Rosie is at Parkwest ER. Checking her blood. Just took her for an abdominal CT Scan. She has been vomiting, having diarrhea, nausea, and pain. She is so weak. Will update on Facebook and Twitter via phone. Laptop battery will soon be dying. Hospital has blocked facebook and twitter via their wireless. This may get posted to facebook and twitter through my wordpress. I am HOPING.
Gonna be a long day. IF they do admit her I have to go home to get my meds. Will return tomorrow morn to stay with her.
So stressed with worry. Rosie has been crying in pain. Just not feeling well. Makes me so sad to see her like this. Feel hopeless. Trusting God to let the doctors, nurses and techs determine and fix what is wrong with her. I love my sissy,.
Rosie had nausea all day. No hunger. But she did eat some chicken noodle soup.. which she vomited back up. We believe her nausea, diarrhea, and vomiting is due to the antibiotic Augmentin that she has been on.
Manicure: BLACK STAR by Revlon Top Speed.
Will be happy to get out of the house tomorrow. Can’t believe I actually want to go out. Used to hate it so much that I avoided leaving the house at all. I even went almost 20 years without going to a movie. Rosie and I now go often as we like to.
Slowly but surely I am becoming more extroverted. Enjoying all the male attention I have started receiving again. So thrilled with my weight loss. Gives me so much more confidence.
Had a lovely webcam chat with John tonight. He went to the dentist and they couldn’t find anything wrong. They think he has a food particle trapped in his gum line. He was feeling so much better today. He was playful, naughty and so much fun. I love that silver haired rascal.
I have been celibate for a while now. What I miss most is kissing and hugs. I have only kissed a few men….
Best kisser was a guy named Roger. He was 3rd runner up for Mr West Virginia. A Body builder…. an incredible body. Regret that I didn’t sleep with him.Almost did.
Gary was a man I dated for 6 months. He is a multi-millionaire. He owned 28 houses when I was with him. Plus numerous companies. I loved going out on his 44 foot cabin cruiser… speeding up and down the Kanawha river in Charleston. Or going over 100MPH in his corvette, So much fun. He was just too busy and didn’t devote enough time to build a relationship.
I truly miss Michael from Mississippi. He was the love of my life (so far) Such a loving , compassionate man. He and I dated for 2 years. He was a Momma’s boy and would not move to West Virginia. We remained close friends till he passed away from a brain tumor. I am getting chills just from thinking of all the wonderful memories he and I shared. My parents adored him. We traveled together. Best vacay was spent in a deluxe cabin in Pigeon Forge. Jacuzzi is all I will say.. but wow-weee we had a blast.
I only kissed one other man but I don’t have ANY fond memories of him. PRAISE GOD that I got him out of my life. Mom, Dad and Rose all hated him and now I understand why. I deserve so much more than he had to offer.
Doing well on my diet. Will get weighed tomorrow at Dr Boyce’s office.
I will probably drive to Knoxville tomorrow. Last year at this time I didn’t even having my driver’s license. So proud of what I have accomplished over the past few years.
Still having panic attacks at times. Having less of them but when I have one it is more intense than they use to be.
I am going to smile and talk to more people tomorrow.
Dear God,
Use me to do more for You. I am willing, Help me realize what gifts you have given me. Use me to help others. Use me for Your glory. Grant me patience, knowledge, wisdom, fortitude, compassion, understanding… I know I was put in Earth for a reason… Send people into my life who will help me do what You intended for me. I surrender to thee. Lord, Open my eyes, heart, mind, soul to know what man I was created for. I truly believe I am meant to have a helpmate. Just haven’t found him yet. I pray that whomever my helpmate is that God will protect us and guide us together. Speak to my helpmate and I…through the holy spirit… to let us know that we are waiting for one another… Show us the pathway. Encourage us both. Let us know who, when, where. We both are listening. Let him feel my prayers. I surrender US to God.
Going to Knoxville tomorrow. Rose’s has an appt with her surgeon. She is still swollen from her hernia repair surgery. Painful as well. Hope Dr Boyce can drain the seroma tomorrow. Hope she does not have to be hospitalized. I pray that Rosie gets healthy and STAY healthy.
Angela Rose’s Day Spa has been open for an hour. Getting all beautified for our trip tomorrow.
Completed Facial, Shaving, Hair deep-conditioned and Curled.
Pedicure completed.
Raven Black Toenails.
Doing manicure later tonight. Either black or silver.
Going to start to whiten my teeth tonight. Already did a scrub with Baking Soda. Feels so clean. Rosie got me an Electric toothbrush for Christmas. Going to start using it tomorrow. Also have Crest 3D White Intensive Professional Effects Whitestrips with Advanced Seal Technology Kit.
Gave Rosie a facial after her home health aide bathed her and shampooed her hair. She wants to get dolled up tomorrow… IF she is able to. She is still having nausea and diarrhea.
Somehow I ran out of my anti-anxiety med Buspar and didn’t notice it till last night. Back on it now. I apologize for being so moody and dramatic. Buspar should get me back to somewhat normal moods.
As my regular readers know, I lost almost 30% of my hair after my gastric bypass… which is fairly common. At the time of surgery my hair was almost to my waist. I ended up cutting it to my shoulders to make it look fuller. Which it did. Last month I had all sorts of new hair that had grown in and was all sorts of weird lengths so I cut off 4 inches. It is now growing out again. EVEN MORE FULLER THAN PRIOR TO SURGERY. Hope to get it back down to my waist again. Will take 2-3 years. I will wear 100% human hair extensions occasionally just to change my look… as you know I love to do.
Thankful that over the past 20 years I have grown up so much. A totally different person than I was. Wisdom and knowledge is such a blessing. So grateful for the people who helped me get to the point I am now in life. Doubly Blessed in that Department.
Have so much peace and serenity today. Thank all of you for the well wishes and prayers. Getting a decent nights sleep helped tremendously.
Haven’t heard from a few friends… hope I didn’t say or do something to offend them. IF I did I apologize. I miss them. SAD.
Hope Rosie feels well enough to go to the Mall in Knoxville. Plans are to eat at Mimi’s Cafe. Have a coupon for Buy an Entree get one FREE!
I am planning on wearing a black floral short dress tomorrow with black pantyhose and black knee-high boots. I have a pink cardigan to wear IF it is cold. Will probably do full makeup. Maybe even add false eyelashes. Depends IF I have time. I have to get up at 7 am. My bedtime has bed 4 am or later for weeks. Hope to get to bed by 11-12 tonight.
Sending much love to everyone. Pray that everyone in the world has LOVE, Serenity, Health, and knows and LOVES GOD.
Rosie had a bad day. Diarrhea, Nausea, and Vomiting. Still having swelling and pain in her abdomen. Hate seeing her be so miserable. She sees her surgeon on Wednesday.
My moods fluctuated wildly today. So worried about Rosie.
Did get in an hour of housework. Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia sucks.
Didn’t get to see John tonight. Pray he is feeling better. Poor Baby.
Missing some of my friends. Pray that they are doing well.
With Rosie going through good days and bad days since her gastric bypass (June 26th, 2011) is really taking its toll on me. I have to do more since she feels so bad. Hasn’t been on her laptop, netbook or PC in over a week now.Yep, Rosie and I have our own laptop and netbook but we share the PC.
I get thrilled when she is feeling good and then severely depressed when she isn’t.A ROLLER COASTER OF EMOTIONS!
Haven’t slept well in over a week. May get in 2 straight hours at a time. Frustrating but Rosie needs my assistance with so many things.
Hope to get all dolled up for our trip to Knoxville on Wed. Hope to take some new pics.
Missing my family in WV but will see them soon as Rosie feels better. Will stay at Twin Falls in a cabin.
Hope that I can sleep 4 straight hours tonight. Would make me feel so much better.
Sending love to all my readers. Thanks for your prayers, support, and words of encouragement.
I have been missing my mom so much.Been over 5 years since she passed. Dream of her nightly. She was such a blessing to all those who knew her. I LOVE MY MOMMY!
Glad that my Dad is doing well. He will be 71 in March. He has done so much for Rosie and I. I am so grateful for all he does.
Almost 3 am and everyone here is sound asleep except for me. I stay up late most nights. Rarely get in bed prior to 2 am.
Rosie and I watched ZOOKEEPER tonight. It was so-s0.
May go to the cinema’s this week if Rosie feels like it.
Everything is so convenient to us here. We are blessed to live on 2 acres, in a nice brick ranch home. Live with-in 40 min of Knoxville… that is when I drive.
Hope Rosie wakes up with her edema gone. Poor baby felt bad this evening. Running a 99 fever. She normally runs around 96-97. Hope she does not end up in the hospital this week. Been so stressed and worried about her. Hate seeing her in so much pain. So happy that she is at least eating again. Had been almost 4 months since she has enjoyed eating without nausea and vomiting.
Rosie wore my red size large sweater today. She is getting skinnier by the day. She will get weighed on Wednesday. I bet she has dropped 20 more pounds. Gonna be thinner than me soon.
Dad, Rosie and I ended up at O’Charleys after grocery shopping. Rosie and I split the steak and shrimp. Rosie ate one shrimp and about 3 oz steak. Nothing else.
I had 3 shrimp and an ounce of steak. Only had 3 spoonfuls of the tater soup. They brought me enough Caesar salad to feed an army. Ate only about a cup. Was stuffed. The Boys had plenty of leftovers from us, including prime rib from Dad.
Got a lot of bargains at the grocery store. Dad and I are having coconut shrimp tomorrow. Rosie is having her fave fish : orange roughy. Cooking roasted corn, roasted asparagus and perhaps a tater dish. Fresh Strawberries for Dessert. YUM YUM
Rosie and I need to hit the mall this week to see what is on sale. Needing some new short dresses or skirts. Adoring my legs.
Didn’t get to webcam with John tonight. He was expecting a storm so he is prolly without power. He has been feeling so bad for almost a year. Back, Shoulder, and Elbow issues. Lately he’s had a toothache. Pray that he is sleeping well tonight. Hoping he is warm and toasty. He is my baby Love. We are soul-mates. He has helped me become the lady I am today. I am gonna make him a new video of me. That always makes him feel better.
Haven’t heard from SJ or RH today. Hope they are relaxing and enjoying life. They both work too hard. Sending prayers their way.
Gonna holler for my babies: Snickers, Smoki, Jazzi, Punkin and Tater and head to my bedroom. Most nights I have 3-4 of em in bed with me. I stay in Rosie’s room till 2-3 am encase she needs me. We have a phone intercom system if she needs me while I am asleep.
First of all… We surrender OUR all to God… not some Daily fortune. The daily fortune we got today made us Smile.
Daily fortunes, horoscopes, prognosticators, etc usually say nothing in regards to what is happening in our lives…YET We received the following today:
You are about to enter a new phase in life. You may find that you attract a lot of unusual new friends. Some kind of shared experience or interest could bring you together with people who are strongly interested in making changes in the world.
We assume the UNUSUAL New Friends mean: Rick, Shane, Carmen, Terri, Rebecca, plus all our new Facebook and Twitter friends. Shane and Rick, both have already started changing OUR lives. THANKS Guys! They both have already directly and indirectly made positive influences affecting millions of other people’s lives… including yours. We pray that God continues to use them both to make the world a more peaceful place to live… After all GOD IS LOVE!
We seek and are listening to God’s still small voice for wisdom, guidance, discernment and direction for our lives. Take our hands and lead us Precious Lord.
Watching Whitney Houston’s funeral. Blessed hearing the gospel through word and prayer. Praying for her family and friends. Especially her daughter Bobbi Kristina. Can only imagine what she is going through. Hope she can deal with all her emotions, feelings, anxiety, worries, and conqueror her demons,IF she has any. I truly believe the Lord can help her become a strong, determined, and focused young woman. Dealing with this tragedy will be difficult but not impossible. For all Things are possible with God. My thoughts and prayers are with her.
God Bless Whitney, Bobbi Kristina and Their Families,
I have lost 110 lbs and Rosie has lost over 175 lbs. She is sore from her hernia repair. Hope to get her up in her wheelchair tomorrow. Made her rest all day. She is eating so much better. Still in small quantities. At least she is not nauseated nor vomiting now. Praise The Lord.
I have so many new friends on Facebook and Twitter. I love em all dearly. Cher is even following me!
We no longer play Farmville.
Love our new dog SnickerDoodle (Longhaired Miniature Dachshund) He is blond with copper nose and eyes. No one has ever seen one like him. He is so precious. Sleeps with me and worships the ground I walk on.
Smoki (Cairn Terrier) is buddies with Snickers. Even our Cats LOVE him: Panther, Jazzi, Punkin, and Tater.
Hope to head to Gatlinburg /Pigeon Forge/ Sevierville this weekend.
Rosie goes back to see her surgeon on the 22nd in Knoxville.
Plan to go to West Virginia next month.
Rosie and I have become friends with RH a music promoter/energy company CEO/ political adviser/ Doctor/ and all around decent Christian man. Also friends with SJ who is RH’s CFO. Friendly with a lot of their friends. They all have accepted my friendship with open arms. They give me so much love and support. They have helped me gain confidence and self-esteem. MAY GOD BLESS THEM ALL!
Rosie and I have some exciting news but we are not at liberty to offer any details as of yet. Waiting to hear the decisions they have made. WOW! I can’t wait.
I have never been this excited about anything compared to the way I feel now… I am starting to love and enjoy everything that God has blessed me with… looking forward to see what else is coming my way. Rosie is just as excited as I am.
Receiving all sorts of messages from men wanting to date me… undecided. Waiting for the Lord to guide me.
So glad that Rosie did well with the hernia repair. I am so blessed to have her as a sis and as my best friend.
Still close to John. We webcam chat daily. Such a major supporter of me. Without his encouragement I would not be the woman I am today. THANKS BabyLove!!
Allergy shots tomorrow IF Rosie is able to sit up and get in her wheelchair.
Snickers is eating a granny smith apple. Carrying it around. So cute.
Excited about the upcoming Elections. I am a proud liberal Democrat !
I believe in Equality for everyone!
I have lost 2 lbs in the last 365 days… but have lost 5″ from my waist! HAPPY DANCE!
Missing all my WV cousins. Love all of you. Hope to stay in a Cabin at Twin Falls Resort next month. All of my family is invited! Had a blast last time.
Not having as many panic attacks as I use to…. BUT when I do they are nasty…. flushed face, severe sweating and the shakes. UGH!
Still having flare-up from my fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome. That will probably never change. Trying to cope and deal with it. Extremely tired tonight. Been having Fibro Fog. I hate it so much. My mind works in slow-mo at times. So forgetful.
IBS is under control. No accidents in months.
Diabetes treated only with a pill. Been off insulin pump for months now.
So hopeful for my future. I surrender to God. Everything. Total. All of me. Use me. Guide me. Give me Patience, Wisdom, Hope, Faith, Trust, Love, and Health. I ask that for me, as well as my family and friends. SERENITY.
Rosie is out of surgery. It went well. It was a medium size hernia. Repaired laparoscopically. We will get to see her in about an hour. If she feels OK she gets to go home.
Surgeon is AMAZED at her weight loss. Wants her to eat more protein and take her vitamins.
Just hoping that she now can eat without having nausea, vomiting, and diarrhea.
Thanks for your prayers.
Hoping that we are going to be home this evening to watch WESTMINSTERS DOG SHOW.
Nurses and Doctors both failed at getting an IV started. Last I heard they were putting in a central line. She is in holding, Surgery should be starting any minute. She is having laparoscopic umbilical Hernia repair ONLY. No tummy tuck. If things go as planned. Surgery will take about an hour. She may even get to go home this afternoon. I am hopeful. She was feeling so nauseous this morn. Weak and tired… Hoping the hernia repair will take care of all her issues. I love my sissy.
I have had a panic attack for almost an hour. I am drenched with sweat. Finally calming down, still having the shakes.
Praying that the surgery goes as planned and Rosie gets to come home today. That would be awesome. I bought enough clothes and snacks for a 3 week stay… which is what it was last time. Don’t have your Dad pick out clothes to bring you! LOL! Last time he brought clothes that were too big for me or some of the clothes I wear to piddle around the house. UGH!
I don’t have computer access to facebook nor twitter. Hospital has it blocked.
I posted a message by phone to facebook and one to twitter earlier this morn. Not sure if they went through or not.
Well, Rosie is doing ok. Has a blood clot in her left leg. It has been swollen and painful. It is only superficial.
Her umbilical hernia has been repaired twice in 10 years. It will be repaired again on Monday at ParkWest Hospital, and she will be also having a tummy tuck. She has lost 15″ off her waist now. Dropped over 175 lbs. She even has lost 3″ off her neck. She has had a few good days. Her intestines are poking out from the hernia. Looks weird…. you can see it move and all. It causes her to have nausea. She has actually ate the past few days. She goes days without much nutrition at all. Just doesn’t want to eat. Hoping the hernia repair makes her less nauseous. I love her so much. She can now wear size 8-9 panties! Smallest shirt has been a 14.
She will be fitted for a new electric wheelchair in June. She is so excited. Her current chair sucks! Gonna try and see IF she will fit in our Mom’s old electric wheelchair tomorrow. Hope she can. It would be much more comfy for her. She has been wheelchair bound since she was 16. Can’t walk at all. She can stand for about 10 sec. Rosie will be 45 in May. She is perhaps the happiest person I have ever met. Proud to call her my best friend and My Sissy!
Had another CT SCAN on my tummy and nothing abnormal was found. Even though I have not lost any additional weight My waist is down to 35″ now. Was 40. Guess I am STILL Shaping up. I have lost 110 lbs. My hips are 38″ without measuring the excess skin hanging from my tummy. Smallest dress I have worn is a 10. I am gonna lose a few more pounds and somehow TRY to get my insurance to pay for a tummy tuck. WISH ME LUCK!
Still having aches and pains from Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia. Shoulders, Thighs, Knee’s, Elbows, Hands and Feet. Seems that will never change. Insomnia is not as bad. TRIED sleeping without my sleep meds the other night. Finally gave in and took em at 6:30 am and slept like a babe. Wish I didn’t get so tired, so easily.
I have made a few more friends via Twitter and Facebook. Some I consider dear friends. I am blessed. Panic attacks have lessened. Doing my best to become more outgoing. Being more receptive to men.
Sending special prayers to Brandy, John, Dreama, Bret, Shane, Chrissy, Stephen, Janna, Russell, Carmen, Rebecca, Terri, Sara, Becky, Charles, Shay, Blake, JR, Sue, Earlene, and Rick.
♥ LOVE U ALL ♥
I know that this year will be MY YEAR!
My moods swings have stabilized for now.
I started allergy shots a few weeks ago.
Still close to John. He gives me so much support, encouragement and serenity.
I am more confident than ever. I even go out grocery shopping without any makeup.
Receiving lots of attention from the male species. Loving it. Receiving just as many flirts when I have no makeup on as I do with full Drag-Queen makeup.
Grateful that I don’t look 46. Some people think I am in my early 20′s….. love that!
I cut Rosie’s hair in a medium length shag. First time we curled it was tonight. Can’t wait to see the results tomorrow.
Plan are to go to West Virginia in March. All depends on Rosie’s recovery.
Dad is taking THE BOYS “Smoki and Snickers” everywhere we go”.
Tater Bug
Jazzi
Punkin
Our life is good and is only gonna get better!
Hopefully over the next few months we will be able to share some very exciting news and changes happening in Our lives. We have High Hopes.
After 17 years of celibacy I have decided to date!
Praying for wisdom, guidance and patience.
I am also becoming more extroverted online and in the real world.
Been blessed to be making more friends online. I am actually messaging a few male friends back now. MAJOR ADVANCEMENT !
BUCKET LIST:
Date Again!
See the ocean.
Fly in a plane.
Get my passport.
Get married again.
Use all the gifts God gave me.
Be more supportive of everyone… except Republicans. LOL!
Be more compassionate.
Be more outgoing.
Stop having social anxiety and panic attacks.
Get use to talking on the phone without having a panic attack.
Get healthier.
Smile more.
Help those less fortunate.
Be more patient.
Be more vocal online.
Lose more weight.
Make new friends.
I have a few men that I am interested in. Just wanting for them to make a move. Having all kinds of men flirt with me online and reality… I am now trying to FLIRT with guys in person. Social Anxiety Sucks!
I am so proud of Rosie. She has lost 175 lbs now. She will be able to get fitted for a new wheelchair in July! Rosie only weighs 35 lbs more than me now. Looking great! You go sis! Rosie is wearing size 20-22 jeans now.
I am down to size 10-12 in jeans. Down from a 26. WOO-HOO.
Rosie and I both are now getting allergy shots.
Thinking about talking to my family doc about my mood swings.
May even start seeing a shrink again.
Wish Rosie would not have so much nausea and vomiting. She even had a dizzy spell today.
Having fibromyalgia aches and pains.. plus Fibro Fog. I hate the mental confusion it creates. Not thinking clearly. Seems like I think in slow-mo. HATE IT!
Enjoying my new puppy. SnickerDoodle, he is a BLONDE Long haired Miniature Dachshund, who worships me!
Snickers gets along with all our pets: Smoki, Jazzi, Punkin, Panther and Tater.
Snickers loves going bye-bye.
Smoki and Snickers love baskin-robbins ice cream. Take them every few weeks.
My Best friend John has been having health issues. I am worried about him. Pray that he gets better and that he sleeps well.
I have been wearing short skirts, pantyhose and knee high leather boots. I have fabulous legs! Bet I tried on 20 pairs of boots till I found one to fit my skinny legs.
I layered my hair a few weeks ago and can’t believe how wavy it is naturally.
Haven’t had much sleep lately. Rosie wakes me up a few times nightly. Tummy issues. Pray that I get some decent sleep tonight.
Praying for the man I was created for, the one God designed for me. I KNOW you are out there waiting for me. Thinking of me. Praying for me. Maybe we already know one another. Grant US both wisdom, guidance, & patience. Open up our hearts, minds, souls, and spirits to recognize each other when the time is right. Happy about my future. I know it is gonna be a good one!
I believe that God speaks and gives signs to some people… I pray that this night that God speaks to me and/or to my helpmate. Let US know. Comfort us. Give us patience. Let US Dream of one another.
Hope to travel to WV to see my family in a few weeks. I love and miss them dearly.
I am so proud of my sissy Rosie… She has lost 170 lbs in the last year. She is only 40 lbs away from my weight now. Just wish she didn’t have nausea so often. Praying for her.
I am still having bloating, gas, left quadrant pain, diarrhea alternating with constipation. Dr Boyce got my insurance to approve an abdominal CT scan.. It is scheduled on Tuesday. IF It shows what Dr Boyce expects he will be able to correct the roux-en-y surgery and help me lose additional weight. would love to lose 50-75 additional pounds. I am still over 200lbs. Barely but still! Wearing a size 12 now.
Love all the new male attention. I have a slew of online male suitors. Hoping one in particular asks for my phone number.Had a gorgeous man from Atlanta interested in me…. but he turned out to be a jerk. Have so many young BOYS wanting to get to know me better. I will only date men over 40. Not interested in any man who is under 40 at all. I have a few online personal ads… all state you must be a SINGLE/DIVORCED Male, a Christian, a Democrat, and over 40. Must love family, movies, music, pets and traveling. Other than that I am pretty open to talking to a man.
John and I are still very close. We will always be close…. but both know and accept the fact that we will never be together.
I am tired. Hope to update more on what has been happening in our lives later this week.
Been in the grasp of a fibromylagia / chronic fatigue syndrome flare-up. May be the worst episode ever. My Rheumatologist can’t see me for 2 weeks but I have an appt to see my family doc tomorrow.
Current Symptoms are:
Aches and Pains in legs, arms, thighs, shoulders, neck
Swollen Joints
Weakness
Dizziness
Cloudy Muddled Thoughts
Slow-Motion
Abnormal thoughts
Depression
Anxiety
Fatigue
Insomnia
Swollen Puffy Forehead
Diarrhea
Palpitations (noticeable and irregular heartbeat)
Still going to physical therapy for my Charcot Marie Tooth syndrome. Really enjoying the heat therapy, ultrasound, and massages on my feet. Had a good session today with Kim my physical therapist. She has only been working on my feet but I am hoping that I can get my doc to order therapy on the rest of my body.
Went shopping after therapy today. Only shopped about an hour but I am so sore all over and exhausted.
Got a purple sweater dress, a leopard coat, socks and a black shirt today.
Hope to head to the Zoo this weekend or to West Virginia to visit my family.
Having insomnia really bad lately.
Wish I felt better. Hate feeling so poorly all the time.
My sis Rosie had her 3 month Gastric Bypass Checkup. Since Feb she has lost over +125 lbs. She only weighs 66 lbs more than me now. You go Sis! Just wish her nausea would dissipate. Her hernia wound has healed enough and was told she can now start aquatic therapy!!! Woo-Hoo! Calling the Boy and Girls Club as well as Jefferson Community Pool tomorrow. Hope to start on Monday. LIFE IS GOOD!
I saw Dr. Stephen G. Boyce, who did Rosie’s gastric bypass surgery, today. I am having him investigate my continuing gastro-intestinal issues that has bothered me ever since I had my roux-en-y on Sept 14th, 2009. He has a few theories on why I only lost 50 or so pounds from the roux-en-y surgery. I should have lost 100+ lbs. Theories are my pouch should be smaller: 15 ml and not 30ml. More of my intestines need bypassed. Scar tissue. Bowel Kink.
I am having an abdominal CT Scan on Nov 1st.
*IF* it is what Dr Boyce thinks it may be, I will have to undergo another Laparoscopic surgery and I should be able to lose more weight. My BMI is still 35.3. Still OBESE!
Still suffering from upper left quadrant abdominal pains, bloating, gas and diarrhea. Severe at times.
Just hoping that some of Dr Boyce’s theories show up on the CT scan and that I can have another lap surgery and get on my way to a healthier life. He hopes it is due more to my lower bowel area than a problem with my upper stomach region. Lower gastrointestinal prob will be much easier to fix… than an upper one.
He is starting me on flagyl and was suggesting Cholestyramine till I told him I was already on Welchol. They are in the same family of meds. I have tired Cholestyramine in the past unsuccessfully.
I had gastric bypass to help me get off some of my meds. Well, I am off insulin but now on 3 NEW meds for my stomach issues!!! My current med list:
Atenolol Heart Rate/Blood Pressure Bentyl Irritable Bowel Buspar Social Anxiety Cymbalta Depression/Fibromyalgia/ CMT Loperamide Irritable Bowel Lortab Chronic Fatigue//Fibromyalgia Meta-Glip Diabetes/Insulin Resistance Synthroid Hypothyroid Trazodone Depression/Insomnia Welchol Irritable Bowel Xanax Anxiety/Insomnia Fish Oil Multi Vitamin/Mineral Biotin IRON Probiotic Vitamin B Complex D3
I AM A WALKING PHARMACY! LOL!
I really need to lose weight to help with my Charcot Marie Tooth Syndrome “CMT” which I was recently diagnosed with.
CMT Morbus Charcot-Marie-Tooth, Charcot-Marie-Tooth neuropathy, hereditary motor and sensory neuropathy (HMSN), hereditary sensorimotor neuropathy (HSMN), or peroneal muscular atrophy, is an inherited disorder of nerves (neuropathy) that takes different forms. It is characterized by loss of muscle tissue and touch sensation, predominantly in the feet and legs but also in the hands and arms in the advanced stages of disease. Currently incurable.
I inherited it from my dad. My legs and feet are getting weaker. I have extremely high arches and claw toes. When I walk, all my weight lands on the balls of my feet and not evenly as it is suppose to. My feet are starting to turn outward. Have very tight Achilles tendons. Gluts and Quads are also too tight. I started therapy last week to help prevent further damage. I have had issues all my life with twisting my ankles, losing my balance, and falling. At least now I know there is a reason and not just my clumsiness! CMT is a Muscular Dystrophy disease.
Angela October 20th, 2011 Dr Boyce's Office.
Still desiring to lose 50-75 additional pounds… with Dr Boyce’s surgical mind, capable hands, and his wonderful compassion, coupled with my rejuvenated desire to lose more weight; I am sure it can be accomplished.
I have been exercising for 15-30 min a day. Using resistant bands, stretches, and isometrics. Hope to go to aquatic aerobics 2-3 times a week. I will have to rise and shine by 7 am on the days we go… Just have to start getting my rump in bed earlier than the 4 am I am accustomed to.
I am so tired today. Got up at 8 am. Now my upper abdominal area is extended. Bloated horribly. Has been for a few hours. Miserable.
Went to Puleos in Strawberry Plains. I had a salad (greens, cheese, tomatoes, croutons, and cucumbers) homemade Italian dressing… I may have used 1 Tablespoon. Got stuffed after the salad and only had 3-4 bites of citrus chicken and 2 bites of sirloin. 3 bites of sesame noodles. One bite of bread.
I have known John for almost 4 years now. He and I text chat with video cam. No audio. I am just too shy… I finally made him a video of me taking to him with Audio. I have never made a video of myself until now.., BUT Damn I am so cute!!! Adorable. Sweet Southern Voice. John loved it! Gonna audio Chat with him LIVE this week. Think I have enough courage to do it. His step-grandsons (13 and 15) are out of school on Fall break and have been staying with him all week. Lucky to even see him on cam this week let alone TALK to him live… Hope to webcam chat with audio over the weekend.
We are heading out to pick up meds tomorrow and then gonna drive bye FrightMare Manor http://frightmaremanor.com/ to see how busy they are. It is about 2.5 miles from my house. Extremely popular attraction.
I am getting more confidence and self esteem. Feeling womanly. Dressing sexier. Receiving lots of male attention.
Been playing with makeup. Tried a few different looks this week. Some were nice… others.. eh… not so much. LOL!
I wore a black mini-dress. It is called Bandage Dress. Got it 2 years ago and finally wore it for the first time today. It is a size 16 but I could have easily worn it in a size 12. Really pleased with the way my legs looked today! Main body issue I hate is my saggy flabby tummy. Lots of loose skin there. My face is also sagging some. Been doing facial exercises and hope that it get taunter. I also have a few wrinkles on my forehead… but hell I look spectacular to be almost 46 years old! LOL!
October 20, 2011
Hoping to visit my West Virginia Family in a few weeks. Missing them all. Sending love and prayers to all of them especially to Brandy, Sara, Becky and MaShayla. Praying that Shay’s cat Zena comes home soon. Sending get well wishes to Aunt Earlene. We are hoping to stay in a Cabin At Twin Falls Resort… if one of the handicapped cabins is available the weekend we go in.
My snack tonight will be low fat mozzarella string cheese and a few red seedless grapes…. and then off to bed.
I have been tested for allergies… about 11 years ago. Found out I have Allergic Rhinitis aka allergies all year long. Only allergin that I tested positive for was birds and feathers.
I am on Claritin D now. Not been successful at all. May have to go see an allergy doc.
I have been feeling miserable. Just feel WEIRD in my entire head. Confused thoughts. Memory issues. Thoughts in slow-motion… rambling… incoherent.
I had a short chat with John tonight since I was so out of it. He looked so spiffy. Light blue dress shirt and blue tie. His normal chat wear is sweats. Love seeing him all dolled up. My normal chat attire is sweats or pajamas. No makeup. Hair in ponytail.
I am not as vain as you may think I am. I often go out shopping without any makeup and I occasionally even wear jeans or sweats out. I prolly wear a dress 75% of the time when I go out. I know that I over-dress often and wear too much makeup but I love changing my looks! It is FUN being a girl!
I have an appt to see a podiatrist tomorrow… I have some blisters from wearing a pair of new black leather sandals…. and I am now in possession of 4 open raw sores. NOT GOOD for a diabetic like myself. Will prolly have to get a new pair of diabetic shoes.
I hadn’t drove for 2 months until yesterday. Hope to drive more tomorrow… that is IF my head is feeling better.
I ordered a bunch of makeup products from Sephora yesterday. Can’t wait to try them all.
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Should be here in a few days. Also ordered a slew of hair pieces and wigs from eBay. All were less than $11.00 with FREE Shipping. Dad’s right knee is in need of replacement and now his left knee aka THE GOOD KNEE is bothering him. Barely can walk and is now using a cane. Pray that he wakes up free of pain. Some pics taken this week….. 100% my own hair!
I had a burst of energy today and did housework for over an hour. I even cooked strip steaks and cinnamony sweet tater fries… but now I am hurting severely in my shoulders and thighs. UGH! I visit my rheumy tomorrow in regards to my fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, and insomnia.
I have an appt to see a podiatrist on Thursday. I have 4 open raw sore on my feet from a new pair of shoes. I am a diabetic and worry a lot when I even get s small scratch on my feet.
I had gastric bypass roux-en-y surgery 2 years ago.I see Dr Boyce, a gastric bypass surgeon, next week. Dr Boyce is checking to see why I lost only 50 lbs from the surgery. I should have lost 100 or more.
I lost 50 lbs PRIOR to surgery and then 50 lbs by my 6th month anniversary. I weighed the same for my 1 year and 18th month anniversary. I have lost additional weight the past few months but that is from me starving myself.
He has received my medical records from my surgeon Dr Mancini. I am hoping that Dr Boyce will order some tests to check out my stomach ‘pouch’ to see if it has stretched or if there is something wrong with the surgery. I am having some stomach issues. Pain in my left quadrant, severe diarrhea and gas. Even had 2 “accidents” the past few days. UGH! Thought that the welchol, bentyl and Imodium trio had cured that but I was wrong.
I have always felt something was not right with my surgery. I started complaining to Dr Mancini and his staff 2 weeks after I had surgery… I had some tests and all according to him they were normal… but I was having green diarrhea, and severe gnawing upper left quadrant pain. Eventually Dr Mancini did exploratory surgery and discovered that I had scar tissue. Repaired that. I felt better for a few days after that but I STILL have the same problems now.
I was not happy at all with losing just 50 lbs after undergoing MAJOR surgery. I should have lost 60-80% of my excess weight. I was 165-200 lbs overweight (depending on the insurance chart and body frame I should weigh anywhere from 115 to 155) when my journey started. I am STILL at least 50 lbs overweight!!! UGH!
John thinks I am getting too skinny. He suggests once I make my next goal weight being under 200, which I am only a few pounds away from, that I will stop ‘trying’ to lose weight.
I dream of weighing less than 175. I would be ok at that weight. But I would even be happier at 125!
Dad thinks I am too skinny now as well. MEN!
Just hoping and praying that Dr Boyce checks me out thoroughly and somehow helps me lose a few more pounds.
Bought a pair of fleece HALLOWEEN pants from Wally World… size MEDIUM 8-10… and they are too big on me…. loose and baggy. There is no way that a 200 lb woman should fit in a size small… I hate vanity sizing. According to these pants….I can only imagine how baggy a size small would be on a girl who is a size 2-4-6-8…since a medium is too big on me.
According to my measurements I am a 12/14 on the majority of sizing charts…. but once I put on clothing according to the size charts I realize that you can NOT believe them at all. Varied so much. There should be STANDARD measurements that all clothing manufactures should follow. I know I harp on this often … just a pet peeve of mine.
All the excess skin in my tummy region is driving me insane. So flabby and ugly… and painful. I end up with underbelly rashes often. Dr Melling has me on nystatin cream. Insurance won’t pay for the nystatin powder. I believe if I had a tummy tuck I could wear a size 8-10 easily.
Just hoping Rosie gets medical clearance so she and I can start water aerobics.
I KNOW I am in hyper mode and rambling.
I can be hyper and lucid one minute and the next minute I am incoherent with brain fog. UGH!
Sending my love and prayers to John. He was diagnosed with Tennis elbow. Poor baby is in so much pain that he hasn’t been sleeping well. Pray he sleeps well tonight.
Over the past few years so many wonderful and exciting changes have came into my life. Some I help create, some were surprisingly sprung upon me and some transformations that I never even knew I wanted suddenly came galloping into my life. Hope that the metamorphosis continues.
I currently weigh over 100 lbs less than my highest weight of 315 lbs. (I am STILL over 200 lbs.) Gastric Bypass “Lap Roux-En-Y” and a low carb and high protein diet helped me get to this point. I would love to lose 25-35 additional lbs. I was on that way to that goal when Rosie (my sissy) underwent her Gastric Bypass “Lap Biliopancreatic Diversion with Duodenal Switch” and her subsequent MRSA infections derailed my weight loss. I gained 4 lbs. in the last 2 months. I am one of those people who EAT carbs when stressed and having my baby sister so ill, whom I am a caregiver for, was extremely stressful for me… hence I ate way more carbs than a diabetic or a gastric bypass patient should. At times, I still do. Rosie had nausea and some vomiting today so I ate a bunch of Hershey miniature candies and 2 bananas.. Sugar is 272 as I type this. Should be 70-120.. So disappointed in myself but I am gonna gain control… I have to.
All week I have had so much energy… well spurts of it at least. Right now I am hyper. Will prolly clean the dining area prior to bed. So glad that I am having SOME energy since I have virtually none the majority of the time due to chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia. Thinking back it seems I ALWAYS feel better in Sept/October… wondering if the cooler weather benefits me more than hot weather does. I have never tolerated HOT weather. Hmmm… gonna have to move to a more temperate climate … sunny, mild and breezy sounds lovely… Hawaii sounds about right!
I have so many plans for my future. Really gungho. I am gonna lose those 25-35 NAGGING lingering pounds…. and when I do I am gonna go have a tummy tuck. I absolutely positively detest my saggy and baggy lose skin in my stomach Panniculus region. I bet I could wear a size 6 or an 8 jean if I didn’t have this excess skin! In stretch denim I can wear a size 12 now.
I was this same weight 20 years ago when I married and divorced Michael Patterson Hager, Jr. He and I married 20 Years ago on Sunday. Divorced shortly after. He was just a brain fart in my life. LOL! I can NOT believe I married such a low life and gave up my virginity to him. (yep I was a 25 year old virgin. I was NO ANGEL…. He and I did fool around some prior to the wedding but I saved the best for last) I honestly am such a different lady now… Not as naive.
Age, Wisdom, Time, and Growth go hand in hand.
There have been times when I have acted high and mighty towards others and said things I regret. Acted like I was better than they were and I wish I hadn’t. I ask those whom I did this to to forgive me. I am no angel. Have never been and will never be. I am HUMAN and make mistakes like everyone else does.
I am very shy around those that I don’t know very well… BUT those close to me know that in actuality, I can be flirty, bawdy, raucous, and even hilarious. I hate having social anxiety. It keeps me from forming relationships… online and in real life. It has been 17 years since I dated. Yes…. it will be…. SEVENTEEN Years…. on Nov 18th. I have a wonderful ONLINE ONLY friendship with John. Known him for almost 4 years now.
You would never know it from reading my journal or my postings online but I have a high Intelligence Quotient… major issue I have is saying something that makes me look like a fool… or worrying about hurting other peoples feelings…. I worry way too much about what other people THINKS about me. Oh yep… I am also snobbishly proud to be the QUEEN Of the Ellipsis… LOL!
I want “THE REAL ANGELA” to come across online and in reality. I wish everyone could see the Angela that my sis Rosie and My Friend John sees. That would be a major breakthrough. I am gonna attempt to accomplish that and many other goals. 2011 has only a few months left and in those few months they are gonna be some spectacular changes in me. My appearance has changed dramatically in the 2 years, since I had gastric bypass and now is the time for my personality to shine brilliantly…. like a diamond in the sky. Sparking. Twinkling. Radiantly. Everlasting.
My renewed faith is strong and I know I can do anything I set my mind to.
I have to thank my beloved John for helping me get to this point in my life. He is the greatest man I have ever known after my Daddy. He is always there for me. Supportive. Compassionate. Considerate. Helpful. Complimentary. He is a professional. Works for the Scottish Government. Wears suits and Ties. WOW.. I loved the way he looked tonight. Majority of the time I see him in sweats but the past few evenings he has been working late and came to our webcam chat in his business attire. Tonight was a black dress shirt and a black and white polka dotted tie. So spiffy. Fashionable. I adore that he is so intelligent. He loves computers as much as I do. Knowledgeable in so many varied subjects… so unlike all the other men I have loved. Yes LOVED> I love that rascal and he loves me. He and I will remain ONLY friends unless God has other plans but for now it is a friendship. A partnership. He and I are emotionally closer than the preponderance of husbands and wives. He and I support one another. Comfort each other. ‘GET’ one another. So happy that I replied to his message 4 years ago. I knew immediately he was different. He and I met at a BBW “Big Beautiful Woman” friendship site… which has since shuttered.
John has been having some problems with his arm/elbow after falling off a ladder last weekend. Having major trouble sleeping. Pray that he gets a good nights sleep. I can’t wait to see him tomorrow night.
I have been tidying up my bedroom so John and I can have a private talk. It has been a long time since we chatted in private. Maybe twice in the last 2 years. Have been chatting on my laptop in Rosie’s room. Been TEXT chatting only… hope to talk by phone/webcam chat this weekend. He only has been seeing my face on webcam…. This weekend I will let him see me and the weight I have since lost.
I am experiencing body issues. Nothing new…. I was 315 lbs when I met John… and I was actually more comfy with my body then than I am now. I used to be way more provocative back then. I miss that part of me. Lately I have been wearing short dresses and tighter clothes. Even dyed my hair back to the color it was 20 years ago when I weighed the same. BLACK hair just suits me better. Even been wearing human hair extensions and wigs. Gastric bypass caused me to lose some of my luxurious mane. I cut over 15″ off over a year ago to see if that would make it look fuller. It didn’t…. Still almost as thin. My hair is now 23″ long again. It was over 30″ prior to the bypass. Hope to get it that long again. It is very healthy. Shiny. Just straggly and scrawny. Especially in the front area. I am just thankful that they make decent and affordable hair extensions and wigs now. I do wear my own hair the majority of the time but it [...]
Rosie is doing fantastic. She has lost over 100 lbs already. Went from a size 32 jean down to a 22. She and I went to the mall shopping today. Found all sorts of bargains. Got $600 worth of clothes for $125. We bought clothes from size 12 to 24 for her.
I am rocking a strapless dress in a Large junior size- Should have gotten a size Medium. I Love being able to find such a wide variety of clothes since I am now wearing clothes in a so called “NORMAL” range. It is a shame BUT most Plus size clothes have limited colors, styles, sizes etc.
Found a pair of black high heel leather sandals for $4.99. Were $49.99
Got a pair of black leather mules last weekend and a pair of tone-up aka rocker shoes which I adore. So comfy. I am 5’10″in them! WOO-HOO!
Still needing to find a new pair of boots for the Autumn Season.
I didn’t sleep well at the hospital and it continues now that I am back home. So tired. Been having lots of aches and pains all over. The cooler weather affects my fibromylagia and chronic fatigue syndrome. I plan on heading to bed early tonight. Needing some rest and recuperation. Had an appt with my family doc but he was sick today. Rescheduled for next Tuesday. Get well Dr Melling!
I had such a lovely time with John tonight. We hadn’t seen each other much lately at all. Just so nice to laugh and relax with him. Shared so many laughs. He always makes me smile. So debonaire and handsome. Adoring. Caring. He and I LOVE one another deeply. Been almost 4 years since we met online. He is my soulmate. My best friend. He and I share EVERYTHING. No secrets. No lies. We understand one another. We are closer than 99.9% of married couples. Blessed to call John my bestie.
When Rosie was in the hospital and was so ill… I started overeating carbs. Stress does that to me. I will get weighed on Thursday at Dr Boyce. Hope I haven’t gain more than 5 lbs. I am now back on track. PROTEIN PROTEIN PROTEIN!
I wore my hair up in an elaborate up-do with a large fuchsia “fascinator” flower. John loves fascinators.. Rosie has an extensive collection of them. She has been an avid fan for many years. Rosie also collects gloves. Sexy fancy gloves. Some are opera length. All sorts of colors, styles, textures, and lengths. Really cool ones. Rosie also collects tiara’s!
John thought I looked very elegant tonight… with my shoulders bare and my hair up…. He could not get over how gorgeous I looked tonight. He RARELY sees me all dolled up. Cause 95% of the time he sees me without ANY makeup and my hair in a pony tail. I dress-up ONLY 50% of the time when I go out shopping ( once or twice weekly) and I NEVER dress-up when I am at home.
I did my pedi last night. Jet Black toes. Gonna do my mani tomorrow. Prolly silver nails. I may add some glitter to my toe nails.
Need to trim my bangs/fringe. Need to get some scissors first. Rosie’s RN Portia needed a pair of good scissors to cut the sponge for Rosie’s wound vac for her hernia. So I lent my hair cutting scissors to her. Need new ones now.. since those are now too dull to cut hair. Going to Sally Beauty this weekend.
My hair is growing very fast. Thank God! Just wish it was a tad thicker. It was much thicker prior to my gastric bypass which was 2 years ago.
Purchased some new makeup items yesterday. Enjoying them all. May write some reviews later on. New foundation, eyeliner gels, lipsticks, and lip glosses. I am also rying out 2 new Body washes this week.
Digging Katy Perry’s PURR perfume (combining top notes of peach, forbidden apple, gardenia, green bamboo with the heart of jasmine, pink freesia, Bulgarian rose with the base of vanilla orchid, creamy sandalwood, white amber, coconut and musk.) It is YUMMY!
Had more than one man tell me that I resemble Katy Perry. I take it as a compliment.She is gorgeous… just wish I had Russell Brand! He is one of my faves!
Dyed my hair JET black 2 days ago. Did Rosie’s in Light Intense Red. Looks cool!
Been lazy and haven’t took many pics lately. Did take some of Rosie today. Still need to get them from the camera to the laptop.
Rosie’s OPEN hernia wound is healing so quickly. Docs and nurses are amazed at how quickly it is healing. Hope they give the OK to stop the wound vac this week or next.
Rosie’s blood is too thin .. it was 4.8 yesterday. Gonna re-test tomorrow. It should be between 2 and 3. She is on coumadin (blood thinner) and is off it for 2 days to see if that help regulate it to a therapeutic level.
My IBS is doing ok. Went without Welchol a few days while Rosie was in the hsopital and I had some issues. Still having severe putrid gas but that goes with Gastric Bypass Surgery. The majority of people who have major stomach surgery complains with gas and gas pains. Some days it is much better than others. I always blame the cats and dog. LOL!
I had severe allergies this past few days. Yesterday I ended up taking a nap to help a sinus headache. That nap lasted 4 hours! LOL!
Getting off the laptop to go get a snack. Will prolly be cottage cheese and fresh pineapple. YUMMY!
I am so grateful for all the friends and family I have in my life.
