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Rosie’s nausea returned for a few hours today. She feels so poorly when it starts. Just glad she is now feeling better.
Wish I could say I am. Just haven’t felt well all day. My joints and muscles are inflamed and swollen in my arms, elbows, hands, thighs and feet today. Just achy all over. So fatigued wish I had some energy.
Rosie and I did a lil spring cleaning for about 45 min today.
We are selling Rosie’s old laptop. $100.00 Figure that Aunt Susie wants it. Will see.
Also hope to get our netbooks cleared off and then sell them.
Gonna wipe our old PC clean and sell it as well.
Rosie’s IPAD 3 HD left China today on its way to Talbott. Will be here Friday the 16th. Rosie got the top of the line model with all the extras included.
I trimmed my hair and cut in some bangs. Looks nice. Dyeing my hair ravenous black on Monday.
I just hope I can sleep soundly. Been waking up way every 2 hours. Wears me down after awhile.
Thinking about MR HANDSOME… if he only knew all the things I dream about doing to him… LOL!
I am sure he would blush!
Sometimes I think about writing him in regards to all the hot fantasies I have of him…
Naughty… Bawdy… Erotic Fun!
I imagine him doing hedonistic things to me.
Ooh-la-la what an experience he and I could share.
I may have not had sex in 17.5 years but my body is ready, willing and able.
When I have been in a relationship… the sexual part was always fiery, wild and passionate. On a Daily basis. Love sharing sensuality with a partner.Miss that.
I adore intimacy…. lovemaking…. more-so than most women.
I can be too demanding.
Just craving for a man to stroke his hand across my face.
Gently kiss my lips.
Suck on my earlobe.
Cuddle me tight as we sleep.
YES, I am Frisky.
Needing a lil nookie… hell.. I want A LOT of nookie! LOL
When I am in LOVE….I always am ready to share carnal relations.
Going to head to bed…
Hope Mr Handsome dances through *MY* dreams…and that *I* do the same in his dreams till the day *WE* walk into each others lives…. and ravage one each others minds, hearts, bodies, and souls.
Went to Rack Room Shoes. I got 2 pairs of bjorndal sandals.
Went to TJ Maxx but didn’t buy anything.
Went to Office Max. Rosie got a touch pen for her new Ipad.. will be here on the 16th. My laptop is touch screen so I am having a blast! Also purchased some gel INK Pens.
We ate at The Davy Crockett Restaurant, choose a meat Plus 2-3 sides… all under $9.99 Sides includes salads as well as Banana Pudding.
Rosie got the Open Faced Roast Beef Sandwich, Mashed Taters and Banana Pudding. She has not touched the nana pudding and has enough Roast beef for 2 more meals!
Dad got the sirloin, slaw, brown beans and Nana Pudding. He brought ALL of the sirloin home for our dogs!
I had the country fried steak. Ate about 1/3 of it and brought the rest home for the Boys (Snickers and Smoki). Mashed Taters, Side Salad (Country French Dressing) and Nana Pudding.
Smoki and Snickers went out with us. Dad stayed in the Van with the boys as we shopped.
I am THRILLED that Rosie is feeling so much better. She is back to her boisterous funny self… Thank God. I missed her. Love seeing her enjoying food. Been a long 7.5 months (Gastric Bypass) since she actually wants to eat and is able to enjoy it. BLESSED.
Going to pack clothes this weekend. Heading to West Virginia Next Sunday. Hoping to meet all of my West Virginia family at the new Arby’s in Pineville around 3 pm Sunday the 18th.
Pineville does NOT even have a McDonald’s. Closest McDonald’s is 13.48 miles away!
Closest Wal-Mart is 24.67 miles
Pineville does have a Dairy Queen now.
Going to call my Aunt Mattie and Uncle Harold (Springfield, OHIO) and let them know we are heading to Pineville. Hope they can meet us there.
Going to bleach Rose Lee’s Hair and Dye it a brighter red for Spring.
Dyeing mine Jet Black. Also going to cut some Bangs / Fringe to hide the wrinkles on my forehead. Yes, I do have wrinkles!
ALLERGIES are killing me. Sneezing. Breaking out in rashes when I go outside. Itching all over. Ear Tickles. Inflammation on my forehead. Sinus/Allergies Sucks!
Getting OLDER Sucks even-more-so.
Realizing that I let 46 years pass away without LIVING it.
Pray that I overcome my shyness. I want to have a bubbly, sparkling, boisterous personalty… I wish I could talk to men without having a panic attack. Wish I was able to be flirty. I just don’t have the confidence I wish I had. Always worried about something.
I still have Social anxiety.. afraid I am saying the wrong things. That I am bothering people. etc.
I am able to talk to gay men without any problem. Or I talk to men who live thousands of miles away so I won’t have to deal with them in person.
I Pray that I can start communicating with Straight Single men who live in Tennessee. Afraid of getting my heart broken again.
I have NEVER even had a girlfriend to talk with. No friends in School… I had few friends @ School but they never came to my house and I never went to theirs. Never called and spoke on the phone… etc
Rose Lee is my best friend and Sissy.
John is my best male friend. He lives 3,500 miles away from here. Friends Only.
I have some friends online. Just acquaintances. I would love to be able to have friends in my life. Someone to hang out with. Do things with, etc Laugh with. Cry With.
John is the only one who sees me cry. I share everything, all my thoughts, worries, anxieties. He knows me very well.
I bet I went 20 some years where I CRIED every single night. Feeling so lonely. I still cry on occasion but not like I use to.
I would LOVE to have a man to call me…not sure if I am ready.. I am getting there.
I have personal ads at a slew of websites. Get mail on a daily basis. Just don’t know which one I should write back so I don’t reply to any of them.
Asking God to guide me to the men, that will enhance my quality of life. Someone who will bring out the BEST in me. Someone who is Compassionate, Patient, Family Oriented and someone wants to help the less fortunate and who also adores animals.
I know the man God designed me for is out there praying to meet me. Praying for my family. I pray for that man every day and I have for 30 years. I know God wants me to have a helpmate. A Lover. A Friend. Praying that he enters my life soon.
I surrender my will to God’s will for my life.
Please Pray that God will help me overcome all my insecurities.
I Pray for confidence, the words to help encourage and bless others.
Use my smile to show God’s love to the world.
God, Here I Am.. Use me anyway you see fit. I am willing.
God Help me Help others.
I know I have it in me to overcome anything and everything that is holding me back from my full potential.
Change my personality Dear Lord… Make me bubbly, friendly, well spoken, and kinder.
Make me selfless.
Give me the words that people need to hear.
USE ME.
Please USE ME Lord.
I surrender.
Ready to change.
Change starts NOW!
I pray for everyone who read this .
I pray for everyone in the world to be nicer to one another.
Dad, Rosie, The Boys and I went to the Great Smokies Flea Market today. We took the Boys pet stroller which they both USED to fit in…. Snickers has grown so big that it was a tight fit. So Rosie bought a pet stroller than holds 4 small pets. Ended up selling the old Stroller to a lady for $20… she was thrilled to get it. It was a bargain. New stroller was $86
Rosie bought the boys new harnesses to go with the new collars she got earlier this week. So Snazzy!
Picked up some $1 jewelry items. I bought a long dress for $8 brand new. Rosie got her one as well.
Rosie woke up this morn and started vomiting as soon as she took her meds. Had nausea off and on all day. She fell asleep about an hour ago. Hope she wakes up feeling better.
Went to Capt. Gallery in Dandridge for Dinner. Rosie and I split the Ribeye, Jumbo Shrimp, Fried Zucchini and Salad. We have enough ribeye leftover to feed us both supper tomorrow. I also have some fried zucchini left over. YUM! Was gonna order some clam chowder but forgot to. Thank God.. I couldn’t have ate it. Was stuffed.
SnickerDoodle has been so protective of me this evening. Will not allow Smoki to come near me. Growling at him. Not sure why.
Need to find a dentist. Need a good cleaning and perhaps a filling. Want one closer to us than Dr. Frankie office.
Had a panic attack or hot flash… at the flea market. Was drenched head to toe with sweat for almost an hour. Skin was flushed. HATE IT.
Got home and my face is puffy. Wasn’t when I left. Not sure… but I bet it is allergy related.
Thinking about cutting bangs again. Not sure.
John adored my hair tonight. I rolled it with 1″ velcro rollers. Used tons of ‘em. Looked so feathery and shiny.
Rosie is craving an Hawaiian Ice so we are going on an excursion to find one tomorrow. Wish us luck.
Had issues with my balance today. Almost fell flat on my butt twice today. Just unsteady. Really need to get an injection in my right hip as Doc Kouser wanted to do.
SO HAPPY for my friends in Nashville. Good things are heading their way. Movie is being made by Universal based on their lives. INSPIRATIONAL! Blessed to have them in my life. I love em all. Hope that one day we can meet one another.
Just realized I haven’t taken my meds tonight.. Oops… BRB. Took em.
I haven’t taken my vitamins/minerals/supplements in a week or so. Gonna start back.
Also I have been naughty…. Been consuming way more carbs that I should. Makes me feel sluggish. I should know better but Carbs are so comforting to me.
Will prolly be going to West Virginia on Friday. Hope the large handicapped cabin at Twin Falls State Park is available. May have to change the day we go. We LOVE that cabin cause so many of our WV family can stay with us. :-)
Having aches and pains. May have to increase my dosage on my pain meds back to what the doc wants me to take. Tried to lower them and OUCH!
Dad was in a great mood this afternoon. Thank God cause sometimes he is the grouchiest old man on earth. Dad attracts so many women. Always trying to pick him up. He does NOT look 71 at all. Still has all his hair and he is indeed handsome. HE DOES NOT WANT TO DATE ANYONE.
I do want to date YET I get no dudes trying to pick me up. NONE. Only man who has come up to me and asked me out was the man (Hager) that I married. Rest of the men I dated were through personal newspaper ads.Men may be interested in me and I am just tooo dumb and socially inept that I don’t recognize it. Ooops… One other man asked me out at church in 1991. He didn’t have a car nor a job so I politely declined.
I don’t go anywhere without Rosie. Only time I have been apart was during hospitalizations. Maybe 3-4 times I was gone for a few hours with Hager. I did spend 3 over night trips at Gary’s (aka WV Millionaire dude) house
The only time I ever went on a date ALONE with a man was my honeymoon night… Always had Rosie or they brought their friends along. I would love to have a man pick me up, bring me flowers and take me out just for dinner. Just Dinner is all I ask.
Only one man has sent me flowers and that was Steven Bryant Ward aka Poison98. I met him through a Poison Chat Room that he hosted. He and I had a cyber which progressed to a phone relationship for almost a year. We had planned on him flying in from Tulsa, Oklahoma to West Virginia to meet and he backed out the week we was coming to meet me. We ended up staying together for a few months after that. He sent me flowers for my birthday. I am a December babe and the flowers were sent in a unique green globe ornament vase. Still have it in my bedroom.
Goodness, I have missed out on so much in my life…. It is time for that to change!
I know I have a few men who reads my journal often. One is The Actor, Game Show Host, Mr Intelligence himself Stephen Fry! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stephen_Fry He says he is 90% gay and 10% straight. I have written him a few naughty PRIVATE (you have to follow one another to send PRIVATE messages on Twitter) flirtatious tweets and he always replies. I love an intelligent man who knows who he is and stands up for what he believes in… way more than a handsome one. But I do admire a handsome warm heart and soul.
I know that some awesome things are about to transpire in my life. Excited. Lord, I surrender prepare me for all the new adventures I am about to undertake!
We are gonna take the Boys: Smoki Poki Loki (Carin Terrier aka Toto dog) and SnickerDoodle Bug (Miniature long haired dachshund) for a Sunday drive through the country side. We have taken Sunday drives for as long as I can remember. So relaxing. Love to admire all the glorious beauty God has created. Well it is relaxing until Smoki sees cows, deers, goats. horses, rabbits, etc. Then all heck breaks lose. He goes nuts. Barking. UGH! But what is even worse is when it is raining and we have the windshield wipers on… Smoki dives into the dashboard after them. UGH! And I am even holding him and his leash! Snickers and Smoki enjoyed having the window down today….As Bret Michaels wrote, “RIDE THE WIND, Never coming back till I touch the midnight sun.” I sing that to the Boys and they go bonkers cause they know I am about to roll down the window!
Asking the Lord Jesus Christ to help me SAY NO TO CARBS! Praying for energy to do more things. Chronic fatigue is debilitating. UGH. I am gonna do at least 30 min of household chores daily. Asking God for the willpower to do more things without pain and to control my appetite. I SURRENDER.
My cousin Brandy found 6 puppies dropped off on a country road in WV. They are so cute. She is keeping one and going to find homes for the others. Pray they all received loving homes. Looks like part German Shepherd.
When 9-11-01 happened I was seeing a psychiatrist prior to it happening. It was so difficult to deal with. A few months after it happened My shrink made me promise not to read or watch news about it. Still upsetting to me. Now all these tornadoes, hurricanes, natural [...]
Going to Knoxville tomorrow. Rose’s has an appt with her surgeon. She is still swollen from her hernia repair surgery. Painful as well. Hope Dr Boyce can drain the seroma tomorrow. Hope she does not have to be hospitalized. I pray that Rosie gets healthy and STAY healthy.
Angela Rose’s Day Spa has been open for an hour. Getting all beautified for our trip tomorrow.
Completed Facial, Shaving, Hair deep-conditioned and Curled.
Pedicure completed.
Raven Black Toenails.
Doing manicure later tonight. Either black or silver.
Going to start to whiten my teeth tonight. Already did a scrub with Baking Soda. Feels so clean. Rosie got me an Electric toothbrush for Christmas. Going to start using it tomorrow. Also have Crest 3D White Intensive Professional Effects Whitestrips with Advanced Seal Technology Kit.
Gave Rosie a facial after her home health aide bathed her and shampooed her hair. She wants to get dolled up tomorrow… IF she is able to. She is still having nausea and diarrhea.
Somehow I ran out of my anti-anxiety med Buspar and didn’t notice it till last night. Back on it now. I apologize for being so moody and dramatic. Buspar should get me back to somewhat normal moods.
As my regular readers know, I lost almost 30% of my hair after my gastric bypass… which is fairly common. At the time of surgery my hair was almost to my waist. I ended up cutting it to my shoulders to make it look fuller. Which it did. Last month I had all sorts of new hair that had grown in and was all sorts of weird lengths so I cut off 4 inches. It is now growing out again. EVEN MORE FULLER THAN PRIOR TO SURGERY. Hope to get it back down to my waist again. Will take 2-3 years. I will wear 100% human hair extensions occasionally just to change my look… as you know I love to do.
Thankful that over the past 20 years I have grown up so much. A totally different person than I was. Wisdom and knowledge is such a blessing. So grateful for the people who helped me get to the point I am now in life. Doubly Blessed in that Department.
Have so much peace and serenity today. Thank all of you for the well wishes and prayers. Getting a decent nights sleep helped tremendously.
Haven’t heard from a few friends… hope I didn’t say or do something to offend them. IF I did I apologize. I miss them. SAD.
Hope Rosie feels well enough to go to the Mall in Knoxville. Plans are to eat at Mimi’s Cafe. Have a coupon for Buy an Entree get one FREE!
I am planning on wearing a black floral short dress tomorrow with black pantyhose and black knee-high boots. I have a pink cardigan to wear IF it is cold. Will probably do full makeup. Maybe even add false eyelashes. Depends IF I have time. I have to get up at 7 am. My bedtime has bed 4 am or later for weeks. Hope to get to bed by 11-12 tonight.
Sending much love to everyone. Pray that everyone in the world has LOVE, Serenity, Health, and knows and LOVES GOD.
My sis Rosie had her 3 month Gastric Bypass Checkup. Since Feb she has lost over +125 lbs. She only weighs 66 lbs more than me now. You go Sis! Just wish her nausea would dissipate. Her hernia wound has healed enough and was told she can now start aquatic therapy!!! Woo-Hoo! Calling the Boy and Girls Club as well as Jefferson Community Pool tomorrow. Hope to start on Monday. LIFE IS GOOD!
I saw Dr. Stephen G. Boyce, who did Rosie’s gastric bypass surgery, today. I am having him investigate my continuing gastro-intestinal issues that has bothered me ever since I had my roux-en-y on Sept 14th, 2009. He has a few theories on why I only lost 50 or so pounds from the roux-en-y surgery. I should have lost 100+ lbs. Theories are my pouch should be smaller: 15 ml and not 30ml. More of my intestines need bypassed. Scar tissue. Bowel Kink.
I am having an abdominal CT Scan on Nov 1st.
*IF* it is what Dr Boyce thinks it may be, I will have to undergo another Laparoscopic surgery and I should be able to lose more weight. My BMI is still 35.3. Still OBESE!
Still suffering from upper left quadrant abdominal pains, bloating, gas and diarrhea. Severe at times.
Just hoping that some of Dr Boyce’s theories show up on the CT scan and that I can have another lap surgery and get on my way to a healthier life. He hopes it is due more to my lower bowel area than a problem with my upper stomach region. Lower gastrointestinal prob will be much easier to fix… than an upper one.
He is starting me on flagyl and was suggesting Cholestyramine till I told him I was already on Welchol. They are in the same family of meds. I have tired Cholestyramine in the past unsuccessfully.
I had gastric bypass to help me get off some of my meds. Well, I am off insulin but now on 3 NEW meds for my stomach issues!!! My current med list:
Atenolol Heart Rate/Blood Pressure Bentyl Irritable Bowel Buspar Social Anxiety Cymbalta Depression/Fibromyalgia/ CMT Loperamide Irritable Bowel Lortab Chronic Fatigue//Fibromyalgia Meta-Glip Diabetes/Insulin Resistance Synthroid Hypothyroid Trazodone Depression/Insomnia Welchol Irritable Bowel Xanax Anxiety/Insomnia Fish Oil Multi Vitamin/Mineral Biotin IRON Probiotic Vitamin B Complex D3
I AM A WALKING PHARMACY! LOL!
I really need to lose weight to help with my Charcot Marie Tooth Syndrome “CMT” which I was recently diagnosed with.
CMT Morbus Charcot-Marie-Tooth, Charcot-Marie-Tooth neuropathy, hereditary motor and sensory neuropathy (HMSN), hereditary sensorimotor neuropathy (HSMN), or peroneal muscular atrophy, is an inherited disorder of nerves (neuropathy) that takes different forms. It is characterized by loss of muscle tissue and touch sensation, predominantly in the feet and legs but also in the hands and arms in the advanced stages of disease. Currently incurable.
I inherited it from my dad. My legs and feet are getting weaker. I have extremely high arches and claw toes. When I walk, all my weight lands on the balls of my feet and not evenly as it is suppose to. My feet are starting to turn outward. Have very tight Achilles tendons. Gluts and Quads are also too tight. I started therapy last week to help prevent further damage. I have had issues all my life with twisting my ankles, losing my balance, and falling. At least now I know there is a reason and not just my clumsiness! CMT is a Muscular Dystrophy disease.
Angela October 20th, 2011 Dr Boyce's Office.
Still desiring to lose 50-75 additional pounds… with Dr Boyce’s surgical mind, capable hands, and his wonderful compassion, coupled with my rejuvenated desire to lose more weight; I am sure it can be accomplished.
I have been exercising for 15-30 min a day. Using resistant bands, stretches, and isometrics. Hope to go to aquatic aerobics 2-3 times a week. I will have to rise and shine by 7 am on the days we go… Just have to start getting my rump in bed earlier than the 4 am I am accustomed to.
I am so tired today. Got up at 8 am. Now my upper abdominal area is extended. Bloated horribly. Has been for a few hours. Miserable.
Went to Puleos in Strawberry Plains. I had a salad (greens, cheese, tomatoes, croutons, and cucumbers) homemade Italian dressing… I may have used 1 Tablespoon. Got stuffed after the salad and only had 3-4 bites of citrus chicken and 2 bites of sirloin. 3 bites of sesame noodles. One bite of bread.
I have known John for almost 4 years now. He and I text chat with video cam. No audio. I am just too shy… I finally made him a video of me taking to him with Audio. I have never made a video of myself until now.., BUT Damn I am so cute!!! Adorable. Sweet Southern Voice. John loved it! Gonna audio Chat with him LIVE this week. Think I have enough courage to do it. His step-grandsons (13 and 15) are out of school on Fall break and have been staying with him all week. Lucky to even see him on cam this week let alone TALK to him live… Hope to webcam chat with audio over the weekend.
We are heading out to pick up meds tomorrow and then gonna drive bye FrightMare Manor http://frightmaremanor.com/ to see how busy they are. It is about 2.5 miles from my house. Extremely popular attraction.
I am getting more confidence and self esteem. Feeling womanly. Dressing sexier. Receiving lots of male attention. :-)
Been playing with makeup. Tried a few different looks this week. Some were nice… others.. eh… not so much. LOL!
I wore a black mini-dress. It is called Bandage Dress. Got it 2 years ago and finally wore it for the first time today. It is a size 16 but I could have easily worn it in a size 12. Really pleased with the way my legs looked today! Main body issue I hate is my saggy flabby tummy. Lots of loose skin there. My face is also sagging some. Been doing facial exercises and hope that it get taunter. I also have a few wrinkles on my forehead… but hell I look spectacular to be almost 46 years old! LOL!
October 20, 2011
Hoping to visit my West Virginia Family in a few weeks. Missing them all. Sending love and prayers to all of them especially to Brandy, Sara, Becky and MaShayla. Praying that Shay’s cat Zena comes home soon. Sending get well wishes to Aunt Earlene. We are hoping to stay in a Cabin At Twin Falls Resort… if one of the handicapped cabins is available the weekend we go in.
My snack tonight will be low fat mozzarella string cheese and a few red seedless grapes…. and then off to bed.
I have been tested for allergies… about 11 years ago. Found out I have Allergic Rhinitis aka allergies all year long. Only allergin that I tested positive for was birds and feathers.
I am on Claritin D now. Not been successful at all. May have to go see an allergy doc.
I have been feeling miserable. Just feel WEIRD in my entire head. Confused thoughts. Memory issues. Thoughts in slow-motion… rambling… incoherent.
I had a short chat with John tonight since I was so out of it. He looked so spiffy. Light blue dress shirt and blue tie. His normal chat wear is sweats. Love seeing him all dolled up. My normal chat attire is sweats or pajamas. No makeup. Hair in ponytail.
I am not as vain as you may think I am. I often go out shopping without any makeup and I occasionally even wear jeans or sweats out. I prolly wear a dress 75% of the time when I go out. I know that I over-dress often and wear too much makeup but I love changing my looks! It is FUN being a girl!
I have an appt to see a podiatrist tomorrow… I have some blisters from wearing a pair of new black leather sandals…. and I am now in possession of 4 open raw sores. NOT GOOD for a diabetic like myself. Will prolly have to get a new pair of diabetic shoes.
I hadn’t drove for 2 months until yesterday. Hope to drive more tomorrow… that is IF my head is feeling better.
I ordered a bunch of makeup products from Sephora yesterday. Can’t wait to try them all.
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Sephora: SEPHORA COLLECTION Buildable Cover Complexion Kit – Light ($78 Value): Combination Sets What it is:A user-friendly, six-piece ensemble for a flawless-looking face in a flash.What it does:Sephora Color Buildable Cover Complexion Kit – Light is a high-value, all-inclusive ticket to a smooth, customized finish… http://www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P240014&categoryId=RVP
Sephora: SEPHORA COLLECTION Makeup Studio Blockbuster ($440 Value): Combination Sets What it is:A portable case with 193 makeup products for creating an unlimited range of looks. What it does:Designed in Paris with the favorite shades of Sephora’s own Pro Beauty Team, this functional palette pays… http://www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P294706&categoryId=RVP
Sephora: Tarte The Starlet Limited-Edition Makeup Vanity ($505 Value): Combination Sets What it is: A limited-edition mirrored makeup vanity that has all you need to glow your way through the season. What it does: This makeup vanity features meticulously crafted lustrous mirrored panels with beveled…. http://www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P296604&categoryId=RVP PERFUMES: Thierry Mugler Womanity Eau de Parfum Spray, Someday By Justin Bieber Eau de Parfum, & Bvlgari MAN Eau de Toilette Spray. (For Daddy)
FREEBIES: Sephora Collection Perfecting Ultra-Smoothing Primer AND Bare Escentuals Matte Foundation in Fairly Light + Mini Kabuki Brush + bareMinerals Purifying Facial Cleanser .
Should be here in a few days. Also ordered a slew of hair pieces and wigs from eBay. All were less than $11.00 with FREE Shipping. Dad’s right knee is in need of replacement and now his left knee aka THE GOOD KNEE is bothering him. Barely can walk and is now using a cane. Pray that he wakes up free of pain. Some pics taken this week….. 100% my own hair!
Over the past few years so many wonderful and exciting changes have came into my life. Some I help create, some were surprisingly sprung upon me and some transformations that I never even knew I wanted suddenly came galloping into my life. Hope that the metamorphosis continues.
I currently weigh over 100 lbs less than my highest weight of 315 lbs. (I am STILL over 200 lbs.) Gastric Bypass “Lap Roux-En-Y” and a low carb and high protein diet helped me get to this point. I would love to lose 25-35 additional lbs. I was on that way to that goal when Rosie (my sissy) underwent her Gastric Bypass “Lap Biliopancreatic Diversion with Duodenal Switch” and her subsequent MRSA infections derailed my weight loss. I gained 4 lbs. in the last 2 months. I am one of those people who EAT carbs when stressed and having my baby sister so ill, whom I am a caregiver for, was extremely stressful for me… hence I ate way more carbs than a diabetic or a gastric bypass patient should. At times, I still do. Rosie had nausea and some vomiting today so I ate a bunch of Hershey miniature candies and 2 bananas.. Sugar is 272 as I type this. Should be 70-120.. So disappointed in myself but I am gonna gain control… I have to.
All week I have had so much energy… well spurts of it at least. Right now I am hyper. Will prolly clean the dining area prior to bed. So glad that I am having SOME energy since I have virtually none the majority of the time due to chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia. Thinking back it seems I ALWAYS feel better in Sept/October… wondering if the cooler weather benefits me more than hot weather does. I have never tolerated HOT weather. Hmmm… gonna have to move to a more temperate climate … sunny, mild and breezy sounds lovely… Hawaii sounds about right!
I have so many plans for my future. Really gungho. I am gonna lose those 25-35 NAGGING lingering pounds…. and when I do I am gonna go have a tummy tuck. I absolutely positively detest my saggy and baggy lose skin in my stomach Panniculus region. I bet I could wear a size 6 or an 8 jean if I didn’t have this excess skin! In stretch denim I can wear a size 12 now.
I was this same weight 20 years ago when I married and divorced Michael Patterson Hager, Jr. He and I married 20 Years ago on Sunday. Divorced shortly after. He was just a brain fart in my life. LOL! I can NOT believe I married such a low life and gave up my virginity to him. (yep I was a 25 year old virgin. I was NO ANGEL…. He and I did fool around some prior to the wedding but I saved the best for last) I honestly am such a different lady now… Not as naive.
Age, Wisdom, Time, and Growth go hand in hand.
There have been times when I have acted high and mighty towards others and said things I regret. Acted like I was better than they were and I wish I hadn’t. I ask those whom I did this to to forgive me. I am no angel. Have never been and will never be. I am HUMAN and make mistakes like everyone else does.
I am very shy around those that I don’t know very well… BUT those close to me know that in actuality, I can be flirty, bawdy, raucous, and even hilarious. I hate having social anxiety. It keeps me from forming relationships… online and in real life. It has been 17 years since I dated. Yes…. it will be…. SEVENTEEN Years…. on Nov 18th. I have a wonderful ONLINE ONLY friendship with John. Known him for almost 4 years now.
You would never know it from reading my journal or my postings online but I have a high Intelligence Quotient… major issue I have is saying something that makes me look like a fool… or worrying about hurting other peoples feelings…. I worry way too much about what other people THINKS about me. Oh yep… I am also snobbishly proud to be the QUEEN Of the Ellipsis… LOL!
I want “THE REAL ANGELA” to come across online and in reality. I wish everyone could see the Angela that my sis Rosie and My Friend John sees. That would be a major breakthrough. I am gonna attempt to accomplish that and many other goals. 2011 has only a few months left and in those few months they are gonna be some spectacular changes in me. My appearance has changed dramatically in the 2 years, since I had gastric bypass and now is the time for my personality to shine brilliantly…. like a diamond in the sky. Sparking. Twinkling. Radiantly. Everlasting.
My renewed faith is strong and I know I can do anything I set my mind to.
I have to thank my beloved John for helping me get to this point in my life. He is the greatest man I have ever known after my Daddy. He is always there for me. Supportive. Compassionate. Considerate. Helpful. Complimentary. He is a professional. Works for the Scottish Government. Wears suits and Ties. WOW.. I loved the way he looked tonight. Majority of the time I see him in sweats but the past few evenings he has been working late and came to our webcam chat in his business attire. Tonight was a black dress shirt and a black and white polka dotted tie. So spiffy. Fashionable. I adore that he is so intelligent. He loves computers as much as I do. Knowledgeable in so many varied subjects… so unlike all the other men I have loved. Yes LOVED> I love that rascal and he loves me. He and I will remain ONLY friends unless God has other plans but for now it is a friendship. A partnership. He and I are emotionally closer than the preponderance of husbands and wives. He and I support one another. Comfort each other. ‘GET’ one another. So happy that I replied to his message 4 years ago. I knew immediately he was different. He and I met at a BBW “Big Beautiful Woman” friendship site… which has since shuttered.
John has been having some problems with his arm/elbow after falling off a ladder last weekend. Having major trouble sleeping. Pray that he gets a good nights sleep. I can’t wait to see him tomorrow night.
I have been tidying up my bedroom so John and I can have a private talk. It has been a long time since we chatted in private. Maybe twice in the last 2 years. Have been chatting on my laptop in Rosie’s room. Been TEXT chatting only… hope to talk by phone/webcam chat this weekend. He only has been seeing my face on webcam…. This weekend I will let him see me and the weight I have since lost.
I am experiencing body issues. Nothing new…. I was 315 lbs when I met John… and I was actually more comfy with my body then than I am now. I used to be way more provocative back then. I miss that part of me. Lately I have been wearing short dresses and tighter clothes. Even dyed my hair back to the color it was 20 years ago when I weighed the same. BLACK hair just suits me better. Even been wearing human hair extensions and wigs. Gastric bypass caused me to lose some of my luxurious mane. I cut over 15″ off over a year ago to see if that would make it look fuller. It didn’t…. Still almost as thin. My hair is now 23″ long again. It was over 30″ prior to the bypass. Hope to get it that long again. It is very healthy. Shiny. Just straggly and scrawny. Especially in the front area. :-( I am just thankful that they make decent and affordable hair extensions and wigs now. I do wear my own hair the majority of the time but [...]
Rosie is doing fantastic. She has lost over 100 lbs already. Went from a size 32 jean down to a 22. She and I went to the mall shopping today. Found all sorts of bargains. Got $600 worth of clothes for $125. We bought clothes from size 12 to 24 for her.
I am rocking a strapless dress in a Large junior size- Should have gotten a size Medium. :-) I Love being able to find such a wide variety of clothes since I am now wearing clothes in a so called “NORMAL” range. It is a shame BUT most Plus size clothes have limited colors, styles, sizes etc.
Found a pair of black high heel leather sandals for $4.99. Were $49.99
Got a pair of black leather mules last weekend and a pair of tone-up aka rocker shoes which I adore. So comfy. I am 5’10″in them! WOO-HOO!
Still needing to find a new pair of boots for the Autumn Season.
I didn’t sleep well at the hospital and it continues now that I am back home. So tired. Been having lots of aches and pains all over. The cooler weather affects my fibromylagia and chronic fatigue syndrome. I plan on heading to bed early tonight. Needing some rest and recuperation. Had an appt with my family doc but he was sick today. Rescheduled for next Tuesday. Get well Dr Melling!
I had such a lovely time with John tonight. We hadn’t seen each other much lately at all. Just so nice to laugh and relax with him. Shared so many laughs. He always makes me smile. So debonaire and handsome. Adoring. Caring. He and I LOVE one another deeply. Been almost 4 years since we met online. He is my soulmate. My best friend. He and I share EVERYTHING. No secrets. No lies. We understand one another. We are closer than 99.9% of married couples. Blessed to call John my bestie. :-)
When Rosie was in the hospital and was so ill… I started overeating carbs. Stress does that to me. I will get weighed on Thursday at Dr Boyce. Hope I haven’t gain more than 5 lbs. I am now back on track. PROTEIN PROTEIN PROTEIN!
I wore my hair up in an elaborate up-do with a large fuchsia “fascinator” flower. John loves fascinators.. Rosie has an extensive collection of them. She has been an avid fan for many years. Rosie also collects gloves. Sexy fancy gloves. Some are opera length. All sorts of colors, styles, textures, and lengths. Really cool ones. Rosie also collects tiara’s!
John thought I looked very elegant tonight… with my shoulders bare and my hair up…. He could not get over how gorgeous I looked tonight. He RARELY sees me all dolled up. Cause 95% of the time he sees me without ANY makeup and my hair in a pony tail. I dress-up ONLY 50% of the time when I go out shopping ( once or twice weekly) and I NEVER dress-up when I am at home.
I did my pedi last night. Jet Black toes. Gonna do my mani tomorrow. Prolly silver nails. I may add some glitter to my toe nails.
Need to trim my bangs/fringe. Need to get some scissors first. Rosie’s RN Portia needed a pair of good scissors to cut the sponge for Rosie’s wound vac for her hernia. So I lent my hair cutting scissors to her. Need new ones now.. since those are now too dull to cut hair. Going to Sally Beauty this weekend.
My hair is growing very fast. Thank God! Just wish it was a tad thicker. It was much thicker prior to my gastric bypass which was 2 years ago.
Purchased some new makeup items yesterday. Enjoying them all. May write some reviews later on. New foundation, eyeliner gels, lipsticks, and lip glosses. I am also rying out 2 new Body washes this week.
Digging Katy Perry’s PURR perfume (combining top notes of peach, forbidden apple, gardenia, green bamboo with the heart of jasmine, pink freesia, Bulgarian rose with the base of vanilla orchid, creamy sandalwood, white amber, coconut and musk.) It is YUMMY!
Had more than one man tell me that I resemble Katy Perry. I take it as a compliment.She is gorgeous… just wish I had Russell Brand! :-P He is one of my faves!
Dyed my hair JET black 2 days ago. Did Rosie’s in Light Intense Red. Looks cool!
Been lazy and haven’t took many pics lately. Did take some of Rosie today. Still need to get them from the camera to the laptop.
Rosie’s OPEN hernia wound is healing so quickly. Docs and nurses are amazed at how quickly it is healing. Hope they give the OK to stop the wound vac this week or next.
Rosie’s blood is too thin .. it was 4.8 yesterday. Gonna re-test tomorrow. It should be between 2 and 3. She is on coumadin (blood thinner) and is off it for 2 days to see if that help regulate it to a therapeutic level.
My IBS is doing ok. Went without Welchol a few days while Rosie was in the hsopital and I had some issues. Still having severe putrid gas but that goes with Gastric Bypass Surgery. The majority of people who have major stomach surgery complains with gas and gas pains. Some days it is much better than others. I always blame the cats and dog. LOL!
I had severe allergies this past few days. Yesterday I ended up taking a nap to help a sinus headache. That nap lasted 4 hours! LOL!
Getting off the laptop to go get a snack. Will prolly be cottage cheese and fresh pineapple. YUMMY!
I am so grateful for all the friends and family I have in my life.
Rosie is doing fantastic. She has lost over 100 lbs already. Went from a size 32 jean down to a 22. She and I went to the mall shopping today. Found all sorts of bargains. Got $600 worth of clothes for $125. We bought clothes from size 12 to 24 for her.
I am rocking a strapless dress in a Large junior size- Should have gotten a size Medium. :-) I Love being able to find such a wide variety of clothes since I am now wearing clothes in a so called “NORMAL” range. It is a shame BUT most Plus size clothes have limited colors, styles, sizes etc.
Found a pair of black high heel leather sandals for $4.99. Were $49.99
Got a pair of black leather mules last weekend and a pair of tone-up aka rocker shoes which I adore. So comfy. I am 5’10″in them! WOO-HOO!
Still needing to find a new pair of boots for the Autumn Season.
I didn’t sleep well at the hospital and it continues now that I am back home. So tired. Been having lots of aches and pains all over. The cooler weather affects my fibromylagia and chronic fatigue syndrome. I plan on heading to bed early tonight. Needing some rest and recuperation. Had an appt with my family doc but he was sick today. Rescheduled for next Tuesday. Get well Dr Melling!
I had such a lovely time with John tonight. We hadn’t seen each other much lately at all. Just so nice to laugh and relax with him. Shared so many laughs. He always makes me smile. So debonaire and handsome. Adoring. Caring. He and I LOVE one another deeply. Been almost 4 years since we met online. He is my soulmate. My best friend. He and I share EVERYTHING. No secrets. No lies. We understand one another. We are closer than 99.9% of married couples. Blessed to call John my bestie. :-)
When Rosie was in the hospital and was so ill… I started overeating carbs. Stress does that to me. I will get weighed on Thursday at Dr Boyce. Hope I haven’t gain more than 5 lbs. I am now back on track. PROTEIN PROTEIN PROTEIN!
I wore my hair up in an elaborate up-do with a large fuchsia “fascinator” flower. John loves fascinators.. Rosie has an extensive collection of them. She has been an avid fan for many years. Rosie also collects gloves. Sexy fancy gloves. Some are opera length. All sorts of colors, styles, textures, and lengths. Really cool ones. Rosie also collects tiara’s!
John thought I looked very elegant tonight… with my shoulders bare and my hair up…. He could not get over how gorgeous I looked tonight. He RARELY sees me all dolled up. Cause 95% of the time he sees me without ANY makeup and my hair in a pony tail. I dress-up ONLY 50% of the time when I go out shopping ( once or twice weekly) and I NEVER dress-up when I am at home.
I did my pedi last night. Jet Black toes. Gonna do my mani tomorrow. Prolly silver nails. I may add some glitter to my toe nails.
Need to trim my bangs/fringe. Need to get some scissors first. Rosie’s RN Portia needed a pair of good scissors to cut the sponge for Rosie’s wound vac for her hernia. So I lent my hair cutting scissors to her. Need new ones now.. since those are now too dull to cut hair. Going to Sally Beauty this weekend.
My hair is growing very fast. Thank God! Just wish it was a tad thicker. It was much thicker prior to my gastric bypass which was 2 years ago.
Purchased some new makeup items yesterday. Enjoying them all. May write some reviews later on. New foundation, eyeliner gels, lipsticks, and lip glosses. I am also rying out 2 new Body washes this week.
Digging Katy Perry’s PURR perfume (combining top notes of peach, forbidden apple, gardenia, green bamboo with the heart of jasmine, pink freesia, Bulgarian rose with the base of vanilla orchid, creamy sandalwood, white amber, coconut and musk.) It is YUMMY!
Had more than one man tell me that I resemble Katy Perry. I take it as a compliment.She is gorgeous… just wish I had Russell Brand! :-P He is one of my faves!
Dyed my hair JET black 2 days ago. Did Rosie’s in Light Intense Red. Looks cool!
Been lazy and haven’t took many pics lately. Did take some of Rosie today. Still need to get them from the camera to the laptop.
Rosie’s OPEN hernia wound is healing so quickly. Docs and nurses are amazed at how quickly it is healing. Hope they give the OK to stop the wound vac this week or next.
Rosie’s blood is too thin .. it was 4.8 yesterday. Gonna re-test tomorrow. It should be between 2 and 3. She is on coumadin (blood thinner) and is off it for 2 days to see if that help regulate it to a therapeutic level.
My IBS is doing ok. Went without Welchol a few days while Rosie was in the hsopital and I had some issues. Still having severe putrid gas but that goes with Gastric Bypass Surgery. The majority of people who have major stomach surgery complains with gas and gas pains. Some days it is much better than others. I always blame the cats and dog. LOL!
I had severe allergies this past few days. Yesterday I ended up taking a nap to help a sinus headache. That nap lasted 4 hours! LOL!
Getting off the laptop to go get a snack. Will prolly be cottage cheese and fresh pineapple. YUMMY!
I am so grateful for all the friends and family I have in my life.
Rosie and I went shopping this week for her some new smaller clothes. Got some sizes from 12-to-24 for her. Ordered a slew of new items from http://www.OneStopPlus.com clearance section.
I still have some items I purchased prior to my gastric bypass that I have yet to wear. I wore a size medium maxi dress yesterday. Size 8-10. It was stretchy material… and I looked incredible. Wore my hair up in an massive updo… with no makeup (just lipstick) and got all sorts of attention.
I bought a pair of black danskin STRETCH shorts yesterday at Wally World for myself… size small (4-6 ) and the rascals fits me.. With no muffin top… no butt showing… actually comfy…. YET here I am still a wee bit over 200 lbs… so I am positive that they are now creating sizes much larger than ever before! I am nowhere near a size 4-6 in juniors!
Had a lovely confab with John this evening. He looked so handsome…as he always does. He is such a delight. Adore him.
Dyed my hair raven black and cut 3 inches off Rosie’s hair today. Gonna dye her tresses auburn later this week. Praying that she doesn’t lose her hair like I did proceeding gastric bypass. My hair is still falling out like crazy! I make sure I take all my vitamins daily.
Been following a High Protein-Low Carb Diet. Been devouring salads… which I love. Rosie hates most veggies… her idea of a salad is olives, pickles, bacon bits and cheese. She does love potatoes, corn, beets, and cucumbers.
So pleased that Rosie is enjoying all the protein foods as well as the protein bars, shakes, pastas, oatmeals, and cereals. I was concerned that she would hate em all.
Asking for prayers for Rosie’s Biliopancreatic Diversion with Duodenal Switch Surgery. Thanks!
John (my best friend or I should say amigo) will be leaving in a few hours with his sister…. they are headed to Andalusia, Spain to celebrate the end of chemo and radiation treatments for his sis who was diagnosed with breast cancer. She needed a lumpectomy as well. He will be back next Monday but will hopefully find an internet cafe so he can send me a message or two.
He has not even left for the plane yet and I am already missing him. Been in tears. So stressed. Thank God for Xanax. He and I had a wonderful webcam session on MSN Live Messenger 2011. The best chat program around in my own humble opinion.
John has had a rough year. Severe infections, herniated discs, the flu, stomach issues… poor baby needs a holiday. He wasn’t feeling well tonight and was dreading the trip. I pray that he wakes up feeling better and can enjoy the time with his family. Nice breezy warm weather is my wish for him. Can’t wait to see his tan… he tans so nicely.
John asked me not to cry while he was away but I already have on 2 occasions and it has been less than 4 hours since I last saw him.
SHOPPING:
Went to the Farmers Market to find it closed. So we ended up at Walmart. Picked up some fresh produce: banana’s, peaches, watermelon, cucumbers, tomatoes, onions, and romaine lettuce. We already have pole beans in the fridge. Having all that tomorrow. YUMMY!
Gonna pick up some fresh strawberries, jumbo size cantaloupes, and corn on the cob this week.
Going to clean my bedroom tomorrow.
Tuesday Rosie (my sis) goes to her urologist for a KUB test.
Thursday will be Movie day… heading to the cinema’s… not sure what to see. Will either be Pirates of The Caribbean IV or X-Men: First Class… if Dad goes. If it is just Rosie and me, we will prolly see Bridesmaids.
Gonna try and keep busy… TRY to get my mind off John… I go insane without seeing him and talking to him daily. He gives me so much support and a serenity like I have never known.
Such a good man and an even better human being!
MAKE-UP:
I absolutely adore my Ardell Brow and Lash Growth Accelerator.
Ardell Brow and Lash Growth Accelerator.
My eyelashes are so much fuller and longer since I stated using it. THRILLED and it is such a BARGAIN in comparison to the similar production available.Plus I now have eyebrows!!! I am beyond thrilled with it.
I have also mastered filling in and enhancing my eyebrows. I am using Ardell Brow Defining Pallet Dark and Ardell Brow Sculpting Gel
Ardell Brow Defining Pallet
Ardell Brow Shaping Gel
Very pleased with ALL the Ardell Products I have tried.
NAILS:
I have pared my finger nails down. Very short. Gonna start growing them again. They grow so very fast. Gonna polish/varnish them with Revlon’s MidNight Affair and add some rhinestones to them tomorrow.
Revlon MidNight Affair Nail Polish Varnish
My toes are currently polished Black with a diamond dust overlay. My 2 big toes have a Large and a Small Rhinestone. So cute.I purchased so many adorable nail stickers… from the discount bin.
HAIR & MAKEUP:
I am digging my short BETTIE BANGS. I can wear them down or curl them back. I am now rocking the classic pin-up look with a more modern makeup approach. I did the classic pin-up eye today and ended up adding eyeliner gel to my lower lashline. My eyes get lost without it. I purchased the Professional ANGLED Finepoint Eyeliner Brush by ULTA and it is so much easier to draw a smooth line on my upper lash line. LOVE IT!
Ulta Finepoint ANGLED Eyeliner Brush
I have been using Extreme Wear Gel Liner By Ulta. Rosie and I have all 5 Shades. Each are lovely. Black, Brown, Blue, Green, and Purple. I adore the green. Really enhances my hazel eyes.
Extreme Wear Gel Liner ULTA
SOCIAL ANXIETY:
I had a panic attack at Walmart checkout. Got in line with a female cashier and before it was my turn to checkout… a male took over… He wanted to chat.. lately all men I meet wanna talk to me. PANIC STRICKEN…. I started sweating… drenched… then had chills while still perspiring heavily and then the racing heart. UGH!
HEALTH:
Gonna see my family Dr Blake Melling this week in regards to my nerves, anxiety, mood swings and my stomach issues.
STUFF:
I still can’t believe I got my drivers license. So excited. I am driving to Knoxville on Tuesday. One of my fave trips. I *THINK* dad is enjoying being chauffeured around.
I finally have my own set of keys to the house and our mini-van. Been buying all sorts of keys and key-chains. The house key is made from Tinkerbell casting! I usually don’t carry a purse but got an adorable blue jean Tinkerbell one.
TinkerBell
Also have a key-chain with ANGELA that is psychedelic and is animated when tilted… and a solar powered flashing light key chain that that says PRINCESS> John calls me Princess. :-) Also have a pink flashlight for my key-chain and a massive pink crystal heart. Also got some Tinkerbell window decals for MY van! I tell Dad it is now MINE. LOL!
A Local Bank temperature reading today was 101. It was a scorcher.
I am off to read the news, gossip, and Facebook status’ of my friends and family and then heading to bed.
I am not the same woman I was a few years ago and that is in a good way.
I only wish I could enjoy all the fabulous changes and opportunities coming my way… But Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromylagia are not allowing that. If I over-do it even a lil bit I am down for days trying to recoup from it. I have been aching from my head to my toes lately. Exhausted and lethargic. Been needing 12 hours of sleep even to attempt getting up the next day.
I have to Thank God, Dad, Rosie and John for helping me overcome so many obstacles. Also many thanks to all my doctors: Dr Blake Melling (Family Doctor) , Dr Joanne Langton (Endocrinologist) , and Dr Aqueel Kouser (Rheumatologist) to just mention a few.
Spent a lovely 3 night / 4 day weekend in Gatlinburg with my Sister Rosie. I was more fatigued this time than last years mini-vacay to Gatlinburg Family Fest / Gaither Homecoming Concerts. Went to 5 shows. Had a good time in spite of hurting in my shoulders, neck, back, legs and tailbone. I had to go to the bathroom often just to help relieve some of the tailbone aches. It helped.
I am down over 110 lbs now. Wearing a size 10-12. Receiving so much attention from men and I love it. Had guys ask me this past weekend if they could have their picture taken with me…. and that is not counting the ones who took my picture without even asking. FLATTERING.
I am dressing different than I had been. Getting back to dressing more provocative but not over doing it… gotta remember I am a 45 year old woman. Loving wearing dresses and showing off my legs.
Angela trying to look sexy and failing at it miserably. LOL!
My hair is now Jet Black. I use to dye it black for years… mainly in my 20′s. Love it and so does everyone else! I also cut some short bangs ala Bettie Page style.. but I still can style them away from my face if I want to. I sometimes wear hair extensions, wigs, and clip on pony-tails on occasion. Like to change my look often. Been wearing my hair is a beehive bouffant style lately.
Rosie had a eye appt. Visual Field Test prior to starting Plaquenil. My eye doc who is also Rosie’s eye doc, his nurse and receptionist barely recognized me. First time they had seen me with Makeup. I look majorly different with makeup they could not believe how beautiful I looked today.
I finally was brave enough to go take my road test to get my drivers license. Didn’t tell no one but Dad and Rosie just in case I failed… BUT I passed on my first attempt. WOO-HOO! Now if I can only get Dad to let me and Rosie take the mini-van out alone. He still says no… that I am not ready for that yet. I hope to make a short trip out with just Rosie and I…. we may go to the grocery store OR to McDonalds for some Unsweetened Ice Tea. MAYBE.
Rosie has a surgery date for Gastric Bypass. It is July 26th. She has to get pre-op testing, take an education class over the next few weeks. She will be on a low carb-high protein diet all of July. She has already lost 2 dress sizes. I am so proud of her.
Rose and Angela Picture was taken on Rosie's 44th Birthday
Gonna be driving to West Virginia to visit family as soon as the weather dips down to the 70′s- mid 80′s.
I do have more self confidence on some days. Still suffering from panic attacks. On Xanax full time now. SNOOZE…
My Rheumy has me on a high dose of a narcotic and it is helping *some* with the pain I have but it makes me so drowsy. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. Snore…
Sugars are doing well. My Insurance will not cover Victoza injections but my doc is willing to give me samples. I may have to go on byetta soon. Will see.
Been having severe anxiety and depression at times. Gonna discuss it with Melling this week. I feel so helpless and worthless at times.
Rosie’s lower back has been aching for a few weeks now. She sees her urologist Dr Bedford Waters this week in Knoxville. I am driving. Can’t wait.
I am 45 years old and got my first set of keys for the car and house now.
I even pumped gas for the very 1st time last week. Kudos to me.
I have been pampered, spoiled and protected by my family for far too long.
I have even learned how to wash and dry clothes… still haven’t mastered the skill of putting clothes away. Nor doing dishes.
Dad has been in and out of the hospital for a few months. Currently he has protein in his urine, enlarged heart, COPD, pneumonia, a bum knee that needs replaced… and a case of the worst “grumpys n grouchys” in the world. His Doctors doesn’t want him doing anything but he still does some… albeit not as much as he used to. I know how tough it is on him to sit and do nothing… that contributes to his moodiness. He is rough on me and Rosie at times but we still love him.
Smoki went to Lowes today. Oh yea.. Smoki is my Cairn Terrier. He loves Lowes… and of course everyone adores Smoki. He is a doll. He wore his black leather fringe bandana today and he goes crazy when he see’s it and can’t wait till it is on him … and hates when we take it off. Went to Lowes to look for Dad a new riding lawn mower. Should be delivered tomorrow. His old lawn tractor has seen its last days. Also bought Dad a new TV 32″ LCD Plasma. He put it in his bedroom since that is where he spends most of his time lately. Appreciate prayers for him. THANKS!
Smoki My Cairn Terrier aka TOTO Dog
Then we took Smoki to Wendy’s for a Jr. Bacon Cheeseburger plain. His fave.
Smoki
Came home to a brilliant webcam session with John. He is heading to Spain on Monday with his Sis to celebrate her finishing her last chemo/radiation treatments and hopefully is now free of breast cancer. John is the best. He and I get closer daily. Known one another for over 3 years now. Best friends. I am already missing him. He will be away a week but will send me emails/text messages.
Been having severe stomach issues again. Left upper quadrant pain and other issues. IBS Sucks.
May go to the cinema to see a movie this weekend.
Praying for all my Aunts, Uncles, and cousins… as well as my friends. Been reconnecting with so many people I went to school with on Faceook. I love getting reacquainted.
Tailbone is aching so I had better finish this and post it. Heading to bed.
Dita Von Tesse is a classic beauty and burlesque performer. Miss Von Teese is one of the few beauty icons who has very pale ivory skin. She is a natural blonde but dyes her hair and eyebrows a luxurious shade of raven black. Her type of beauty goes back the the pin-up glory days of such artists as Bettie Page.
Dita is the 1st BEAUTY ICON I am featuring….
Dita Von Teese "the Queen of Burlesque"
Dita Von Teese is an American burlesque artist, model and actress. She was born Heather Renée Sweet on September 28, 1972, in Rochester, Michigan, the middle of three daughters.Her mother was a manicurist and her father was a machinist at a company that made graphite. She is of partly Armenian heritage. She was classically trained as a ballet dancer from an early age. She started her career at strip clubs then she began some glamour modeling, before she eventually became a fetish model. Her retro pin-up look, frequently emulating Bettie Page in photo shoots. Von Teese stands at 5 ft’ 5″ (165 cm.) and weighs 114 pounds (52 kg)
Dita Von Teese is interviewed by Tina Turnbow is a professional makeup artist, who is known for lending her celebrity clients editorial polish.Dita offers her favorite beauty products and her make-up and hair tips in the article.
This past Cinco De Mayo, I enjoyed sipping a new signature cocktail from Cointreau with the brand’s beautiful spokesperson, Dita Von Teese. The cocktail, which was called the MargaDita, was as well put together as the lady herself. Between sips, we discussed the power of sunglasses, damp skin and her opium-den requirements.
TT: If pressed for time when doing your makeup, what are your bare essentials?
DVT: Flawless skin is the most important thing, then red lips. In exactly that order. Red lips don’t look good on blotchy, uneven skin. I use Dior Capture Totale Foundation, and a dusting of Mineralize Powder by MAC. Dior Dolce Vita is my favorite red lipstick. When in a rush, I tie my hair back and throw on a great pair of sunglasses…and voila! Don’t underestimate the cosmetic power of sunglasses. It’s worth spending a bit of money on a quality pair. I usually go for Dior or Louis Vuitton.
TT: I can tell that underneath the foundation and powder you have lovely skin. How do you care for it?
DVT: I have really sensitive skin, and a few allergies, so I stay on it. I recently had a bout with rosacea. I was told by a big name dermatologist, “this is your life now,” because he couldn’t figure out how to get rid of it. A million creams later, I went to a real skin doctor in Orange County. He prescribed a pill and one lotion, and boom, it was gone. The moral being: find the guy who takes your insurance.
TT: He sounds knowledgeable. Did he give you any other tips?
DVT: Yes, he said it doesn’t matter what moisturizer you use. Just make sure you put it on right after cleansing, while your skin is still damp. That way your pores can absorb it while they are still open. So choose any cream you like for the face and body. My choice is always Creme de la Mer- it’s pricey, but so worth it.
TT: Do you usually prefer a very matte look?
DVT: Always, glowing is not my thing. A matte finish diffuses any features about my face that I’m not comfortable with, while shine highlights them. It’s like soft-focus magic. Plus, my favorite look in makeup comes from the era when women kept their skin matte and flawless.
TT: Who are your favorite beauty icons?
DVT: Oh, my all time favorite is Betty Grable. Her look, her humor and most of all her spirit and sense of individuality. Just like Madonna 20 years ago. She was unlike anyone, and stayed true to herself. Modern day, I find Carmen Dell’Orefice very unique and fantastic.
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TT: Has it taken time to find what works best for you?
DVT: My look has taken time to evolve. I’ve gotten to a place where I feel pretty and confident. I think that’s important for anyone. Personally, I have no reason to change it, no matter what people say or advise. I will save baring all for the person I am intimate with.
TT: When you have time to put a “cat eye” on, what is your favorite liner and do you have any tips about application?
DVT: Stay in shape with it. When I go a while without putting it on, it’s always rough at first. But when I’ve been applying it daily, it’s “whooosh;” it goes on seamlessly. Generally, getting that perfect, flattering line is hard! I look down into a mirror to apply it so I can see the shape and match them up better. Make sure not to pull your eyelid out at the side, because when you let go, the line will be a completely different shape. My favorite liner is Guerlain Divinora Liquid Liner. For lashes, its Dior Show Mascara. A truly winning combo!
TT: Being a natural blonde, what do you use to darken your brows?
DVT: It’s easy with Just For Men hair dye. I’m kind of a do-it-yourself person as far as my hair, makeup and styling go. I’m in the process of writing a beauty book, where I do it all. It’s hard work. But nothing good comes easy.
TT: As for your incredible figure- how do you stay in shape?
DVT: I think variety is key. I prefer the competitive atmosphere of a classroom setting, like yoga or Pilates. That keeps me going. Although performing on stage is great exercise! I just haven’t been doing it as much as I’d like. It’s all the requirements and special effects I need to do a show. Many venues are not big enough or are not set up for everything. Many can’t accommodate my Opium Den, for example, which is part of my most opulent show. I won’t settle for middle of the road- I go for grand. I’m pretty particular, as you might have guessed.
I wore them for the first time today and really enjoyed the quick and ease of use. They clip-on or as some say clip-in your hair with 2 small snaps… that did not tug or yank my hair or scalp. They made my shoulder length hair have some pizazz without having to chop my hair. They gave me an entire different look with-in seconds. I have purchased 2 more different style bangs/fringe and will post pics when I wear them.
Angela
Angela
Angela
I am wearing #2 Black and it matches my hair nicely. They come in colors from blonde to black with a few nice brown and red shades.
#39 matches my sis’ Rosie’s hair nicely.
They are very full bangs. Thick, very shiny and luxurious.
KKCenterHK shipped quickly and I will order from them again. Awesome buy.
I plan on wearing the bangs farther back on my head with some soft waves to get the Bettie Page famous bang. I really dig her style.http://www.bettiepage.com
To purchase these bangs / fringe go to:
~Angela
Base: Maybelline Super Stay Foundation in “Ivory”
Lipcolor: L’oreal Infallible “Ravishing Red”
Eyes: “Black Goddess” Eyeshadow by Essence, Ulta “Prime” Eye Liner Gel, and Maybelline Great Lash Mascara in “Blackest Black“
Cheeks: Estee Lauder Blush (Free Gift.. not certain of name)
Brushes: Art Brushes from Hobby Lobby when they had a 50% off sale.
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