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Rosie had a good day.She spoke to her nurse and all her labs have improved since February. She is scheduled for her 1st colonoscopy: Monday the 26th. She is high risk so the prep is not as bad as most. Miralax 2-3 times Friday/Saturday with a Low Residue Diet. On Sunday, clear fluids and Miralax 4 times. She doesn’t need an enema nor has to drink the gallon of that nasty stuff! I have had 5 colonoscopies. Diagnosed with Irritable Bowel Syndrome and Diabetic Gastroparesis. :-(
Took Dad to Capt D’s for his 71st birthday. Coconut Shrimp.
Went grocery shopping. Rosie has put me on a diet. Got all healthy foods today. Fruits, Veggies, Protein!
My sugar was down to 248 this am. I increased my metaglip from 2.5 to 5 mg twice a day yesterday. Went to 7.5 mg tonight. Will continue on that to see how my sugar levels reacts. Really not wanting to go back on insulin nor being attached to an insulin pump all the time but I may HAVE to.
Got home from shopping… just had sat down when I heard a loud noise. Seems Tater and Jazzi (our cats) had knocked down Dad’s 32″ Flatscreen TV in his bedroom… it comes on but the screen has lines all over it!!! It is only 9 months old and….. Looks like he will be buying a new one. BOO! Was hoping Dad would be buying him an Ipad for me to borrow…. looks like that may not happen now. AARDVARK!
I am feeling better today than I have in months. Grateful for that. Must have been high sugar levels dragging me down.
Just wish my fibro aches and pains would subside. Still feels like I have a ton of elephants pushing down on my shoulders. Even been having chest tightness lately. Still having balance issues. My hip has given out on me a few times recently.
My boys Smoki and Snickers are adoring the warm weather. Love going bye-bye with us. They are such a hoot. RIDING THE WIND. I had 4 of my boys in bed when I fell asleep last night.. Tater, Jazzi, Smoki, and Snickers…. all in a twin (single) bed.
Hope to dye my hair tomorrow…. Rosie’s too.
Dogs need bathed. They smell like DOG!
Just wish I had a man to take care of me. SO JEALOUS OF OTHERS WHO DO.
I am such a great person. Full of compassion with tons of love that I willing to share.
I KNOW MY HELPMATE IS OUT THERE SOMEWHERE! Just praying that he and I discover one another. TRYING to wait… just so hard at times. Just need someone to cuddle with, SHAG with, confide in, share life and all its experiences with. SCARED that I am always gonna be an old maid. I know that my predestined mate is out there. Perhaps even will read this blog entry…
I am asking The Lord Jesus Christ to guide my soulmate and I together. Let him know that I am the woman your created for him. I know all things are possible with God. I surrender my future love and myself to God. I know he and I will do great things together. I just know it! Bring me into his life and I into his.
God I admit and confess ALL my sins. FORGIVE ME. I know I should be doing more for You. Guide me to what I need to do for you. USE ME!
First about Rosie. Today she saw Dr Wilhoite a gastro-enterologist. She is scheduled to have a colonoscopy on Monday: March 26th. She had a very bad morning and afternoon. Thank God she is now feeling better. Doc ONLY wants Rose to do a 3 day miralax prep. She is going to ask for respite hours from her Home Health Aide’s to help with the colonoscopy prep. That will relieve some of my stress.
Prior to Gastric Bypass (9-14-2009) I was on an insulin pump to control my diabetes. After 18 months I was able to go off insulin and on to metaglip PILL for my sugar. It WAS working well. I USED to test my glucose levels 5-6 times a day. Which I did religiously for 20 years. Since Rosie had Gastric Bypass (7-23-2011) I have been neglectful and rarely tested my glucose levels. I know I need spanking!!! Rose has been so sick and that makes me so stressed. I checked today and my glucose was 405 when 70-120 is the goals set my my doctor. I took 2 metaglips pills and it dropped to 287. Most people are extremely ill when it passes 250 or so. I just have been more fatigued than normal. Going to go back on insulin tomorrow. Gonna call my Endocrinologist and perhaps even go back on the insulin pump. Stress has always raised my sugar levels. As does infections.
I had a dream about MR HANDSOME the other night. We had a huge wedding with family and friends. It was gorgeous. After the wedding, Mr Handsome stood up and started laughing and saying it was all a prank and that he would never marry a FAT ASS like me and proceeded to kick me out of his house. I woke up…
Seems like I am not worthy of being loved. Just need a reassuring hug tonight.
I pray to have more faith, patience, compassion, self-esteem and confidence. I am lacking in those categories.
I pray that John’s wife Jan starts feeling better. Missed seeing him tonight. Hope to chat tomorrow via webcam tomorrow.
Today is my Daddy’s 72nd Birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!
Gonna take him out for lunch @ Capt D’s. Will take him out on Thursday to Red Lobster in Pigeon Forge. Both are faves of his.
Went to Rack Room Shoes. I got 2 pairs of bjorndal sandals.
Went to TJ Maxx but didn’t buy anything.
Went to Office Max. Rosie got a touch pen for her new Ipad.. will be here on the 16th. My laptop is touch screen so I am having a blast! Also purchased some gel INK Pens.
We ate at The Davy Crockett Restaurant, choose a meat Plus 2-3 sides… all under $9.99 Sides includes salads as well as Banana Pudding.
Rosie got the Open Faced Roast Beef Sandwich, Mashed Taters and Banana Pudding. She has not touched the nana pudding and has enough Roast beef for 2 more meals!
Dad got the sirloin, slaw, brown beans and Nana Pudding. He brought ALL of the sirloin home for our dogs!
I had the country fried steak. Ate about 1/3 of it and brought the rest home for the Boys (Snickers and Smoki). Mashed Taters, Side Salad (Country French Dressing) and Nana Pudding.
Smoki and Snickers went out with us. Dad stayed in the Van with the boys as we shopped.
I am THRILLED that Rosie is feeling so much better. She is back to her boisterous funny self… Thank God. I missed her. Love seeing her enjoying food. Been a long 7.5 months (Gastric Bypass) since she actually wants to eat and is able to enjoy it. BLESSED.
Going to pack clothes this weekend. Heading to West Virginia Next Sunday. Hoping to meet all of my West Virginia family at the new Arby’s in Pineville around 3 pm Sunday the 18th.
Pineville does NOT even have a McDonald’s. Closest McDonald’s is 13.48 miles away!
Closest Wal-Mart is 24.67 miles
Pineville does have a Dairy Queen now.
Going to call my Aunt Mattie and Uncle Harold (Springfield, OHIO) and let them know we are heading to Pineville. Hope they can meet us there.
Going to bleach Rose Lee’s Hair and Dye it a brighter red for Spring.
Dyeing mine Jet Black. Also going to cut some Bangs / Fringe to hide the wrinkles on my forehead. Yes, I do have wrinkles!
ALLERGIES are killing me. Sneezing. Breaking out in rashes when I go outside. Itching all over. Ear Tickles. Inflammation on my forehead. Sinus/Allergies Sucks!
Getting OLDER Sucks even-more-so.
Realizing that I let 46 years pass away without LIVING it.
Pray that I overcome my shyness. I want to have a bubbly, sparkling, boisterous personalty… I wish I could talk to men without having a panic attack. Wish I was able to be flirty. I just don’t have the confidence I wish I had. Always worried about something.
I still have Social anxiety.. afraid I am saying the wrong things. That I am bothering people. etc.
I am able to talk to gay men without any problem. Or I talk to men who live thousands of miles away so I won’t have to deal with them in person.
I Pray that I can start communicating with Straight Single men who live in Tennessee. Afraid of getting my heart broken again.
I have NEVER even had a girlfriend to talk with. No friends in School… I had few friends @ School but they never came to my house and I never went to theirs. Never called and spoke on the phone… etc
Rose Lee is my best friend and Sissy.
John is my best male friend. He lives 3,500 miles away from here. Friends Only.
I have some friends online. Just acquaintances. I would love to be able to have friends in my life. Someone to hang out with. Do things with, etc Laugh with. Cry With.
John is the only one who sees me cry. I share everything, all my thoughts, worries, anxieties. He knows me very well.
I bet I went 20 some years where I CRIED every single night. Feeling so lonely. I still cry on occasion but not like I use to.
I would LOVE to have a man to call me…not sure if I am ready.. I am getting there.
I have personal ads at a slew of websites. Get mail on a daily basis. Just don’t know which one I should write back so I don’t reply to any of them.
Asking God to guide me to the men, that will enhance my quality of life. Someone who will bring out the BEST in me. Someone who is Compassionate, Patient, Family Oriented and someone wants to help the less fortunate and who also adores animals.
I know the man God designed me for is out there praying to meet me. Praying for my family. I pray for that man every day and I have for 30 years. I know God wants me to have a helpmate. A Lover. A Friend. Praying that he enters my life soon.
I surrender my will to God’s will for my life.
Please Pray that God will help me overcome all my insecurities.
I Pray for confidence, the words to help encourage and bless others.
Use my smile to show God’s love to the world.
God, Here I Am.. Use me anyway you see fit. I am willing.
God Help me Help others.
I know I have it in me to overcome anything and everything that is holding me back from my full potential.
Change my personality Dear Lord… Make me bubbly, friendly, well spoken, and kinder.
Make me selfless.
Give me the words that people need to hear.
USE ME.
Please USE ME Lord.
I surrender.
Ready to change.
Change starts NOW!
I pray for everyone who read this .
I pray for everyone in the world to be nicer to one another.
Rosie and I went out to grocery shop after taking the boys for a drive through the countryside. Rosie got ill in the store and we had to leave. Diarrhea and vomiting. Believe me I have done nothing but clean up both ever since she had gastric bypass surgery on 7-24-11. She also had major cramping below her navel region. Wanted to take her to the ER but she wanted to come home and let me clean her up first. Well, we did that. She had no fever and decided to wait till tomorrow. We have been to the ParkWest Hospital ER 5 times since 7-24-11 with her having nausea, vomiting and diarrhea. Took 3 ER visits to get them to admit her. Finally got an ER doc that would listen!!!!!
She had MAJOR case of MRSA abscesses in her stomach and spent 21 days in the hospital. The Last visit was 10 days ago…..her vitals, ct scan and labs were normal. They couldn’t do complete labs since she is a difficult stick. They SHOULD HAVE tried more times than they did. UGH!
She’s had 2 hernia repairs since GBS “Gastric Bypass Surgery” One in August 2011 and another in Feb 2012. After the most recent repair she got SEVERE DIARRHEA! I should know since I am her caregiver and it has been BAD! YUCK. She has had NO APPETITE since GBS. Was on TPN Feedings for 2 months. She has not ate a handful of food in weeks. She is weak. Has significant bruising on her body. I am sure she is dehydrated and malnourished.
We are heading to University of Tennessee Emergency Room tomorrow and NOT Parkwest Hospital.
Rosie NOW has a fever of 100.6. Giving her a Tylenol.
I just pray that we get a good ER doc who will investigate all her issues she is having.
I am taking enough clothes and toiletries for a few weeks. Sure they will admit her. Dad is gonna MAKE THEM! She is obviously sick. She has lost over 200 lbs in 13 months! Just so scared and worried about her. Stressed out to the max. All she has ate today is 1 1/2 deli thin ham slices and 1/2 slice of cheese. She has only drank about 20 OZ of fluids. Just not able to drink or eat much.
PRAISE GOD for all my friends in Scotland, Tennessee, and Texas. Don’t know what I would do without you. You all are a blessing. So glad I took a chance and decided to befriend all of you. You are GOOD PEOPLE!
My heart is beating too fast. Lump in my throat. UGH. Trying to relax.
Rosie took her phenergan and will soon be asleep. As soon as I know she is sound asleep I am going go to bed. EXHAUSTED.
Dad, Rosie, The Boys and I went to the Great Smokies Flea Market today. We took the Boys pet stroller which they both USED to fit in…. Snickers has grown so big that it was a tight fit. So Rosie bought a pet stroller than holds 4 small pets. Ended up selling the old Stroller to a lady for $20… she was thrilled to get it. It was a bargain. New stroller was $86
Rosie bought the boys new harnesses to go with the new collars she got earlier this week. So Snazzy!
Picked up some $1 jewelry items. I bought a long dress for $8 brand new. Rosie got her one as well.
Rosie woke up this morn and started vomiting as soon as she took her meds. Had nausea off and on all day. She fell asleep about an hour ago. Hope she wakes up feeling better.
Went to Capt. Gallery in Dandridge for Dinner. Rosie and I split the Ribeye, Jumbo Shrimp, Fried Zucchini and Salad. We have enough ribeye leftover to feed us both supper tomorrow. I also have some fried zucchini left over. YUM! Was gonna order some clam chowder but forgot to. Thank God.. I couldn’t have ate it. Was stuffed.
SnickerDoodle has been so protective of me this evening. Will not allow Smoki to come near me. Growling at him. Not sure why.
Need to find a dentist. Need a good cleaning and perhaps a filling. Want one closer to us than Dr. Frankie office.
Had a panic attack or hot flash… at the flea market. Was drenched head to toe with sweat for almost an hour. Skin was flushed. HATE IT.
Got home and my face is puffy. Wasn’t when I left. Not sure… but I bet it is allergy related.
Thinking about cutting bangs again. Not sure.
John adored my hair tonight. I rolled it with 1″ velcro rollers. Used tons of ‘em. Looked so feathery and shiny.
Rosie is craving an Hawaiian Ice so we are going on an excursion to find one tomorrow. Wish us luck.
Had issues with my balance today. Almost fell flat on my butt twice today. Just unsteady. Really need to get an injection in my right hip as Doc Kouser wanted to do.
SO HAPPY for my friends in Nashville. Good things are heading their way. Movie is being made by Universal based on their lives. INSPIRATIONAL! Blessed to have them in my life. I love em all. Hope that one day we can meet one another.
Just realized I haven’t taken my meds tonight.. Oops… BRB. Took em.
I haven’t taken my vitamins/minerals/supplements in a week or so. Gonna start back.
Also I have been naughty…. Been consuming way more carbs that I should. Makes me feel sluggish. I should know better but Carbs are so comforting to me.
Will prolly be going to West Virginia on Friday. Hope the large handicapped cabin at Twin Falls State Park is available. May have to change the day we go. We LOVE that cabin cause so many of our WV family can stay with us. :-)
Having aches and pains. May have to increase my dosage on my pain meds back to what the doc wants me to take. Tried to lower them and OUCH!
Dad was in a great mood this afternoon. Thank God cause sometimes he is the grouchiest old man on earth. Dad attracts so many women. Always trying to pick him up. He does NOT look 71 at all. Still has all his hair and he is indeed handsome. HE DOES NOT WANT TO DATE ANYONE.
I do want to date YET I get no dudes trying to pick me up. NONE. Only man who has come up to me and asked me out was the man (Hager) that I married. Rest of the men I dated were through personal newspaper ads.Men may be interested in me and I am just tooo dumb and socially inept that I don’t recognize it. Ooops… One other man asked me out at church in 1991. He didn’t have a car nor a job so I politely declined.
I don’t go anywhere without Rosie. Only time I have been apart was during hospitalizations. Maybe 3-4 times I was gone for a few hours with Hager. I did spend 3 over night trips at Gary’s (aka WV Millionaire dude) house
The only time I ever went on a date ALONE with a man was my honeymoon night… Always had Rosie or they brought their friends along. I would love to have a man pick me up, bring me flowers and take me out just for dinner. Just Dinner is all I ask.
Only one man has sent me flowers and that was Steven Bryant Ward aka Poison98. I met him through a Poison Chat Room that he hosted. He and I had a cyber which progressed to a phone relationship for almost a year. We had planned on him flying in from Tulsa, Oklahoma to West Virginia to meet and he backed out the week we was coming to meet me. We ended up staying together for a few months after that. He sent me flowers for my birthday. I am a December babe and the flowers were sent in a unique green globe ornament vase. Still have it in my bedroom.
Goodness, I have missed out on so much in my life…. It is time for that to change!
I know I have a few men who reads my journal often. One is The Actor, Game Show Host, Mr Intelligence himself Stephen Fry! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stephen_Fry He says he is 90% gay and 10% straight. I have written him a few naughty PRIVATE (you have to follow one another to send PRIVATE messages on Twitter) flirtatious tweets and he always replies. I love an intelligent man who knows who he is and stands up for what he believes in… way more than a handsome one. But I do admire a handsome warm heart and soul.
I know that some awesome things are about to transpire in my life. Excited. Lord, I surrender prepare me for all the new adventures I am about to undertake!
We are gonna take the Boys: Smoki Poki Loki (Carin Terrier aka Toto dog) and SnickerDoodle Bug (Miniature long haired dachshund) for a Sunday drive through the country side. We have taken Sunday drives for as long as I can remember. So relaxing. Love to admire all the glorious beauty God has created. Well it is relaxing until Smoki sees cows, deers, goats. horses, rabbits, etc. Then all heck breaks lose. He goes nuts. Barking. UGH! But what is even worse is when it is raining and we have the windshield wipers on… Smoki dives into the dashboard after them. UGH! And I am even holding him and his leash! Snickers and Smoki enjoyed having the window down today….As Bret Michaels wrote, “RIDE THE WIND, Never coming back till I touch the midnight sun.” I sing that to the Boys and they go bonkers cause they know I am about to roll down the window!
Asking the Lord Jesus Christ to help me SAY NO TO CARBS! Praying for energy to do more things. Chronic fatigue is debilitating. UGH. I am gonna do at least 30 min of household chores daily. Asking God for the willpower to do more things without pain and to control my appetite. I SURRENDER.
My cousin Brandy found 6 puppies dropped off on a country road in WV. They are so cute. She is keeping one and going to find homes for the others. Pray they all received loving homes. Looks like part German Shepherd.
When 9-11-01 happened I was seeing a psychiatrist prior to it happening. It was so difficult to deal with. A few months after it happened My shrink made me promise not to read or watch news about it. Still upsetting to me. Now all these tornadoes, hurricanes, natural [...]
I have been missing my mom so much.Been over 5 years since she passed. Dream of her nightly. She was such a blessing to all those who knew her. I LOVE MY MOMMY!
Glad that my Dad is doing well. He will be 71 in March. He has done so much for Rosie and I. I am so grateful for all he does.
Almost 3 am and everyone here is sound asleep except for me. I stay up late most nights. Rarely get in bed prior to 2 am.
Rosie and I watched ZOOKEEPER tonight. It was so-s0.
May go to the cinema’s this week if Rosie feels like it.
Everything is so convenient to us here. We are blessed to live on 2 acres, in a nice brick ranch home. Live with-in 40 min of Knoxville… that is when I drive.
Hope Rosie wakes up with her edema gone. Poor baby felt bad this evening. Running a 99 fever. She normally runs around 96-97. Hope she does not end up in the hospital this week. Been so stressed and worried about her. Hate seeing her in so much pain. So happy that she is at least eating again. Had been almost 4 months since she has enjoyed eating without nausea and vomiting.
Rosie wore my red size large sweater today. She is getting skinnier by the day. She will get weighed on Wednesday. I bet she has dropped 20 more pounds. Gonna be thinner than me soon.
Dad, Rosie and I ended up at O’Charleys after grocery shopping. Rosie and I split the steak and shrimp. Rosie ate one shrimp and about 3 oz steak. Nothing else.
I had 3 shrimp and an ounce of steak. Only had 3 spoonfuls of the tater soup. They brought me enough Caesar salad to feed an army. Ate only about a cup. Was stuffed. The Boys had plenty of leftovers from us, including prime rib from Dad.
Got a lot of bargains at the grocery store. Dad and I are having coconut shrimp tomorrow. Rosie is having her fave fish : orange roughy. Cooking roasted corn, roasted asparagus and perhaps a tater dish. Fresh Strawberries for Dessert. YUM YUM
Rosie and I need to hit the mall this week to see what is on sale. Needing some new short dresses or skirts. Adoring my legs.
Didn’t get to webcam with John tonight. He was expecting a storm so he is prolly without power. He has been feeling so bad for almost a year. Back, Shoulder, and Elbow issues. Lately he’s had a toothache. Pray that he is sleeping well tonight. Hoping he is warm and toasty. He is my baby Love. We are soul-mates. He has helped me become the lady I am today. I am gonna make him a new video of me. That always makes him feel better.
Haven’t heard from SJ or RH today. Hope they are relaxing and enjoying life. They both work too hard. Sending prayers their way.
Gonna holler for my babies: Snickers, Smoki, Jazzi, Punkin and Tater and head to my bedroom. Most nights I have 3-4 of em in bed with me. I stay in Rosie’s room till 2-3 am encase she needs me. We have a phone intercom system if she needs me while I am asleep.
Nurses and Doctors both failed at getting an IV started. Last I heard they were putting in a central line. She is in holding, Surgery should be starting any minute. She is having laparoscopic umbilical Hernia repair ONLY. No tummy tuck. If things go as planned. Surgery will take about an hour. She may even get to go home this afternoon. I am hopeful. She was feeling so nauseous this morn. Weak and tired… Hoping the hernia repair will take care of all her issues. I love my sissy.
I have had a panic attack for almost an hour. I am drenched with sweat. Finally calming down, still having the shakes.
Praying that the surgery goes as planned and Rosie gets to come home today. That would be awesome. I bought enough clothes and snacks for a 3 week stay… which is what it was last time. Don’t have your Dad pick out clothes to bring you! LOL! Last time he brought clothes that were too big for me or some of the clothes I wear to piddle around the house. UGH!
I don’t have computer access to facebook nor twitter. Hospital has it blocked. :-(
I posted a message by phone to facebook and one to twitter earlier this morn. Not sure if they went through or not.
Rosie has had nausea and vomiting all night and into this morn. Taking Zofran IV or it. Vomiting is either her meds or clear foamy liquids. Not vomiting any food. Also having diarrhea. Having pain in her 2 drain areas from the MRSA abscesses in her lower left side. She is on Lortab and morphine via IV.
Dr Boyce said Rosie had a small piercing from the abscess into her colon. Not sure why. But may be from the CT needle abscess fluid withdrawal. Or may be related to diverticulitis. He called it a possible fistula. Will be here in the hospital a few more days.
Wants her to EAT all she can today. She has some peanut butter and strawberry jelly so far. Gonna try some scrambled egg next.
Gonna get Dad to bring me some clothes. I have 3 dresses here which I have been hand washing in shampoo and hanging to dry in the shower. Dad is also bringing us Rosie’s protein shakes and vitamins. Wish he could Sneak in our Cairn Terrier. Smoki Poki Loki. He has been missing us so bad that he barely is eating. Rosie and I talk to Smoki and our cats Jazzi ( long haired Siamese Ragdoll mix), Tater ( Ginger Red Tabby), and Punkin (Siamese) by speakerphone a few times daily. They all come to listen to us. Dad says they all get so happy to hear our voices.
Wish we could talk to Panther and Daisy. Panther ( Large Black/Gray Cat) is our outdoor cat. He is a stray cat and has taken up with us. He has been with us for almost 2 years now. For the last 6 weeks we have had a big stray dog outdoors whom we named Daisy . She is painfully thin and Dad is feeding her. Seems so sweet.
Gonna head to the cafeteria now. Getting bored with food now. UGH.
So blessed to had a caregivers help this weekend. Peggy helped us tremendously. I was able to nap 3-4 hours. Trying to catch up on lost sleep.
Gonna miss the additional help Rosie has been having the past 2 afternoon’s and nights. So hard to get her in and out of bed by myself.
Rosie had a good day. Peggy and I were able to shampoo Rosie’s hair. It had been 11 days since it was washed.
Rosie did well on her quota’s that Dr Boyce requires::
60+ grams of Protein
64+ ounces of Fluids
2 scoops of Dr Boyce’s powered vitamins.
I give Rosie lovenox injections daily.
Nurse Pete taught me how to clean her picc line with saline. Have to do it twice daily.
An RN will be here 3 x’s a week. They will be changing the picc line dressing and changing all the Wound Vac dressing from her open hernia wound. They also will be doing a PT and INR testing of her blood twice a week.
Rosie had some diarrhea today. Hope that it subsides. She is staying pretty full from all the protein shakes, juices, and water. She drank too much and too fast tonight and had minor indigestion.
Smoki, my cairn terrier, is so jealous that Rosie is getting so much attention. He has been down in the dumps… gonna give him extra attention before he goes to bed with me. He thinks everyone should be focusing on him.
My sugar got too low tonight. Just getting it back to normal. I ate some Strawberry Hi-Lo Low Carb Cereal… was Yummy.
I am aching all over tonight. Sore muscles and joints. Vicoden is not even helping with the pain and burning. :-(
Had some weird ear sensations all day today. Not sure what is up with that.
Been so busy that I neglected taking my vitamins for the past 2 weeks. Started on them again last night.
Rosie’s caregiver Dina will be here for a few hours tomorrow and Wednesday. Peggy returns on Friday. Pete will be here Tues, Thurs, and Saturdays for the next 6 weeks.
Pray that Rosie’s hospital bed arrives tomorrow. Had to be special ordered. Grateful that Rosie has insurance that covers all her medical needs. Gonna get Dr Melling to order her a new wheelchair seat. Her wheelchair is so uncomfy that I am certain it is contributing to her lower back aches and pains.
I bet she has lost 20 more lbs. Will be excited to see how much weight she has lost. Will know Friday when she goes to Dr Boyce. Since she is in a wheelchair and unable to stand,Dr Boyce weighs her while in the wheelchair and then we take away 275 lbs for the wheelchair and its batteries.
I am hoping that I can get to my next goal weight by Friday. Fingers crossed. Only 4 lbs away!
Had a severe panic attack at the grocery store yesterday. Hate to go shopping alone. :-(
Rosie is so sore that she can’t sit up very straight. So slouchy all the time. Pray she regains her strength. She is getting stronger by the day.
I have to take a letter from Dr Boyce to Dr Melling’s office in regards to her blood thinner management.
Need to get some groceries for dad. He says he has no food in the kitchen… our pantry is mainly filled with foods that he won’t eat… aka Healthy Foods.
I pray that Rosie sleeps well throughout the night and only has to get me up once. She has been waking me every 2 hours… she needs assistance with using her bedpan. She is drinking so many fluids that all she does is urinate. Dr Boyce wants her to urinate at least 600-700cc a day and she mets that quota easily in one peeing. I She is urinating around 10 times a day. I bet Dad does not pee 600 cc in a WEEK! He does not drink enough fluids and we constantly fuss at him.
Dad pickled some beets and eggs. They are so yummy. Will be even better by tomorrow.
Gonna go get Smoki and head to bed.
Thanks for your prayers for Rosie and may they continue. Thanks!
Rosie took some lortab elixir and is feeling much better and is napping. So glad she is. I was so worried. I napped a few minutes and heading back to the land of Nod.
Dad visited us today and has made it back home. He is using his c-pap and is feeling much better. Praise the Lord.
Rosie will get to go home tomorrow IF she gets in her liquids, vitamins, and protein.. and keeps them down. She vomited 2x’s yesterday. She has stopped the lortab and is taking tylenol for pain. Not in much pain 2day. Gonna be getting her up in her wheelchair today. Hope it is as pain free as possible. Rosie is no longer loopy. No talking in her sleep. More alert. She is actually making some sense today! :-)
She is drinking her fluids slower today. Only 1/2 oz for each 15 min. She has a slew of pills to take. We give her one every 30 min. Actually not we.. Just me!
Dumb ass aide asked me for help to get Rosie on the bedpan. The prob was the aide was putting the potty under her the wrong way! Good Lord… she is suppose to at least know how to put a bed pan under someone the correct way! She is in her 60′s. Dad told me not to tell on her since she is so old.
Dad is driving down today. Takes about 50 minutes to get here… depending on traffic.
I slept well last night but I am tuckered out. Gonna nap off and on all day. Rosie is sound asleep. Yesterday in her sleep she was hollering for Smoki and the cats. :-)
I just got off the phone with Smoki. Dad says he was so excited to here my voice. Dad had it on speaker phone. Can’t believe he figured out how to turn on the speaker phone by himself. He can hear me so much better on speakphone. His hearing aids don’t do well with the phone even though the phone is hearing aid compatible.
Time to wake Rosie up to take 1/2 oz of decafe ice tea.
I just pray that Rosie gets back to her old self soon.
She has had no tylenol for 8 hours now and is in no pain. Thankful for that.
I am achy breaky all over. Fibromyalgia flare up! UGH!
Surgery is on Tuesday the 26th. Doc called and she has an infection somewhere. Starting Cipro. Having labs again on Monday.
Rosie has went from a size 32 jean down to a… 26! Wow.. I am so proud of her.
A few months ago we paid over $40.00 for our Cairn Terrier Smoki Poki Loki to get a hair cut. Thought it was way too much. Watched some Youtube Video’s about dog grooming and bought him his own set of razor clippers. Gave him a “LION Cut” today. Was so easy and he didn’t mind it at all. The clippers were only $38 so we have already started saving money. He looks so adorable. He is out with Dad talking a walk. Dad spoils him so bad. He ordered Smoki his own Bacon Cheeseburger the other evening from Outback. Darn thing was $6. Last night Dad brought home leftover BBQ Ribs from Ruby Tuesday and I bought him some Ribeye. He wolfed it down. He refuses to eat dog food. Will occasionally eat some cat food. He steals it from our cats. Dad fries Smoki a pound of bacon to fed him. Smoki will sometimes eat cheese, chicken, steak, beef, and pepperoni.He loves Taco’s. LOL. He also loves Peanut butter protein bars and corn on the cob.
Rosie has on a live video of some French Bulldog puppies… they are so cute… I want one!
I was so sick last night. Didn’t fall asleep till 8 am this morn. Tummy issues. I am finally feeling better just tired.
I have been a lil panicky the last few days. Worried about Rosie and her surgery. I appreciate your prayers. Thanks.
John (my best friend or I should say amigo) will be leaving in a few hours with his sister…. they are headed to Andalusia, Spain to celebrate the end of chemo and radiation treatments for his sis who was diagnosed with breast cancer. She needed a lumpectomy as well. He will be back next Monday but will hopefully find an internet cafe so he can send me a message or two.
He has not even left for the plane yet and I am already missing him. Been in tears. So stressed. Thank God for Xanax. He and I had a wonderful webcam session on MSN Live Messenger 2011. The best chat program around in my own humble opinion.
John has had a rough year. Severe infections, herniated discs, the flu, stomach issues… poor baby needs a holiday. He wasn’t feeling well tonight and was dreading the trip. I pray that he wakes up feeling better and can enjoy the time with his family. Nice breezy warm weather is my wish for him. Can’t wait to see his tan… he tans so nicely.
John asked me not to cry while he was away but I already have on 2 occasions and it has been less than 4 hours since I last saw him.
SHOPPING:
Went to the Farmers Market to find it closed. So we ended up at Walmart. Picked up some fresh produce: banana’s, peaches, watermelon, cucumbers, tomatoes, onions, and romaine lettuce. We already have pole beans in the fridge. Having all that tomorrow. YUMMY!
Gonna pick up some fresh strawberries, jumbo size cantaloupes, and corn on the cob this week.
Going to clean my bedroom tomorrow.
Tuesday Rosie (my sis) goes to her urologist for a KUB test.
Thursday will be Movie day… heading to the cinema’s… not sure what to see. Will either be Pirates of The Caribbean IV or X-Men: First Class… if Dad goes. If it is just Rosie and me, we will prolly see Bridesmaids.
Gonna try and keep busy… TRY to get my mind off John… I go insane without seeing him and talking to him daily. He gives me so much support and a serenity like I have never known.
Such a good man and an even better human being!
MAKE-UP:
I absolutely adore my Ardell Brow and Lash Growth Accelerator.
Ardell Brow and Lash Growth Accelerator.
My eyelashes are so much fuller and longer since I stated using it. THRILLED and it is such a BARGAIN in comparison to the similar production available.Plus I now have eyebrows!!! I am beyond thrilled with it.
I have also mastered filling in and enhancing my eyebrows. I am using Ardell Brow Defining Pallet Dark and Ardell Brow Sculpting Gel
Ardell Brow Defining Pallet
Ardell Brow Shaping Gel
Very pleased with ALL the Ardell Products I have tried.
NAILS:
I have pared my finger nails down. Very short. Gonna start growing them again. They grow so very fast. Gonna polish/varnish them with Revlon’s MidNight Affair and add some rhinestones to them tomorrow.
Revlon MidNight Affair Nail Polish Varnish
My toes are currently polished Black with a diamond dust overlay. My 2 big toes have a Large and a Small Rhinestone. So cute.I purchased so many adorable nail stickers… from the discount bin.
HAIR & MAKEUP:
I am digging my short BETTIE BANGS. I can wear them down or curl them back. I am now rocking the classic pin-up look with a more modern makeup approach. I did the classic pin-up eye today and ended up adding eyeliner gel to my lower lashline. My eyes get lost without it. I purchased the Professional ANGLED Finepoint Eyeliner Brush by ULTA and it is so much easier to draw a smooth line on my upper lash line. LOVE IT!
Ulta Finepoint ANGLED Eyeliner Brush
I have been using Extreme Wear Gel Liner By Ulta. Rosie and I have all 5 Shades. Each are lovely. Black, Brown, Blue, Green, and Purple. I adore the green. Really enhances my hazel eyes.
Extreme Wear Gel Liner ULTA
SOCIAL ANXIETY:
I had a panic attack at Walmart checkout. Got in line with a female cashier and before it was my turn to checkout… a male took over… He wanted to chat.. lately all men I meet wanna talk to me. PANIC STRICKEN…. I started sweating… drenched… then had chills while still perspiring heavily and then the racing heart. UGH!
HEALTH:
Gonna see my family Dr Blake Melling this week in regards to my nerves, anxiety, mood swings and my stomach issues.
STUFF:
I still can’t believe I got my drivers license. So excited. I am driving to Knoxville on Tuesday. One of my fave trips. I *THINK* dad is enjoying being chauffeured around.
I finally have my own set of keys to the house and our mini-van. Been buying all sorts of keys and key-chains. The house key is made from Tinkerbell casting! I usually don’t carry a purse but got an adorable blue jean Tinkerbell one.
TinkerBell
Also have a key-chain with ANGELA that is psychedelic and is animated when tilted… and a solar powered flashing light key chain that that says PRINCESS> John calls me Princess. :-) Also have a pink flashlight for my key-chain and a massive pink crystal heart. Also got some Tinkerbell window decals for MY van! I tell Dad it is now MINE. LOL!
A Local Bank temperature reading today was 101. It was a scorcher.
I am off to read the news, gossip, and Facebook status’ of my friends and family and then heading to bed.
I am not the same woman I was a few years ago and that is in a good way.
I only wish I could enjoy all the fabulous changes and opportunities coming my way… But Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromylagia are not allowing that. If I over-do it even a lil bit I am down for days trying to recoup from it. I have been aching from my head to my toes lately. Exhausted and lethargic. Been needing 12 hours of sleep even to attempt getting up the next day.
I have to Thank God, Dad, Rosie and John for helping me overcome so many obstacles. Also many thanks to all my doctors: Dr Blake Melling (Family Doctor) , Dr Joanne Langton (Endocrinologist) , and Dr Aqueel Kouser (Rheumatologist) to just mention a few.
Spent a lovely 3 night / 4 day weekend in Gatlinburg with my Sister Rosie. I was more fatigued this time than last years mini-vacay to Gatlinburg Family Fest / Gaither Homecoming Concerts. Went to 5 shows. Had a good time in spite of hurting in my shoulders, neck, back, legs and tailbone. I had to go to the bathroom often just to help relieve some of the tailbone aches. It helped.
I am down over 110 lbs now. Wearing a size 10-12. Receiving so much attention from men and I love it. Had guys ask me this past weekend if they could have their picture taken with me…. and that is not counting the ones who took my picture without even asking. FLATTERING.
I am dressing different than I had been. Getting back to dressing more provocative but not over doing it… gotta remember I am a 45 year old woman. Loving wearing dresses and showing off my legs.
Angela trying to look sexy and failing at it miserably. LOL!
My hair is now Jet Black. I use to dye it black for years… mainly in my 20′s. Love it and so does everyone else! I also cut some short bangs ala Bettie Page style.. but I still can style them away from my face if I want to. I sometimes wear hair extensions, wigs, and clip on pony-tails on occasion. Like to change my look often. Been wearing my hair is a beehive bouffant style lately.
Rosie had a eye appt. Visual Field Test prior to starting Plaquenil. My eye doc who is also Rosie’s eye doc, his nurse and receptionist barely recognized me. First time they had seen me with Makeup. I look majorly different with makeup they could not believe how beautiful I looked today.
I finally was brave enough to go take my road test to get my drivers license. Didn’t tell no one but Dad and Rosie just in case I failed… BUT I passed on my first attempt. WOO-HOO! Now if I can only get Dad to let me and Rosie take the mini-van out alone. He still says no… that I am not ready for that yet. I hope to make a short trip out with just Rosie and I…. we may go to the grocery store OR to McDonalds for some Unsweetened Ice Tea. MAYBE.
Rosie has a surgery date for Gastric Bypass. It is July 26th. She has to get pre-op testing, take an education class over the next few weeks. She will be on a low carb-high protein diet all of July. She has already lost 2 dress sizes. I am so proud of her.
Rose and Angela Picture was taken on Rosie's 44th Birthday
Gonna be driving to West Virginia to visit family as soon as the weather dips down to the 70′s- mid 80′s.
I do have more self confidence on some days. Still suffering from panic attacks. On Xanax full time now. SNOOZE…
My Rheumy has me on a high dose of a narcotic and it is helping *some* with the pain I have but it makes me so drowsy. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. Snore…
Sugars are doing well. My Insurance will not cover Victoza injections but my doc is willing to give me samples. I may have to go on byetta soon. Will see.
Been having severe anxiety and depression at times. Gonna discuss it with Melling this week. I feel so helpless and worthless at times.
Rosie’s lower back has been aching for a few weeks now. She sees her urologist Dr Bedford Waters this week in Knoxville. I am driving. Can’t wait.
I am 45 years old and got my first set of keys for the car and house now.
I even pumped gas for the very 1st time last week. Kudos to me.
I have been pampered, spoiled and protected by my family for far too long.
I have even learned how to wash and dry clothes… still haven’t mastered the skill of putting clothes away. Nor doing dishes.
Dad has been in and out of the hospital for a few months. Currently he has protein in his urine, enlarged heart, COPD, pneumonia, a bum knee that needs replaced… and a case of the worst “grumpys n grouchys” in the world. His Doctors doesn’t want him doing anything but he still does some… albeit not as much as he used to. I know how tough it is on him to sit and do nothing… that contributes to his moodiness. He is rough on me and Rosie at times but we still love him.
Smoki went to Lowes today. Oh yea.. Smoki is my Cairn Terrier. He loves Lowes… and of course everyone adores Smoki. He is a doll. He wore his black leather fringe bandana today and he goes crazy when he see’s it and can’t wait till it is on him … and hates when we take it off. Went to Lowes to look for Dad a new riding lawn mower. Should be delivered tomorrow. His old lawn tractor has seen its last days. Also bought Dad a new TV 32″ LCD Plasma. He put it in his bedroom since that is where he spends most of his time lately. Appreciate prayers for him. THANKS!
Smoki My Cairn Terrier aka TOTO Dog
Then we took Smoki to Wendy’s for a Jr. Bacon Cheeseburger plain. His fave.
Smoki
Came home to a brilliant webcam session with John. He is heading to Spain on Monday with his Sis to celebrate her finishing her last chemo/radiation treatments and hopefully is now free of breast cancer. John is the best. He and I get closer daily. Known one another for over 3 years now. Best friends. I am already missing him. He will be away a week but will send me emails/text messages.
Been having severe stomach issues again. Left upper quadrant pain and other issues. IBS Sucks.
May go to the cinema to see a movie this weekend.
Praying for all my Aunts, Uncles, and cousins… as well as my friends. Been reconnecting with so many people I went to school with on Faceook. I love getting reacquainted.
Tailbone is aching so I had better finish this and post it. Heading to bed.
Dad is still having severe edema and is so grouchy… he has been driving all of us insane including our pets.
I pray that he is feeling better tomorrow.
I even pulled over and had Dad drive today due to him making me so nervous. I even cried.
Had a nice lil chat with John. Adore that man. He always helps me relax and is so supportive and attentive. Sending love and prayers to him. He is working @ home for a few weeks due to a back injury and an infection. He was not feeling well and went to bed early. He arrived at chat late cause he was sleeping but said he had to see me tonight. So Sweet and Precious.
Started on Questran for my IBS. Increasing my dosage from once a day to twice a day to see if that helps. So far once a day doesn’t do much.
Been more active lately since Dad has been in and out of the hospital with Pneumonia and Urinary Retention. BUT I am wore out. Aching all over. Chronic Fatigue and Fibromylagia sucks.
Planted some strawberry and tomato plants in the garden this week …. also sowed some catnip seeds for my fur babies Tater, Jazzi, Punkin and Panther.
I have been driving a lot the past few weeks. Adore driving on the four lane. Gonna attempt to get my drivers license in the next few months.
Haven’t been sleeping well. Some nights I sleep like a baby then others I don’t sleep much at all.
Allergy Season is rearing its ugly head. Waiting on my insurance to approve Allegra for me. My forehead, eyes, nose and cheeks are swollen. So pianful. I go from a stuffy nose to a runny faucet in a matter of minutes some days. I even hurt in my ears, teeth and jaw from it.
Been taking better care of my hair, skin, nails and body. Hope to post a blog about it soon. Just so much is on my mind and so much transpiring that I haven’t posted much at all. Sorry. I know lots of my family and friends read this.
I dyed my hair… jet black. It is a medium brown naturally but I have dyed it Red for 6-7 years now. I use to dye it black.. way back in the day. Man I am getting old since I can say WAY BACK IN THE DAY. LOL
Hope to post some reviews on items I have purchased as well as places I purchase stuff from.
Rosie is doing great. She has dropped 2 dress sizes already. She still needs medical clearance letter from her family physician Blake Melling to get approval for Gastric Bypass…. Looks like it will be Summer when she has it. We all adore Dr Melling. Best doc we ever had. SO compassionate. He explains things and listens to us. Dad, Rosie and I all see him. Mom did as well. Good Man!
Ok it is 2 am and here I am blogging when I should be in bed. Heading that way.
Sending love and prayers to Aunt Susie’s family. I love all of you.
Also much love to my cousin Brandy. Hope to see all my WV Family soon as Dad is well enough to travel.
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