Going to Knoxville tomorrow. Rose’s has an appt with her surgeon. She is still swollen from her hernia repair surgery. Painful as well. Hope Dr Boyce can drain the seroma tomorrow. Hope she does not have to be hospitalized. I pray that Rosie gets healthy and STAY healthy.
Angela Rose’s Day Spa has been open for an hour. Getting all beautified for our trip tomorrow.
Completed Facial, Shaving, Hair deep-conditioned and Curled.
Pedicure completed.
Raven Black Toenails.
Doing manicure later tonight. Either black or silver.
Going to start to whiten my teeth tonight. Already did a scrub with Baking Soda. Feels so clean. Rosie got me an Electric toothbrush for Christmas. Going to start using it tomorrow. Also have Crest 3D White Intensive Professional Effects Whitestrips with Advanced Seal Technology Kit.
Gave Rosie a facial after her home health aide bathed her and shampooed her hair. She wants to get dolled up tomorrow… IF she is able to. She is still having nausea and diarrhea.
Somehow I ran out of my anti-anxiety med Buspar and didn’t notice it till last night. Back on it now. I apologize for being so moody and dramatic. Buspar should get me back to somewhat normal moods.
As my regular readers know, I lost almost 30% of my hair after my gastric bypass… which is fairly common. At the time of surgery my hair was almost to my waist. I ended up cutting it to my shoulders to make it look fuller. Which it did. Last month I had all sorts of new hair that had grown in and was all sorts of weird lengths so I cut off 4 inches. It is now growing out again. EVEN MORE FULLER THAN PRIOR TO SURGERY. Hope to get it back down to my waist again. Will take 2-3 years. I will wear 100% human hair extensions occasionally just to change my look… as you know I love to do.
Thankful that over the past 20 years I have grown up so much. A totally different person than I was. Wisdom and knowledge is such a blessing. So grateful for the people who helped me get to the point I am now in life. Doubly Blessed in that Department.
Have so much peace and serenity today. Thank all of you for the well wishes and prayers. Getting a decent nights sleep helped tremendously.
Haven’t heard from a few friends… hope I didn’t say or do something to offend them. IF I did I apologize. I miss them. SAD.
Hope Rosie feels well enough to go to the Mall in Knoxville. Plans are to eat at Mimi’s Cafe. Have a coupon for Buy an Entree get one FREE!
I am planning on wearing a black floral short dress tomorrow with black pantyhose and black knee-high boots. I have a pink cardigan to wear IF it is cold. Will probably do full makeup. Maybe even add false eyelashes. Depends IF I have time. I have to get up at 7 am. My bedtime has bed 4 am or later for weeks. Hope to get to bed by 11-12 tonight.
Sending much love to everyone. Pray that everyone in the world has LOVE, Serenity, Health, and knows and LOVES GOD.
Rosie had a bad day. Diarrhea, Nausea, and Vomiting. Still having swelling and pain in her abdomen. Hate seeing her be so miserable. She sees her surgeon on Wednesday.
My moods fluctuated wildly today. So worried about Rosie.
Did get in an hour of housework. Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia sucks.
Didn’t get to see John tonight. Pray he is feeling better. Poor Baby.
Missing some of my friends. Pray that they are doing well.
With Rosie going through good days and bad days since her gastric bypass (June 26th, 2011) is really taking its toll on me. I have to do more since she feels so bad. Hasn’t been on her laptop, netbook or PC in over a week now.Yep, Rosie and I have our own laptop and netbook but we share the PC.
I get thrilled when she is feeling good and then severely depressed when she isn’t.A ROLLER COASTER OF EMOTIONS!
Haven’t slept well in over a week. May get in 2 straight hours at a time. Frustrating but Rosie needs my assistance with so many things.
Hope to get all dolled up for our trip to Knoxville on Wed. Hope to take some new pics.
Missing my family in WV but will see them soon as Rosie feels better. Will stay at Twin Falls in a cabin.
Hope that I can sleep 4 straight hours tonight. Would make me feel so much better.
Sending love to all my readers. Thanks for your prayers, support, and words of encouragement.
Well, Rosie is doing ok. Has a blood clot in her left leg. It has been swollen and painful. It is only superficial.
Her umbilical hernia has been repaired twice in 10 years. It will be repaired again on Monday at ParkWest Hospital, and she will be also having a tummy tuck. She has lost 15″ off her waist now. Dropped over 175 lbs. She even has lost 3″ off her neck. She has had a few good days. Her intestines are poking out from the hernia. Looks weird…. you can see it move and all. It causes her to have nausea. She has actually ate the past few days. She goes days without much nutrition at all. Just doesn’t want to eat. Hoping the hernia repair makes her less nauseous. I love her so much. She can now wear size 8-9 panties! Smallest shirt has been a 14.
She will be fitted for a new electric wheelchair in June. She is so excited. Her current chair sucks! Gonna try and see IF she will fit in our Mom’s old electric wheelchair tomorrow. Hope she can. It would be much more comfy for her. She has been wheelchair bound since she was 16. Can’t walk at all. She can stand for about 10 sec. Rosie will be 45 in May. She is perhaps the happiest person I have ever met. Proud to call her my best friend and My Sissy!
Had another CT SCAN on my tummy and nothing abnormal was found. Even though I have not lost any additional weight My waist is down to 35″ now. Was 40. Guess I am STILL Shaping up. I have lost 110 lbs. My hips are 38″ without measuring the excess skin hanging from my tummy. Smallest dress I have worn is a 10. I am gonna lose a few more pounds and somehow TRY to get my insurance to pay for a tummy tuck. WISH ME LUCK!
Still having aches and pains from Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia. Shoulders, Thighs, Knee’s, Elbows, Hands and Feet. Seems that will never change. Insomnia is not as bad. TRIED sleeping without my sleep meds the other night. Finally gave in and took em at 6:30 am and slept like a babe. Wish I didn’t get so tired, so easily.
I have made a few more friends via Twitter and Facebook. Some I consider dear friends. I am blessed. Panic attacks have lessened. Doing my best to become more outgoing. Being more receptive to men.
Sending special prayers to Brandy, John, Dreama, Bret, Shane, Chrissy, Stephen, Janna, Russell, Carmen, Rebecca, Terri, Sara, Becky, Charles, Shay, Blake, JR, Sue, Earlene, and Rick.
♥ LOVE U ALL ♥
I know that this year will be MY YEAR!
My moods swings have stabilized for now.
I started allergy shots a few weeks ago.
Still close to John. He gives me so much support, encouragement and serenity.
I am more confident than ever. I even go out grocery shopping without any makeup.
Receiving lots of attention from the male species. Loving it. Receiving just as many flirts when I have no makeup on as I do with full Drag-Queen makeup.
Grateful that I don’t look 46. Some people think I am in my early 20′s….. love that!
I cut Rosie’s hair in a medium length shag. First time we curled it was tonight. Can’t wait to see the results tomorrow.
Plan are to go to West Virginia in March. All depends on Rosie’s recovery.
Dad is taking THE BOYS “Smoki and Snickers” everywhere we go”.
Tater Bug
Jazzi
Punkin
Our life is good and is only gonna get better!
Hopefully over the next few months we will be able to share some very exciting news and changes happening in Our lives. We have High Hopes.
After 17 years of celibacy I have decided to date!
Praying for wisdom, guidance and patience.
I am also becoming more extroverted online and in the real world.
Been blessed to be making more friends online. I am actually messaging a few male friends back now. MAJOR ADVANCEMENT !
BUCKET LIST:
Date Again!
See the ocean.
Fly in a plane.
Get my passport.
Get married again.
Use all the gifts God gave me.
Be more supportive of everyone… except Republicans. LOL!
Be more compassionate.
Be more outgoing.
Stop having social anxiety and panic attacks.
Get use to talking on the phone without having a panic attack.
Get healthier.
Smile more.
Help those less fortunate.
Be more patient.
Be more vocal online.
Lose more weight.
Make new friends.
I have a few men that I am interested in. Just wanting for them to make a move. Having all kinds of men flirt with me online and reality… I am now trying to FLIRT with guys in person. Social Anxiety Sucks!
I am so proud of Rosie. She has lost 175 lbs now. She will be able to get fitted for a new wheelchair in July! Rosie only weighs 35 lbs more than me now. Looking great! You go sis! Rosie is wearing size 20-22 jeans now.
I am down to size 10-12 in jeans. Down from a 26. WOO-HOO.
Rosie and I both are now getting allergy shots.
Thinking about talking to my family doc about my mood swings.
May even start seeing a shrink again.
Wish Rosie would not have so much nausea and vomiting. She even had a dizzy spell today.
Having fibromyalgia aches and pains.. plus Fibro Fog. I hate the mental confusion it creates. Not thinking clearly. Seems like I think in slow-mo. HATE IT!
Enjoying my new puppy. SnickerDoodle, he is a BLONDE Long haired Miniature Dachshund, who worships me!
Snickers gets along with all our pets: Smoki, Jazzi, Punkin, Panther and Tater.
Snickers loves going bye-bye.
Smoki and Snickers love baskin-robbins ice cream. Take them every few weeks.
My Best friend John has been having health issues. I am worried about him. Pray that he gets better and that he sleeps well.
I have been wearing short skirts, pantyhose and knee high leather boots. I have fabulous legs! Bet I tried on 20 pairs of boots till I found one to fit my skinny legs.
I layered my hair a few weeks ago and can’t believe how wavy it is naturally.
Haven’t had much sleep lately. Rosie wakes me up a few times nightly. Tummy issues. Pray that I get some decent sleep tonight.
Praying for the man I was created for, the one God designed for me. I KNOW you are out there waiting for me. Thinking of me. Praying for me. Maybe we already know one another. Grant US both wisdom, guidance, & patience. Open up our hearts, minds, souls, and spirits to recognize each other when the time is right. Happy about my future. I know it is gonna be a good one!
I believe that God speaks and gives signs to some people… I pray that this night that God speaks to me and/or to my helpmate. Let US know. Comfort us. Give us patience. Let US Dream of one another.
Hope to travel to WV to see my family in a few weeks. I love and miss them dearly.
I am so proud of my sissy Rosie… She has lost 170 lbs in the last year. She is only 40 lbs away from my weight now. Just wish she didn’t have nausea so often. Praying for her.
I am still having bloating, gas, left quadrant pain, diarrhea alternating with constipation. Dr Boyce got my insurance to approve an abdominal CT scan.. It is scheduled on Tuesday. IF It shows what Dr Boyce expects he will be able to correct the roux-en-y surgery and help me lose additional weight. would love to lose 50-75 additional pounds. I am still over 200lbs. Barely but still! Wearing a size 12 now.
Love all the new male attention. I have a slew of online male suitors. Hoping one in particular asks for my phone number.Had a gorgeous man from Atlanta interested in me…. but he turned out to be a jerk. Have so many young BOYS wanting to get to know me better. I will only date men over 40. Not interested in any man who is under 40 at all. I have a few online personal ads… all state you must be a SINGLE/DIVORCED Male, a Christian, a Democrat, and over 40. Must love family, movies, music, pets and traveling. Other than that I am pretty open to talking to a man.
John and I are still very close. We will always be close…. but both know and accept the fact that we will never be together.
I am tired. Hope to update more on what has been happening in our lives later this week.
My sis Rosie had her 3 month Gastric Bypass Checkup. Since Feb she has lost over +125 lbs. She only weighs 66 lbs more than me now. You go Sis! Just wish her nausea would dissipate. Her hernia wound has healed enough and was told she can now start aquatic therapy!!! Woo-Hoo! Calling the Boy and Girls Club as well as Jefferson Community Pool tomorrow. Hope to start on Monday. LIFE IS GOOD!
I saw Dr. Stephen G. Boyce, who did Rosie’s gastric bypass surgery, today. I am having him investigate my continuing gastro-intestinal issues that has bothered me ever since I had my roux-en-y on Sept 14th, 2009. He has a few theories on why I only lost 50 or so pounds from the roux-en-y surgery. I should have lost 100+ lbs. Theories are my pouch should be smaller: 15 ml and not 30ml. More of my intestines need bypassed. Scar tissue. Bowel Kink.
I am having an abdominal CT Scan on Nov 1st.
*IF* it is what Dr Boyce thinks it may be, I will have to undergo another Laparoscopic surgery and I should be able to lose more weight. My BMI is still 35.3. Still OBESE!
Still suffering from upper left quadrant abdominal pains, bloating, gas and diarrhea. Severe at times.
Just hoping that some of Dr Boyce’s theories show up on the CT scan and that I can have another lap surgery and get on my way to a healthier life. He hopes it is due more to my lower bowel area than a problem with my upper stomach region. Lower gastrointestinal prob will be much easier to fix… than an upper one.
He is starting me on flagyl and was suggesting Cholestyramine till I told him I was already on Welchol. They are in the same family of meds. I have tired Cholestyramine in the past unsuccessfully.
I had gastric bypass to help me get off some of my meds. Well, I am off insulin but now on 3 NEW meds for my stomach issues!!! My current med list:
Atenolol Heart Rate/Blood Pressure Bentyl Irritable Bowel Buspar Social Anxiety Cymbalta Depression/Fibromyalgia/ CMT Loperamide Irritable Bowel Lortab Chronic Fatigue//Fibromyalgia Meta-Glip Diabetes/Insulin Resistance Synthroid Hypothyroid Trazodone Depression/Insomnia Welchol Irritable Bowel Xanax Anxiety/Insomnia Fish Oil Multi Vitamin/Mineral Biotin IRON Probiotic Vitamin B Complex D3
I AM A WALKING PHARMACY! LOL!
I really need to lose weight to help with my Charcot Marie Tooth Syndrome “CMT” which I was recently diagnosed with.
CMT Morbus Charcot-Marie-Tooth, Charcot-Marie-Tooth neuropathy, hereditary motor and sensory neuropathy (HMSN), hereditary sensorimotor neuropathy (HSMN), or peroneal muscular atrophy, is an inherited disorder of nerves (neuropathy) that takes different forms. It is characterized by loss of muscle tissue and touch sensation, predominantly in the feet and legs but also in the hands and arms in the advanced stages of disease. Currently incurable.
I inherited it from my dad. My legs and feet are getting weaker. I have extremely high arches and claw toes. When I walk, all my weight lands on the balls of my feet and not evenly as it is suppose to. My feet are starting to turn outward. Have very tight Achilles tendons. Gluts and Quads are also too tight. I started therapy last week to help prevent further damage. I have had issues all my life with twisting my ankles, losing my balance, and falling. At least now I know there is a reason and not just my clumsiness! CMT is a Muscular Dystrophy disease.
Angela October 20th, 2011 Dr Boyce's Office.
Still desiring to lose 50-75 additional pounds… with Dr Boyce’s surgical mind, capable hands, and his wonderful compassion, coupled with my rejuvenated desire to lose more weight; I am sure it can be accomplished.
I have been exercising for 15-30 min a day. Using resistant bands, stretches, and isometrics. Hope to go to aquatic aerobics 2-3 times a week. I will have to rise and shine by 7 am on the days we go… Just have to start getting my rump in bed earlier than the 4 am I am accustomed to.
I am so tired today. Got up at 8 am. Now my upper abdominal area is extended. Bloated horribly. Has been for a few hours. Miserable.
Went to Puleos in Strawberry Plains. I had a salad (greens, cheese, tomatoes, croutons, and cucumbers) homemade Italian dressing… I may have used 1 Tablespoon. Got stuffed after the salad and only had 3-4 bites of citrus chicken and 2 bites of sirloin. 3 bites of sesame noodles. One bite of bread.
I have known John for almost 4 years now. He and I text chat with video cam. No audio. I am just too shy… I finally made him a video of me taking to him with Audio. I have never made a video of myself until now.., BUT Damn I am so cute!!! Adorable. Sweet Southern Voice. John loved it! Gonna audio Chat with him LIVE this week. Think I have enough courage to do it. His step-grandsons (13 and 15) are out of school on Fall break and have been staying with him all week. Lucky to even see him on cam this week let alone TALK to him live… Hope to webcam chat with audio over the weekend.
We are heading out to pick up meds tomorrow and then gonna drive bye FrightMare Manor http://frightmaremanor.com/ to see how busy they are. It is about 2.5 miles from my house. Extremely popular attraction.
I am getting more confidence and self esteem. Feeling womanly. Dressing sexier. Receiving lots of male attention.
Been playing with makeup. Tried a few different looks this week. Some were nice… others.. eh… not so much. LOL!
I wore a black mini-dress. It is called Bandage Dress. Got it 2 years ago and finally wore it for the first time today. It is a size 16 but I could have easily worn it in a size 12. Really pleased with the way my legs looked today! Main body issue I hate is my saggy flabby tummy. Lots of loose skin there. My face is also sagging some. Been doing facial exercises and hope that it get taunter. I also have a few wrinkles on my forehead… but hell I look spectacular to be almost 46 years old! LOL!
October 20, 2011
Hoping to visit my West Virginia Family in a few weeks. Missing them all. Sending love and prayers to all of them especially to Brandy, Sara, Becky and MaShayla. Praying that Shay’s cat Zena comes home soon. Sending get well wishes to Aunt Earlene. We are hoping to stay in a Cabin At Twin Falls Resort… if one of the handicapped cabins is available the weekend we go in.
My snack tonight will be low fat mozzarella string cheese and a few red seedless grapes…. and then off to bed.
I had a burst of energy today and did housework for over an hour. I even cooked strip steaks and cinnamony sweet tater fries… but now I am hurting severely in my shoulders and thighs. UGH! I visit my rheumy tomorrow in regards to my fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, and insomnia.
I have an appt to see a podiatrist on Thursday. I have 4 open raw sore on my feet from a new pair of shoes. I am a diabetic and worry a lot when I even get s small scratch on my feet.
I had gastric bypass roux-en-y surgery 2 years ago.I see Dr Boyce, a gastric bypass surgeon, next week. Dr Boyce is checking to see why I lost only 50 lbs from the surgery. I should have lost 100 or more.
I lost 50 lbs PRIOR to surgery and then 50 lbs by my 6th month anniversary. I weighed the same for my 1 year and 18th month anniversary. I have lost additional weight the past few months but that is from me starving myself.
He has received my medical records from my surgeon Dr Mancini. I am hoping that Dr Boyce will order some tests to check out my stomach ‘pouch’ to see if it has stretched or if there is something wrong with the surgery. I am having some stomach issues. Pain in my left quadrant, severe diarrhea and gas. Even had 2 “accidents” the past few days. UGH! Thought that the welchol, bentyl and Imodium trio had cured that but I was wrong.
I have always felt something was not right with my surgery. I started complaining to Dr Mancini and his staff 2 weeks after I had surgery… I had some tests and all according to him they were normal… but I was having green diarrhea, and severe gnawing upper left quadrant pain. Eventually Dr Mancini did exploratory surgery and discovered that I had scar tissue. Repaired that. I felt better for a few days after that but I STILL have the same problems now.
I was not happy at all with losing just 50 lbs after undergoing MAJOR surgery. I should have lost 60-80% of my excess weight. I was 165-200 lbs overweight (depending on the insurance chart and body frame I should weigh anywhere from 115 to 155) when my journey started. I am STILL at least 50 lbs overweight!!! UGH!
John thinks I am getting too skinny. He suggests once I make my next goal weight being under 200, which I am only a few pounds away from, that I will stop ‘trying’ to lose weight.
I dream of weighing less than 175. I would be ok at that weight. But I would even be happier at 125!
Dad thinks I am too skinny now as well. MEN!
Just hoping and praying that Dr Boyce checks me out thoroughly and somehow helps me lose a few more pounds.
Bought a pair of fleece HALLOWEEN pants from Wally World… size MEDIUM 8-10… and they are too big on me…. loose and baggy. There is no way that a 200 lb woman should fit in a size small… I hate vanity sizing. According to these pants….I can only imagine how baggy a size small would be on a girl who is a size 2-4-6-8…since a medium is too big on me.
According to my measurements I am a 12/14 on the majority of sizing charts…. but once I put on clothing according to the size charts I realize that you can NOT believe them at all. Varied so much. There should be STANDARD measurements that all clothing manufactures should follow. I know I harp on this often … just a pet peeve of mine.
All the excess skin in my tummy region is driving me insane. So flabby and ugly… and painful. I end up with underbelly rashes often. Dr Melling has me on nystatin cream. Insurance won’t pay for the nystatin powder. I believe if I had a tummy tuck I could wear a size 8-10 easily.
Just hoping Rosie gets medical clearance so she and I can start water aerobics.
I KNOW I am in hyper mode and rambling.
I can be hyper and lucid one minute and the next minute I am incoherent with brain fog. UGH!
Sending my love and prayers to John. He was diagnosed with Tennis elbow. Poor baby is in so much pain that he hasn’t been sleeping well. Pray he sleeps well tonight.
Over the past few years so many wonderful and exciting changes have came into my life. Some I help create, some were surprisingly sprung upon me and some transformations that I never even knew I wanted suddenly came galloping into my life. Hope that the metamorphosis continues.
I currently weigh over 100 lbs less than my highest weight of 315 lbs. (I am STILL over 200 lbs.) Gastric Bypass “Lap Roux-En-Y” and a low carb and high protein diet helped me get to this point. I would love to lose 25-35 additional lbs. I was on that way to that goal when Rosie (my sissy) underwent her Gastric Bypass “Lap Biliopancreatic Diversion with Duodenal Switch” and her subsequent MRSA infections derailed my weight loss. I gained 4 lbs. in the last 2 months. I am one of those people who EAT carbs when stressed and having my baby sister so ill, whom I am a caregiver for, was extremely stressful for me… hence I ate way more carbs than a diabetic or a gastric bypass patient should. At times, I still do. Rosie had nausea and some vomiting today so I ate a bunch of Hershey miniature candies and 2 bananas.. Sugar is 272 as I type this. Should be 70-120.. So disappointed in myself but I am gonna gain control… I have to.
All week I have had so much energy… well spurts of it at least. Right now I am hyper. Will prolly clean the dining area prior to bed. So glad that I am having SOME energy since I have virtually none the majority of the time due to chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia. Thinking back it seems I ALWAYS feel better in Sept/October… wondering if the cooler weather benefits me more than hot weather does. I have never tolerated HOT weather. Hmmm… gonna have to move to a more temperate climate … sunny, mild and breezy sounds lovely… Hawaii sounds about right!
I have so many plans for my future. Really gungho. I am gonna lose those 25-35 NAGGING lingering pounds…. and when I do I am gonna go have a tummy tuck. I absolutely positively detest my saggy and baggy lose skin in my stomach Panniculus region. I bet I could wear a size 6 or an 8 jean if I didn’t have this excess skin! In stretch denim I can wear a size 12 now.
I was this same weight 20 years ago when I married and divorced Michael Patterson Hager, Jr. He and I married 20 Years ago on Sunday. Divorced shortly after. He was just a brain fart in my life. LOL! I can NOT believe I married such a low life and gave up my virginity to him. (yep I was a 25 year old virgin. I was NO ANGEL…. He and I did fool around some prior to the wedding but I saved the best for last) I honestly am such a different lady now… Not as naive.
Age, Wisdom, Time, and Growth go hand in hand.
There have been times when I have acted high and mighty towards others and said things I regret. Acted like I was better than they were and I wish I hadn’t. I ask those whom I did this to to forgive me. I am no angel. Have never been and will never be. I am HUMAN and make mistakes like everyone else does.
I am very shy around those that I don’t know very well… BUT those close to me know that in actuality, I can be flirty, bawdy, raucous, and even hilarious. I hate having social anxiety. It keeps me from forming relationships… online and in real life. It has been 17 years since I dated. Yes…. it will be…. SEVENTEEN Years…. on Nov 18th. I have a wonderful ONLINE ONLY friendship with John. Known him for almost 4 years now.
You would never know it from reading my journal or my postings online but I have a high Intelligence Quotient… major issue I have is saying something that makes me look like a fool… or worrying about hurting other peoples feelings…. I worry way too much about what other people THINKS about me. Oh yep… I am also snobbishly proud to be the QUEEN Of the Ellipsis… LOL!
I want “THE REAL ANGELA” to come across online and in reality. I wish everyone could see the Angela that my sis Rosie and My Friend John sees. That would be a major breakthrough. I am gonna attempt to accomplish that and many other goals. 2011 has only a few months left and in those few months they are gonna be some spectacular changes in me. My appearance has changed dramatically in the 2 years, since I had gastric bypass and now is the time for my personality to shine brilliantly…. like a diamond in the sky. Sparking. Twinkling. Radiantly. Everlasting.
My renewed faith is strong and I know I can do anything I set my mind to.
I have to thank my beloved John for helping me get to this point in my life. He is the greatest man I have ever known after my Daddy. He is always there for me. Supportive. Compassionate. Considerate. Helpful. Complimentary. He is a professional. Works for the Scottish Government. Wears suits and Ties. WOW.. I loved the way he looked tonight. Majority of the time I see him in sweats but the past few evenings he has been working late and came to our webcam chat in his business attire. Tonight was a black dress shirt and a black and white polka dotted tie. So spiffy. Fashionable. I adore that he is so intelligent. He loves computers as much as I do. Knowledgeable in so many varied subjects… so unlike all the other men I have loved. Yes LOVED> I love that rascal and he loves me. He and I will remain ONLY friends unless God has other plans but for now it is a friendship. A partnership. He and I are emotionally closer than the preponderance of husbands and wives. He and I support one another. Comfort each other. ‘GET’ one another. So happy that I replied to his message 4 years ago. I knew immediately he was different. He and I met at a BBW “Big Beautiful Woman” friendship site… which has since shuttered.
John has been having some problems with his arm/elbow after falling off a ladder last weekend. Having major trouble sleeping. Pray that he gets a good nights sleep. I can’t wait to see him tomorrow night.
I have been tidying up my bedroom so John and I can have a private talk. It has been a long time since we chatted in private. Maybe twice in the last 2 years. Have been chatting on my laptop in Rosie’s room. Been TEXT chatting only… hope to talk by phone/webcam chat this weekend. He only has been seeing my face on webcam…. This weekend I will let him see me and the weight I have since lost.
I am experiencing body issues. Nothing new…. I was 315 lbs when I met John… and I was actually more comfy with my body then than I am now. I used to be way more provocative back then. I miss that part of me. Lately I have been wearing short dresses and tighter clothes. Even dyed my hair back to the color it was 20 years ago when I weighed the same. BLACK hair just suits me better. Even been wearing human hair extensions and wigs. Gastric bypass caused me to lose some of my luxurious mane. I cut over 15″ off over a year ago to see if that would make it look fuller. It didn’t…. Still almost as thin. My hair is now 23″ long again. It was over 30″ prior to the bypass. Hope to get it that long again. It is very healthy. Shiny. Just straggly and scrawny. Especially in the front area. I am just thankful that they make decent and affordable hair extensions and wigs now. I do wear my own hair the majority of the time but it [...]
Rosie is doing great. She is having a ct scan with dye today. They hope to discover no more abscesses in her abdomen. Will prolly remove the drain to the abscess above her bladder. She can’t eat anything till after the CT scan. She is drinking dye mixed with Crystal Light Ice Tea. She says it is Yucky.
IF everything goes well she will get to go home tomorrow!!! YAY! Woo-Hoo!
They stopped the TPN feedings and fluids. Dr Adams (infectious disease doc) says Rosie will no longer need any antibiotics. So she hopefully, will no longer need a picc line.
I am praying all is well and that WE get to go home!!!
I had severe nausea for a few hours last night. Also having a sinus/allergy attack. Woke up at 4 am feeling really bad. Doing ok now.
Rosie’s White Blood Count is down to 20,000. YAY!!!!!!! That means her infection is improving! She is eating some bacon and cantaloupe for breakfast.
Doctor Boyce her gastric bypass surgeon (biliopancreatic diversion with duodenal switch) says she may get to go home in a few days!!!!! So happy. I love my sissy!!!
GOOD NEWS: The fistula to Rosie’s colon is healing on it’s own.
Rosie had 2 drainage tubes removed from her abdomen.
She had a cyst drained near her bladder. Sending off a culture to see what it is. Assume it is MRSA staph infection like the rest of them has been. She has a new drain that is connected to the bladder cyst area.
They added the antibiotic Invanz to her treatment.
Her hernia wound is healing and closing in.
Rosie is feeling great…. ate 2 slices of thin deli ham for her snack and a 2-3 oz of roast beef for supper.
I LOVE MY SISSY!
I had severe muscle aches in my thighs. Vicodin relieved it for awhile. Coming back… UGH!
Rosie is feeling pretty good this morn. She slept well last night.
BUT she needs a blood plasma transfusion prior to putting a drainage tube in a newly discovered mrsa abscess near her bladder. Have to get her PT and INR levels back to normal (she is on coumadin to prevent blood clots and her blood is too thin to do any surgery… (like aspirating and draining abscesses) prior to installing the drain tube. We will be here in the hospital all weekend and possibly longer.
It is our 15th straight day in the hospital. UGH.
I had a tossy and turny night. Achy thighs. Gonna rest most of the day. Chronic fatigue syndrome/Fibromyalgia sucks!
Rosie ate rice krispies and milk for breakfast …. kept it down. She did spit up clear foamy liquid after eating… but the food stayed down. Telavancin antibiotic causes foamy urine…. wondering if it also causing foamy vomiting.
Hope they can get her blood plasma levels back to normal quickly so they can drain that bladder abscess. I am sure she will feel better once they get rid of it. Still on Telavancin, Flagyl, fluids, Zoran, Phenergan , Domperidone and TPN feedings… as well as all her normal meds.
She sat up on the side of her bed to eat… She ate 5 strips of bacon and some mandarin oranges for breakfast. Mild nausea. Doing a CT Scan later today.
Hope that the MRSA abscess are gone and that they remove the 2 drainage tubes. Her GI test and KUB showed all is normal.
We are thinking her nausea and vomiting may be due to the high doses of antibiotics she is taking. Doc changed her antibiotics from Vancomycin to Daptomycin and now to Telavancin.
Rosie is not feeling well today. Is nauseous. Has no appetite. Vomiting. Cramping aches in her tummy. She is crying. Worried she will never get better. Trying to re-assure her. She is upset cause she felt wonderful yesterday and has went down so fast. I am sure her infection worsens during these down periods. Dr Adams changed her from Vancomycin to Daptomycin antibiotics via IV. I pray that it gets her infection under control So concerned about her. Hate seeing her so sick and crying. She had a rough night and just fell back to sleep. I am gonna take a nap. I have been sleeping on a chair that makes a bed… just a few feet away from her hospital bed. REALLY need your prayers. Thanks!
My sis Rose Lee Goode is not doing well. Nausea, vomiting, and diarrhea. Still in the hospital. On all sorts of meds, antibiotics, and IV feedings. Unable to eat. She feels so bad. I pray that God heals her quickly and totally. She has lost 53 lbs in 38 days. Please send healing prayers her way. THANKS!
Rosie has had nausea and vomiting all night and into this morn. Taking Zofran IV or it. Vomiting is either her meds or clear foamy liquids. Not vomiting any food. Also having diarrhea. Having pain in her 2 drain areas from the MRSA abscesses in her lower left side. She is on Lortab and morphine via IV.
Dr Boyce said Rosie had a small piercing from the abscess into her colon. Not sure why. But may be from the CT needle abscess fluid withdrawal. Or may be related to diverticulitis. He called it a possible fistula. Will be here in the hospital a few more days.
Wants her to EAT all she can today. She has some peanut butter and strawberry jelly so far. Gonna try some scrambled egg next.
Gonna get Dad to bring me some clothes. I have 3 dresses here which I have been hand washing in shampoo and hanging to dry in the shower. Dad is also bringing us Rosie’s protein shakes and vitamins. Wish he could Sneak in our Cairn Terrier. Smoki Poki Loki. He has been missing us so bad that he barely is eating. Rosie and I talk to Smoki and our cats Jazzi ( long haired Siamese Ragdoll mix), Tater ( Ginger Red Tabby), and Punkin (Siamese) by speakerphone a few times daily. They all come to listen to us. Dad says they all get so happy to hear our voices.
Wish we could talk to Panther and Daisy. Panther ( Large Black/Gray Cat) is our outdoor cat. He is a stray cat and has taken up with us. He has been with us for almost 2 years now. For the last 6 weeks we have had a big stray dog outdoors whom we named Daisy . She is painfully thin and Dad is feeding her. Seems so sweet.
Gonna head to the cafeteria now. Getting bored with food now. UGH.
Rosie had a good night. Feeling well today. Eating fairly well.. would do so much better IF the food was palatable. She had a scrambled egg, strawberry jelly, and milk for breakfast.
Dr Boyce ( gastric bypass surgeon) and Dr Adams (infectious disease doc) has visited Rosie this morn. Boyce is aiming for Rosie to get released by the weekend. Dietician needs to add up her protein intake and report to him. He has ordered another abdominal ct scan to check for inflammation and abscess of her tummy. Dr Adams is ordering her IV vancomycin for home use as well as flagyl orally.
Rosie has had very minor nausea the past few days and has kept ALL her food and fluids down. Praise God.
She sat up for an hour in her wheelchair yesterday. Aiming for 90 min today.
She is still receiving TPN nutrition feedings by IV. I assume they will continue for a few days once she arrives back home.
We are not certain of Rosie’s highest weight but assume she has lost around 100 lbs so far. She is still weak and does not set up straight. So the weight loss is not that noticeable yet. Once she can sit up better and wear clothes other than extremely loose garments( due to her hernia wound and her MRSA drain tube) all her weight loss will be greatly visible. She was wearing size 32/34 pants. Prior to surgery she was down to a size 24. She has lost 40+ lbs since so I assume she will be able to wear even smaller pants as soon as the wounds heal. She has a new wardrobe at home waiting for her. We purchased all sorts of clothes prior to surgery. She has some really sexy clothes. My sis is gonna be a skinny minny SLUT! LOL.. Just like her sis. LOL.
My chronic fatigue syndrome has a major flare-up. So tired. Really severe shoulder… thigh… hip… aches and pings. I slept so-so last night. Gonna take a nap with Rosie shortly.
Rosie is up every 90 min to urinate at night. She uses a bed pan. The nurse assistants take care of it at night and I do it during the day.
Been having panic attacks. Just stressed and feeling lonely. Missing John. Even though we text and email daily I haven’t seen him LIVE on cam. He is gonna go on a holiday to Spain with his sis. Gonna miss him even more.
I am hoping Rosie gets released tomorrow.
Thanks for all your prayers, support and well wishes.
Rosie had gastric bypass 35 days ago. On the day after surgery she weighed 339. Today she weighs 298. A loss of 41 lbs. On her first weigh-in at the surgeon she weighed 390 (Feb 2011). So she is down 92 lbs now. Wow! So proud of her. Just hope she can start eating and KEEPING food and liquids down. She kept her breakfast down.
For lunch she had 1 oz of pureed turkey and gravy (looked disgusting) and 1 oz of peanut butter. Rosie says the turkey was YUCK! She would have ate more if it was ANY GOOD! I am certain she will be able to eat more at home. She should be eating about 4 oz at a meal with Protein Shakes for snacks.
Gonna go down to the cafeteria and get Dad some fruit. Gonna see what foods they may have down there that Rosie will eat. She is so finicky.
Thanks for your prayers.
Please keep Rosie in your thoughts and prayers. Doctors tell me she still has a way to go to get well.
Rose’s EGD was normal. No blockage. No ulcer. No Stricture. Wilhoite is gonna try another anti-nausea med to see if that helps. I think getting rid of the mrsa will help her nausea the most. Nausea is only mild today.
She has lost another 6 lbs!!! So she has now lost 37 lbs since July 27th, 2011. Not bad sissy!
Resuming Liquid diet this afternoon.
Keep those well wishes and good thoughts coming our way. THANKS!
Rosie is scheduled for a Esophagogastroduodenoscopy at 1:30 today.
She slept ok last night. She has no nausea today. Just sleepy. She is on IV fluids and needs to urinate every 60-90 minutes so she is awake frequently during the night.
I had a good nights rest about to go clean up and head down for some breakfast.
Rosie got weighed in the hospital bed and she has lost 31 more lbs since surgery. So proud of her. She is delighted. She has lost around 90 lbs since February!!!
She is attempting to take protonix (tummy med) orally. Will see how it goes.
I had BBQ chicken, Mashed Taters, Broccoli, and Cucumbers for my dinner. Have enough leftovers for 2 more meals. They give you way too much food!!!
I am having an allergy attack. UGH!
Just took some vicoden and hopefully my leg and shoulder pains will subside. TIRED.
