woman” friendship site… which has since shuttered.
John has been having some problems with his arm/elbow after falling off a ladder last weekend. Having major trouble sleeping. Pray that he gets a good nights sleep. I can’t wait to see him tomorrow night.
I have been tidying up my bedroom so John and I can have a private talk. It has been a long time since we chatted in private. Maybe twice in the last 2 years. Have been chatting on my laptop in Rosie’s room. Been TEXT chatting only… hope to talk by phone/webcam chat this weekend. He only has been seeing my face on webcam…. This weekend I will let him see me and the weight I have since lost.
I am experiencing body issues. Nothing new…. I was 315 lbs when I met John… and I was actually more comfy with my body then than I am now. I used to be way more provocative back then. I miss that part of me. Lately I have been wearing short dresses and tighter clothes. Even dyed my hair back to the color it was 20 years ago when I weighed the same. BLACK hair just suits me better. Even been wearing human hair extensions and wigs. Gastric bypass caused me to lose some of my luxurious mane. I cut over 15″ off over a year ago to see if that would make it look fuller. It didn’t…. Still almost as thin. My hair is now 23″ long again. It was over 30″ prior to the bypass. Hope to get it that long again. It is very healthy. Shiny. Just straggly and scrawny. Especially in the front area. :-( I am just thankful that they make decent and affordable hair extensions and wigs now. I do wear my own hair the majority of the time but [...]
Pukes up her meds as well as her vitamins and protein shakes.
She is getting feed by TPN IV Infusions with added vitamins that are customized according to her needs.
Rosie hates feeling so bad and I hate seeing her in pain.
She is having tender aches and pains all over her tummy region.
She is exhausted.
Just pray that she gets some rest tonight and wakes up feeling 100% better.
Her home RN Pete is coming tomorrow to change the wound vac on her OPEN hernia repair wound. Also doing labs on her.
I am doing all the IV infusions by myself now. IF she does not start eating and keeping foods and her pills down she will have to have a feeding tube inserted. :-(
Rose’s home health aides Peggy and Dina both are coming tomorrow… staying from 2 to 9. I think that is the times. I am so forgetful. I hope to get some rest tomorrow. Peggy and Dina are like family to us. We all adore them both.
Rosie sees her Family doc, Blake Melling, on Monday in regards to her right outer thigh pain.
Tuesday she sees a Gastroenterologist… Dr Wilhoite.
Dr Boyce, the surgeon who performed her Gastric Bypass bpd/ds thinks Rosie may have a stricture… aka blockage. He kinda hopes so since that would explain her nausea and the reasons why she can’t keep things down. Rosie will have an endoscopy prolly this week. HOPEFULLY.
Thursday she sees her nutritionist.
Busy week. Just hope the doctors can identify and help what ever is causing her to be so sick.
She has such rawness and burning along her entire gastric tract. I know it is prolly inflamed due to all the vomiting. Poor baby.
She is urinating much better. Still having small runny bowel movements.
Her glucose jumped from 85 to 190 today…
Rosie and I napped for 4 hours today. She is sound asleep now. I am gonna have to wake her to test her glucose before I go to bed. Trying to wait till this 12 hour TPN IV infusion completes its job. Should be ALMOST done.
All our pets are worried about Rose. Punkin, our siamese cat, won’t leave Rosie’s side. Tater, Jazzi and Smoki all are very careful when they get near Rose. They know she is sore from the hernia repair.
As I cleaned and repacked her open drain site, which tunnels a few inches inside her stomach… Rosie seemed to be in more pain in that region that she had been as I pushed the packing tape inside of it. Bloodier as well.
Both of her IV Picc lines flushed with saline smoothly today. They had been causing trouble for me as well as the nurses.
You should see all the medical supplies in our house. Rosie has boxes stacked for wound care items in her bedroom. We keep the IV Transfusion items in the fridge or on the kitchen table for easy access.
I have been eating fairly healthy but with stress and fretting about Rosie I have indulged in way many more carbs than I normally would.
Had some nice conversation with my best friend John this past week. I so look forward to seeing him for our daily webcam chat. We support one another and enjoy our relaxing time together. Even IF it is only for a few minutes. I have been so wore out lately that I sometimes miss chat and nap instead. I woke up this morning aching to see him. Just seeing him live on cam is such a blessing. Comforts me tremendously. He is having dinner tomorrow at his sisters. Pray he does not overeat or get heartburn… I know he will be over indulging in curry dishes as he always does. :-0
Prayers to and for my cousin Becky. Praying that the docs can determine the nature and cause of her edema and leg pains… and that they are treatments for them. She has appt to see a cardiologist and a rheumatologist.
I have been having pings and soreness on the left side of my navel region. Not sure what is causing that.
Having major fibromyalgia brain fog. Constantly forgetting things and having to remind myself often. Having to make lists to keep track of things… Also having all the normal pains and soreness in my legs and shoulders. Also been having some neck stiffness.
My tummy is doing better than it was. I am on Imodium, Bently, and Welchol now for my IBS. Having less frequent ‘accidents’ now.
My nerves are frazzled. So stressed. Been depressed and crying often… which I had stopped doing. Having severe panic attacks with having to deal with all the nurses and medical field persons. Seems like I am on the phone constantly with someone…. and I detest talking on the phone with a passion!
I MAY go out tomorrow grocery shopping. I HATE doing it alone. I more or less run through the store grabbing stuff as quick as possible and getting out of there before having a heart attack.
Just so scared for Rosie. Just pray that she can start eating again and keeping food and fluids down. Not sure what to do when she pukes up her meds. Will discuss with Dr Melling on Monday.
Time to turn off her IV pump, check her sugar, and get to bed.
I am so worried about Rosie. She is getting better by the day BUT it looks like her hernia wound is infected. I hope it isn’t. So worried she may have to go back in the hospital. She sees her surgeon tomorrow… I pray that if he has to debris the wound that it is pain-free as possible. She hasn’t been getting enough protein in… but she is trying. I am exhausted from work and worrying. Have to rise and shine at 6 am tomorrow. Prayers appreciated. THANKS!
My sis Rose Lee will be having duodenal switch biliopancreatic diversion “Gastric Bypass” Surgery on July 26th. Only 21 days away!! She is starting a High Protein Low Carb Diet this week. The last week or so prior to the surgery it will be all liquids high protein diet. In support of her I will be following the same diet. We are starting this diet on Thursday. She has her educational class and labs on Wednesday of this week. She is getting excited. She is down 2 clothing sizes already. So proud of her. I love you Sissy!
Gastro-Intestinal update: I am now taking bentyl and welchol for my irritable bowel sydrome. No accidents in 5 days. Very pleased. Thanks to Dr Melling!
Started menstruation last night. Only 2nd period I have had in over 6 years. I am wondering if it is related to the new meds or perhaps my thyroid. Thyroid has been too high. Doc Langton lowered my synthroid dosage. I have been losing my hair… again. I am positive it is related to my thyroid issues. Thank God for wigs and hairpieces!!!
Had a lovely trip to West Virginia last weekend. Had a blast with my – 6 almost 7 year old – cousin MaShayla who spent one night with us at the hotel. It was her first time in a hotel. She is so beautiful, smart, and loquacious. That sweetie can talk all night and day about anything. She is interesting to chat with. I am missing her!
I want everyone who reads this to say a prayer for my Cousin Rebecca. Lord knows I am praying for her.
I haven’t had much of an appetite for a few weeks…. ever since I started bentyl I have to make myself eat. We went to the Gondolier for dinner. I had a salad and fettucine alfredo. Sauce on the side. I used about 1/3 of the sauce. Could only eat about half of it… having leftovers tomorrow.
Dad, Rosie, Smoki and I went on a late evening picnic @ Panther Creek State Park the other day. Had an awesome time. Got some Kentucky Fried Chicken and a cantaloupe for the picnic. Smoki had more fun that anyone. Gonna go on a picnic weekly as long as the weather is nice. Saw an 8 point buck, some does and one fawn. Not to mention 3 dead roadkill skunks. Phew-Weeeee!
I have had a Summer head cold for a week now. Mainly coughing, headache, and ear tickles.. now Rosie has it.
I drove on the Interstate for the first time last week. Drove through Bristol, TN to Wytheville, VA. I did well. I am still amazed that I am driving!!!
I pray that I have more energy this week that I have been having. So much I need to do before Rosie has surgery.
While John was on holiday with his sis in Turkey last week, I was bored and I started playing Farmville again.. alas I am hooked once again.
Started using a MicroNeedle therapy roller on my face. Suppose to help rejuvenate new skin and erases fine lines and wrinkles. Not sure it is working all I know is it hurts! 250 fine needles…. .5 mm. Skin is feeling a wee bit raw so I wont do it as long or as hard as I have been. I have read good reviews on this product. Will write a review after i use it for few months.
Bentyl makes my mouth so dry. I am parched. UGH
Coughing… I don’t cough much during the day.. but late at night it starts up… pray that it goes away.
I am knackered. I havebeen staying up to 4-5 am and it has caught up with me. Going to bed,
July 6th 8:00 Dr. Boyce CLASSJuly 6th 12:15 Dr. Boyce FINAL LABSJuly 11th 1:45 Dr. Boyce VISITJuly 11th 3:45 Hospital PRE-OPJuly 19th Coumadin STOPJuly 26th 7:00 SURGERY
She will be having Duodendal Switch with Biliopancreatic Diverision on July 26th with Dr Stephen Boyce as Surgeon.
Rosie and I both will be starting a MONTH long high protein liquid diet prior to her surgery. I am doing it in support of her. I hope to lose a few pounds and lose 15-25 lbs. during this time.
Rosie is getting excited about losing weight and regaining some of her life. Appreciate your prayers. THANKS!
I am so happy for her yet worried at the same time. I pray that surgery and recovery goes smoothly and that she can adapt readily to the lifestyle DS/BPD requires.
I had Roux-en-Y surgery on Sept 14th 2009 and lost over 1oo lbs. Doing well. I still can only eat small meals at a time. I have days where I still have issues with certain foods. But mainly eat what I want but in limited quantities. My life has changed since surgery. I have more confidence and self esteem. I can do more but with having chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromylalgia I often do more than I should and end up paying for it later. Like I can go out and shop for a few hours and then barely can get out of bed the next day. Still having fibro aches and pains as I did prior to surgery. I still don’t tolerate heat very well. It can be 95 degrees outside.. and when I walk into an air-conditioned store I end up with chills and torrential sweats. HATE THAT!
My Family doc has been trying various meds to help with my IBS. Was on Questran and it didn’t help. Start on Bentyl tomorrow. Been having cramps and diarrhea more and more often. Fecal incontinence is almost nightly now. No fun at all. Embarrassing and humiliating. Not sure what has caused this but it happened after Gastric Bypass Surgery. If Bentyl does not help Welchol is the next treatment planned. I am on Immodium a few times daily. Have been for years.
I start on metaglip tomorrow for my diabetes and stop glipizide. I continue on Victoza as long as I can get samples from my endocrinologist since my insurance will NOT cover it.
Still on Cymbalta, Xanax, and Trazodone for my nerves and anxiety.
I take Vicodin for my fibromylagia pain.
I am now wearing a size 10-12-14 in clothing.. All depends on the designer. I even have a few 7-9 that I wear. VANITY SIZING! Cause I am a size 16 I am sure! I have about 10-15 lbs of excess stomach skin. Gonna be talking to some plastic surgeons about removing it. Still desiring breast augmentation. What I once had is now saggy sloping deflated boobs. Have to roll em up to get them in my bra. LOL! Not really… but almost!
I still can’t believe I got my drivers license. So PROUD of myself. Major break-through for me. Congrats to myself.
John just got back from Portugal and Spain today. Has an awesome tan. Looks incredible. Glad he got some time to enjoy himself. Was thrilled to see him tonight. Woo-Hoo! We have a special date night planned for Wednesday. I missed him so much and cried daily while he was away. He and I webcam daily whenever possible. Have yet to meet. He is my best friend. We adore one another.
For 17 years I have not dated, been kissed or made love to. Yes, I am lonely and I pray to have patience, perseverance, wisdom, and guidance to whomever or whatever God wants me to have in my life.
I am going out to the mall tomorrow afternoon/evening. May go to the movies. Not sure yet.Rosie and I need new bedsheets. Plus Rosie needs a few items for after surgery. Already got her some really cute nighties. She has dropped 2 dress sizes this year. So proud of her. She is gonna be one hot sexy SKINNY mama! She is already gorgeous.. Can only imagine what she will look like in the future.
Went to The Great Smoky Flea Market yesterday. Got some lovely Fascinators. John loved the hot pink flowery fascinator I had on tonight. I also got 2 maxi halter dresses… BRAND NEW… for only $6 each. Got a size XL but needed L or perhaps a M. The dresses are so sexy but too revealing to wear out in public without a jacket or shawl. I wore the hot pink Hawaiian flowered one today to the Doctor. Mainly wore it for John. He thought I looked beautiful… and I DID! Also bought lots of $1 earrings. So adorable. Smoki went with us. He had a blast. He got fitted for a new red harness. He is so studly!
We were out for only around an hour yesterday. It was so hot. My body thermostat is all screwed up due to Fibromylagia… so when perspire… I sweat… dripping… drenched… UGH! They are times even in cold weather where I will have chills and the sweats at the same time. UGH. Frustrating to say the least. Since Gastric Bypass I get cold so easily. I will wear a sweatshirt most evenings cause I am so cold.
Another thing that has changed is my tailbone. I never had much of an Badonkadonk even at 315 lbs. So, now, after losing 110+ lbs I have zero butt left. No cushion there now…So my tailbone aches most of the day…. So I HAVE a pain in the ass daily.. Some say I AM a pain in the ass. LOL!
Allergy season is killing me. My nose will start dripping all the sudden… like a faucet…as well as my eyes tearing.. looks like I am crying. UGH! Benadryl and Claritin is not helping.
I have some leftover taco’s from El Sazon that I am making for my dinner tonight. I get them carryout. 9 taco’s with Meat and Cheese only… with Lettuce and Tomato on the side. They give me almost a head of lettuce and 2-3 chopped tomatoes. I remove the taco shells and discard them. The Taco meat, cheese, lettuce and tomatoes makes me at least 3 meals not counting how many dad and Rosie eats. So Tasty and filling. So glad that I can Still only eat small portions. Hope it stays that way forever.
I have also started doing laundry daily. Something I have never did in my life. I am getting good at it and actually enjoy it.
I am living with aches and pains from fibro, the IBS issues, my allergies, my insomnia/hypersomnia troubles, my diabetes, and my continuing social anxiety and panic attacks. It could be better and yet it could be worse… I am grateful for all the blessings and pray for the strength to conquer obstacles in my life. It will get better…
From @ButlerBlue2: Me, @ButlerBlue3 & the one & only Gasoline Alley at @IMS. -- via Flickr
Adorable
Petite Giraffe Pet Costume have your own tiny lap by hatz4brats, $60.00
Dog? What dog?
Funny Face Abby is an adoptable Beagle Dog in Albany, OR. Please contact Fran Kreger ( Fran@k9homefinders.org ), (541) 926-5629 for more information about this pet. My name is Abby, and I am about 2 �...
Gently Does It by Grant Atkinson
nap
Baby Polar Bear
Handfulls
Going to visit Gibralter Bay Alpaca Farm next week !!!
